Meh, no answer, SMR. Where are you?

Thank you for being so patient you loyal people! I haven't written in AGES! It's my Birthday tomorrow (The 29th) so I promised my friend I would write two chapters for her, one now, one Sunday. Okaaay? Good!

Poem is Ayame-san, poor snake!

Now, it's a month after my birthday, I've been slacking off, so much. I'll do it now, and It'll be up by the end of August! I have up to number ten of the fruits basket manga, and I have to say, this is based after the anime. With bits thrown in about the manga, like Rin and Kureno, who EXIST now.

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Blowing Free

By: TokyoSuburbia

Chapter Seven: Kamisori no ha

I miss the way you made me laugh and smile.
I miss the days you drove me wild.
I miss the days we'd look each other in the eyes and not utter a sound.
I miss the true love I had finally found.
I miss the ways you made me feel
I miss the broken heart you always knew how to heal
I miss all the ways you touched me
You were the one that could unlock my heart you had the only key.
Where ever you are I miss you so much
I want you back, I want to feel your gentle touch.
No one will ever take your place
Oh how I miss you so, I can't wait till
the day when I can again look, and touch your face.
I miss, love and need you here with me
Because without you I can't find my way I cannot see!

SHIGURE

I opened my eyes, slowly, and the bright light, shining through a crack in the curtains hit my eyes, and I realized who was next to me.

I don't know how I got so lucky as to get away with all my liaisons. I've been with so many people in my family, but somehow I've managed to avoid anyone knowing about what I do at night. I sat up, and looked over Akito. It took me a while to see he was awake, smiling in his sadistic way.

"Good morning, Shigure" He said in his sleek tone.

I smiled "Good morning!" I stretched, and yawned, soon finding out how sore I was from sleeping in an interesting position. As I stood up, Akito rested himself across where I was laying, his kimono splitting, showing all the way up his leg, and barely tying at his waist, above that, most of his chest was bared, as the material of his robe parted around his sides. "Are you doing that to tempt me?" I finally rested my eyes deeply inside his.

"Doing what, Shigure?" He slitted his eyes, smiling almost coldly.

"Looking so… luring…"

"No. I don't believe I am…" He sat up, pulling himself together, I was a little disappointed, but never the less, we both needed showers. By the time I had thought about it, he was already gone.

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I was drying my hair when Akito leant on the door frame of the bathroom.

"Akito. It's…" I paused "Not often you come to see someone like this…" I looked puzzled as I pulled on my shirt.

"I just thought you'd want to know, Ayame seemed to have… Intruded this morning while you were still asleep." He could have laughed, I could see it in his eyes as my face sunk.

"You basted!" I passed at him, before running out. I couldn't believe he used me like that; how did he find out about us! I couldn't let him destroy me and Aya.

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KYOU

I was sitting in the kitchen, eating some dry toast when Yuki came in, his head bowed; tired as he was every morning. He sat down beside me and grabbed my other piece of toast.

"I WAS gonna eat that…" He groaned, and took a bite. "Ah, go on, eat it then…" And he did. Momiji then bounced in, and I realized that the people from the main house would be staying a few more days; which meant Akito. I was a little worried.

"Gooooooood morning Yuki, Kyou!" Momiji giggled, and went to get some cereal.

"Yeah, yeah, you too." I went to the tap and go a glass of water, but instead of drinking it, I just dumped it over Yuki's head. Momiji gasped, and so did Yuki, who must have woken up, because he punched me in the arm.

"Settle down, you two! No fighting so early!" Momiji laughed.

"We won't fight." Yuki said, dripping wet. "I better go change now…" He finished his toast and went off to the bathroom. At that moment Shigure ran out of the house.

"I wonder why he's in such a hurry…" Momiji shrugged. "I'm going home today; I had some holiday homework I had to do…" He drank from his glass of milk "So does Hiro, Kisa's coming back, too." He finished his milk. "So, I'm gonna go get them. Oh Hatori said Akito and Ritsu would be staying with you, and so would Ayame, since he's run off somewhere… Bye!" He ran out.

I sighed. "At least he's gone…"

"You don't like him, then, Kyou?" A monotone voce said from the shadows of the 'dark room'. (A/N: There's a Jap name for that, but I'm not using it) I could guess who it was. "Funny, I don't like him either." Akito stepped out of the shadows.

"What the hell do you want?" I snapped back to my personality I had ignored for so long.

"You can't talk to me like that" He glared.

"Peh! Watch me!" I stuck up my finger. "I don't give a fuck about you. Everyone treats you like you have a virus! They don't wanna get near you, but they wanna be nice!"

"A virus would be an… Interesting way to put things…" He looked a little sad. "But you, of all, the most cursed one, should show more respect… Anyway, I was just listening in, nothing to worry about, Kyou…" He glared more. "It seems you've stopped you bickering with the rat." He walked forward.

"Yeah, so?" I stood.

"It has never been that way before, though you were a most feisty feline…" He was close to me now.

"Ha, it's pointless! Why should I waste my time on that thing!" We were almost touching now.

"Remember Kyou, you have to beat him, and you know what? Time is running out! It's halfway through the year. You have six months to beat him, and then he is mine. And you are free. It's what you've always wanted. Remember?" He touched my face with his icy hand. I opened my mouth to speak, but soon forgot what I was to say as I looked into his eyes. "Or you'll be locked away, where you won't see the sun, or anyone you care about, ever again."

"I don't care about anyone!" I said, without thinking. And I pushed his hand away.

"Oooh, touchy…" He smiled, almost normally, then grabbed my hair, and thrust me to the floor. "You hear me? You fix up what you need to do! I've seen the way you act around him now, you're getting soft! Fight with him!" He pulled my sharply back up, and attacked my mouth with his, pushing me closer to him, biting my lip, and sucking blood from the flesh he tore.

I struggled, but he held me close, before slamming me down again, and as I looked up, he was gone. Yuki came down the stairs, and saw me. So he ran down to see what had happened.

"That wasn't Momiji was it?" He laughed, but when I looked up and he saw my bleeding lip his smile disappeared. "Are you alright?" He knelt beside me.

"Sure." I sat up and ebbed the bleeding with my sleeve.

"What happenend?" He looked worried.

"Akito…" I shouldn't have told him the truth, I just realized about how Akito hurt him. "But, it was really nothing… It doesn't hurt… He just bit me."

"How did he get close enough to bite you?" He looked terrified now.

"He kissed me… Or, tried to eat my mouth…" I tried to smile. But Yuki didn't look happy.

"Well, you'll be okay…" He sighed.

"Yeah…"

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RITSU

I was walking back to the house, as I'd just gone for a walk… It was nice. I like to go and see what nature has to offer, even though I probably don't deserve its beauty.

Or the beauty of Tohru Honda. She was so young, and I was a lot older than her. And even if I was the same age, she could have someone wonderful over me, like Yuki or Kyou. What chance do I have?

I guess I'm a little nervous, because I want to tell her how I feel. But then, maybe my feelings won't matter at all. Oh! I'm sorry! I'm wasting my own time talking about my sorrows! I should just be quiet. No one wants to know about Ritsu.

"Ritsu!" The angel that was Tohru came towards me.

"Oh… He- hello miss Honda!" I smiled weakly

"You can call me Tohru!" She laughed. "Please do, I want to know we're friends now." And friends were probably all we would be.

"I'm sorry, Tohru. I didn't mean to insu-" before I could finish she had put her finger to my lips, blushing furiously, though she looked like she was trying to be brave.

"Don't say you're sorry" Her voice quavered a bit. "You don't have to be…" She removed her hand. "I like you Ritsu…" We both blushed. "So… You don't have to be sorry!" She shut her eyes tight.

"I… Okay…" I smiled. "If that's what you want, Tohru, I won't anymore… I like you, too" She opened her eyes, and we both laughed. "Tohru…. I was wondering…" I took a deep breath. "Doyouwannagooutwithme?" I turned scarlet.

"I… I wanted to ask you that… Sure." I relaxed, and she waved goodbye, saying she had chores to do. I couldn't believe what had happened, how selfish could I be! To ask Tohru out like that. Selfish, selfish, selfish! I realized what I had done too late.

I quickly ran inside, and to the room Shigure had let me stay in, and started flinging things out of my suitcase, until I fond what I was looking for.

I let out a sigh of relief as I dragged the blade along the skin over my hips, moving the blunting knife up to my stomach. It felt so good to cut myself. When ever I got something I didn't deserve, I could be alone, and punish myself. And thinking about Tohru, that was horrible. I can't think of people like that. And to steal her away from people who love her… Like I do.

I dug deeper into my flesh, and blood dripped quickly down, making a spot on the floor. I grabbed my towel and whipped it onto the floor, so I wouldn't bleed onto it. Another cut across my shoulder let me be forgiven for soiling Shigure's floor with my sulty crimson blood. Then I started to talk to myself.

"The more I think about it, the more I feel I shouldn't exist. I relieve myself here…" I sniffed as the pain started to get to me. "I shouldn't do this. I'm not worthy of feeling better, easing the pain. Even now I waste air, and a perfectly good towel, and this is just one thing I can't stop doing. And I hate myself for just getting more and more in the way of everything." I traced over wounds still healing, which split at the knife's passing.

"But what can I do? If I killed myself, it would cause Tohru pain. Even though I don't want to admit it. And even then, someone else would have to bear the curse of the monkey. And if I run away… Someone else would be bothered." I finished off my work by slashing across my back as far as I could reach.

"I want… To cry for help." I shook, pain searing through me at last "But how could I think of such a selfish thing?" I felt hot tears run down my face. "And all these feelings just twist together, and there's no way out without causing a fuss. It's pathetic to be so self centered! That's what I am… Pathetic." I looked down at the bloody mess that was my pathetic body. "And it will never make sense to anyone."

I took some bandages out of my bag, and wrapped them around myself. Shutting off all the voices in my head, and I took a deep, rattling breath, packed everything up, and walked out. I knew that I would stutter from the pain, as usual.

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Okay, that was a cheery way to end things. But, seriously, these things shouldn't be taken lightly, I'm sure a few people feel like that, and I know a few things I take from my own feelings. But, y'know, life goes on. Ignore the voices!

I'm not gonna blab about myself though, but its nice to see that I can show how it feels sometimes.

I'll start work on the next one, soon enough. G'night ppls.