Nobody Hears Love
By Livinlifedabestucan
Summary: Faith becomes open with her feelings, but cannot deal with Buffy and Spike.
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the words said. The song is "Nobody Hears" by Suicidal Tendencies.
The story.....
My name is Faith. I don't have a last name really; I did once, but my watcher told me to lose it. That is the past though, along with a lot of things that are the past. You see I am back in good old Sunnydale seeking redemption from the people I caused the most pain. B wasn't too thrilled that I was back, but the world is going to end so she needs me. She accepted my apology without kicking my ass first. She doesn't trust me yet, but I am working on that. So far I am doing a good job with it. I am like a good shove and she'll trust me again.
I know she has feelings for me. I see it in the way she looks at me. I know she knows how I feel. I mean how couldn't she know? I basically told her when I saw her. She never acts on her feelings though.
I have a lot of hidden pain that I know shows. Yet no one cares. I scream inside myself and I just am ignored. She ignores it as well.
I talk through my eyes, the words pouring down
Nobody hears
You ask what's wrong, but what can I say
Nobody hears
I try to tell you, I try to show you
How else can I tell you, how else can I show you?
I know if I kiss her she will lash out, but it kills me seeing her with Spike. I want to be the one she goes to for support and comfort, but she doesn't even see me. I know my heart screams in pain when I hear them fucking in the basement. I'm on my last limb and I know I am falling fast.
I'm screaming inside, why can't you hear?
Nobody hears,
You're looking right through me like I'm not here
Nobody hears
Sometimes I wonder why I'm here and not running. Then I remember the blond haired bitch that holds my heart. At night I know I cry, but she doesn't know. She is always with him.
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
I know I messed up, but I am doing my best to prove myself to be different. He's just as bad as me and yet you run to him with arms wide open.
You're so damn perfect. Golden curls falling on your shoulders with jade eyes filled with wonder. You have the perfect life, with friends that love you, a sister that follows you around and everyone loves you through your mistakes.
You use my mistakes to keep me off the patrol shift. You just don't understand that I am itching to go out there.
You figured it, you shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from this equation
Nobody hears
Some days you treat me as if I don't exist. Some days you hide your love for me so much that I start to believe it is in my head, but those smiles you send my way always have me so confused.
Is it all in my mind
Then it would be easy to find
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
So if it's all, if it's all in my mind
Then wouldn't it, wouldn't it
Wouldn't it be so easy to find
Maybe I'm going psycho on you again. All these thoughts are driving me insane. I know that I am not happy. Some days I just want to end it all. Than you will have a new slayer and I won't be such a bother to you. I tried to end it once and it didn't work. I know I am going to try again. Some time soon. Maybe tonight. Maybe you'll stop me, but I doubt it. You'll be too wrapped up with him. Tonight it is. Tonight you won't have to worry about me anymore.
So what do I have to do
To make you comfort me
Now I'm standing here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
It's early evening now. I'm in your room. The first night I got here you forced me to bunk with you. It was either you or the potentials. I chose you, those girls give me the willies. The knife you stabbed my gut with is in my hand. If I succeed, this pain will be over. Your pain won't end, but I'll do it anyways . You always said I was selfish.
I slash my wrist quickly. I can feel the dull pain course through me. I continue slashing myself slowly. I want to suffer before I die. The slashing becomes feverish now as I see images of you and him together. My anger gets the best of me. I can feel you on the stairs coming upstairs to your room. I know that I am so dead if you catch me or maybe you'll laugh. I am beginning to fade, so I just sit there staring at the door waiting for you to come through it. You are turning to door knob slowly...
So I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I'm sitting here inside myself
I feel a lone tear roll down my cheek and I wipe it away with my bloody wrist.
So I'm sitting here screaming to nobody else
Don't understand why nobody hears
You walk into the room and see me sitting there staring at you. You see the blood on my cheek and the knife in my hands. Your confusion is apparent and I can just image that you think I killed someone again. You walk towards me cautiously and I drop the knife onto my lap.
I stand up from where I was sitting and walk towards you. The knife is forgotten on the floor. I can feel my energy leaving me, so I hope I can make it to you before I die. I reach to you with my bleeding arm. I touch your cheek with my hand that is going cold.
"Hey B." Is all I can manage to say to you.
You see the blood dripping from my wrist and your eyes grow wide.
"Faith, what have you done?" You say with tears in your eyes. Damn you look pretty when you cry. Too late for me though. I start to fall to the ground and I can feel your arms around me. Your face is above mine and your face is the last thing I see before I fade to black. I can here your voice yelling for Giles and Willow, so I know I'm not dead yet.
And nobody hears, nobody hears, nobody hears
What do you think? Should I continue this?
By Livinlifedabestucan
Summary: Faith becomes open with her feelings, but cannot deal with Buffy and Spike.
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the words said. The song is "Nobody Hears" by Suicidal Tendencies.
The story.....
My name is Faith. I don't have a last name really; I did once, but my watcher told me to lose it. That is the past though, along with a lot of things that are the past. You see I am back in good old Sunnydale seeking redemption from the people I caused the most pain. B wasn't too thrilled that I was back, but the world is going to end so she needs me. She accepted my apology without kicking my ass first. She doesn't trust me yet, but I am working on that. So far I am doing a good job with it. I am like a good shove and she'll trust me again.
I know she has feelings for me. I see it in the way she looks at me. I know she knows how I feel. I mean how couldn't she know? I basically told her when I saw her. She never acts on her feelings though.
I have a lot of hidden pain that I know shows. Yet no one cares. I scream inside myself and I just am ignored. She ignores it as well.
I talk through my eyes, the words pouring down
Nobody hears
You ask what's wrong, but what can I say
Nobody hears
I try to tell you, I try to show you
How else can I tell you, how else can I show you?
I know if I kiss her she will lash out, but it kills me seeing her with Spike. I want to be the one she goes to for support and comfort, but she doesn't even see me. I know my heart screams in pain when I hear them fucking in the basement. I'm on my last limb and I know I am falling fast.
I'm screaming inside, why can't you hear?
Nobody hears,
You're looking right through me like I'm not here
Nobody hears
Sometimes I wonder why I'm here and not running. Then I remember the blond haired bitch that holds my heart. At night I know I cry, but she doesn't know. She is always with him.
When the last tear falls down
Nothing gets washed away
Another plea put to rest
As nobody hears, nobody hears
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
I know I messed up, but I am doing my best to prove myself to be different. He's just as bad as me and yet you run to him with arms wide open.
You're so damn perfect. Golden curls falling on your shoulders with jade eyes filled with wonder. You have the perfect life, with friends that love you, a sister that follows you around and everyone loves you through your mistakes.
You use my mistakes to keep me off the patrol shift. You just don't understand that I am itching to go out there.
You figured it, you shaped it to your perfection
Nobody hears
Subtracted my feelings from this equation
Nobody hears
Some days you treat me as if I don't exist. Some days you hide your love for me so much that I start to believe it is in my head, but those smiles you send my way always have me so confused.
Is it all in my mind
Then it would be easy to find
So what did I do to you
That makes you run from me
Now I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
So if it's all, if it's all in my mind
Then wouldn't it, wouldn't it
Wouldn't it be so easy to find
Maybe I'm going psycho on you again. All these thoughts are driving me insane. I know that I am not happy. Some days I just want to end it all. Than you will have a new slayer and I won't be such a bother to you. I tried to end it once and it didn't work. I know I am going to try again. Some time soon. Maybe tonight. Maybe you'll stop me, but I doubt it. You'll be too wrapped up with him. Tonight it is. Tonight you won't have to worry about me anymore.
So what do I have to do
To make you comfort me
Now I'm standing here screaming inside myself
Don't understand why nobody hears
It's early evening now. I'm in your room. The first night I got here you forced me to bunk with you. It was either you or the potentials. I chose you, those girls give me the willies. The knife you stabbed my gut with is in my hand. If I succeed, this pain will be over. Your pain won't end, but I'll do it anyways . You always said I was selfish.
I slash my wrist quickly. I can feel the dull pain course through me. I continue slashing myself slowly. I want to suffer before I die. The slashing becomes feverish now as I see images of you and him together. My anger gets the best of me. I can feel you on the stairs coming upstairs to your room. I know that I am so dead if you catch me or maybe you'll laugh. I am beginning to fade, so I just sit there staring at the door waiting for you to come through it. You are turning to door knob slowly...
So I'm sitting here screaming inside myself
Well I'm sitting here inside myself
I feel a lone tear roll down my cheek and I wipe it away with my bloody wrist.
So I'm sitting here screaming to nobody else
Don't understand why nobody hears
You walk into the room and see me sitting there staring at you. You see the blood on my cheek and the knife in my hands. Your confusion is apparent and I can just image that you think I killed someone again. You walk towards me cautiously and I drop the knife onto my lap.
I stand up from where I was sitting and walk towards you. The knife is forgotten on the floor. I can feel my energy leaving me, so I hope I can make it to you before I die. I reach to you with my bleeding arm. I touch your cheek with my hand that is going cold.
"Hey B." Is all I can manage to say to you.
You see the blood dripping from my wrist and your eyes grow wide.
"Faith, what have you done?" You say with tears in your eyes. Damn you look pretty when you cry. Too late for me though. I start to fall to the ground and I can feel your arms around me. Your face is above mine and your face is the last thing I see before I fade to black. I can here your voice yelling for Giles and Willow, so I know I'm not dead yet.
And nobody hears, nobody hears, nobody hears
What do you think? Should I continue this?
