Summary: I don't think I'm obsessed… but for 5 years she's been fighting her self… is she really not obsessed… and can she really go back to him after three years… will the well open up… and why hasn't he come?
Genre: humor/drama
Chapter 2
I'm not obsessed right? Part 2
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And nothing happened! Great! I knew I wasn't meant to return…
'Just open up already!'
'Kagome…'
Holy shit…
'Kagome… please come back… everything went wrong… this wasn't supposed to happen…'
Ya, well a lot of things weren't supposed to happen… like this…
'Please Kagome… I need you to come back…''InuYasha…?'
'Kagome! You are there!'Oh Kami… this cant be happening… 'what- what's going on?'
'come back! Please come back! You must see, everything has changed!'
'I can go back… its been to long… I've changed…'
'no please you must!'
'I… I cant… I cant go back!' she ran out.
'KAGOME! NO! Kagome'…
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I don't know what came over me… but I couldn't… I cant stand hearing his voice… even though I miss him so much…hearing his voice… made all the pain come back… I can never return again… even if my heart breaks and I loose my mind… I wont allow myself to go back… it would be the end of me… 'I'm soo sorry…. But please don't make me go… its all for the best… I'll miss you always… but this will be for the best… I'm sorry…'
after that… I really wasn't the same again. The following week I changed schools and I changed myself… my mom supported me, saying that she would have my back and know that I'm doing this to forget them… but Souta… lets just say… he is very ashamed of me… I guess I could understand why… he says that I should stop this and return… but I would always counter him with my own remark… "how would you feel if I went there and never came back?"… he said he never thought of that…. So now he has stopped that… but now he wont talk to me… I tell him to get over it like I have… but then he tells me, "If you're over him, why are you doing this? Why do you call out to him at night…" he asked why I wear his beads… it wont bring him back… after that comment, I smacked him so hard my hand hurt… but my hand wasn't the only thing that hurt after… I've never hurt my brother in my life… and I can't believe that I did over the stupidest reason… I hurt both of us over my stupid childish problem…. And this is one of the reasons why Souta doesn't speak.. yet alone look at me… I'm so ashamed… I'm so sorry Souta.
I wish I never did that… I hope that one day he will forgive me like I hope to one day to forgive myself… but I know until then I must not do anything like that ever again… but it's hard… the looks he gives me, the things I see in his eyes…. Makes me want to crawl into a hole and die… but I also restrain me self-not to wipe that look odd his face… even if it means hurting each other again… I will do it. And he knows it….
I ran into my friends the other day… it was so awkward… not like it was before… but now I don't really think of them as my friends… and I'm not that sad anymore… but when I'm lonely and want to talk to someone… that's when I really feel alone… I haven't made new friends at my new school yet… I think it's for the best… but I wish I had someone to talk to… and someone to tell me what to do with my problems… I miss Sango… my sister I never had… I wish you happiness… in what ever you chose…
I also ran into Hojo, and he didn't say anything much… that might have been a good thing… oh, there's a knock at my door…
It was Souta… strange, he only said sorry… and so did I… we made up, but I can still tell there is still a wall between us… but as long as it doesn't get that big… I think we'll be ok.
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'Hey Kagome!'
Its Chi, we've been getting along pretty well, but I wouldn't consider us friends. 'Hey.' I can't have, let alone handle any type of friendship right now.
'Where are you going?'
'I was going to skip, I can't handle school today.' Because I had one of those dreams again… the ones that haunt me… the ones that show me what I fear… everyone dead, by his hands… with me watching from the side lines, also about to die.
'You've been doing it a lot lately… into drugs?'
I'd rather die than sink that low… 'NO! That's the stupidest thing that I would do.'
'But you would do it?'
'Not even if my life depended on it… I'm not that desperate.' I fix my shoulder bag, the chains jingling, and I leave the school.
No one knows me. No one can possibly know what I've gone through. And no one will ever understand… they're just too simple minded… they don't even know what its like to be truly afraid… I do. That's were the differences definitely start… its sad to know that no matter what… I will never be normal again… the jewel changed me so much… I will no longer have the privilege of having a normal life…
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Ok… I've decided to go… I'm going to try the well one last time… if I don't go through, there will be no reason for me to stay at the shrine…. I've talked it over with my mother and asked if I could move out, and into a little apartment two blocks away… she said yes, and since I have a good paying job, she wont need to help me with the financial stuff… I'm nineteen… its time I go out and live on my own…
I grabbed my shoulder bag and I started to put some things in it that I might need if I travel back in time… after that I look in the mirror… I have changed… my hair is six inches longer, I've traded my green school skirt, for black cargo pants with tones of pockets, zippers, chains and fabric chains. My school top for a black shirt with rock group names on it. And those school shoes to black runners… I'm not the same Kagome from five years ago… I'm different… yet I'm still the same… time to test fate… am I really meant to go back to the Feudal era… or am I destined to stay here, and wonder what happened to all of them…
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I'm at the well… my brother is also with me… I'm glad… at least I will prove one of us wrong… most likely me…
'Good luck, Kagome.'
I turn to him, 'as long as I have a brother like you I will always have luck.'
'Say hi, to InuYasha for me please.'
'I love you Souta…'
'You have been the greatest sister I could ever ask for…'
We hugged, and with tears down our cheeks we let go and I jumped…
'I love you sister Kagome…' that was the last thing I heard from him…
'Welcome back… Kagome…'
