Disclaimer: "Lean On Me" is by Bill Withers
BUFFY P.O.V.:
"We need to talk." I say calmly. I can feel her tense in my embrace, but I have to do this.
"No we don't," she says quietly.
"Yeah we do." I stop her from interrupting me by putting a single finger onto her lips. "We need to talk about us, and about last night. I'm not mad, but we need to talk about it."
That wasn't too hard, now I just need to tell her everything.
"Don't say anything right now, 'cuz there's a lot I need to tell you. All of it ties into last night." I take a deep breath and begin. Faith is looking at me with those sweet dark chocolate eyes. "I tried to do what you did last night. Obviously someone saved me. I couldn't stand living in this world without you. Yes, you. You are the only one that can understand what it means to be a slayer. You're the one that hold my heart. You're the one that keeps me alive these days. I know it doesn't seem like I care about you some days, but I do. I only fucked Spike because I need release. Slaying always leaves me hungry and horny." At this I wink at her watching her blush. "I didn't know if you loved me, so I stayed with Spike. Yesterday I was going to tell you how I felt, but I saw you almost die on me." She turns her head away from me in shame. "And now I know how it must have felt for Dawn to walk in on me doing the same thing. I don't want you to die on me. Promise me you won't kill yourself."
She looks at me sadly, "I can't do that B."
"Dammit Faith! I don't want to lose you, please promise me this!" I am close to tears now and I can't help the anger that I feel.
"I won't. I'm not stable enough to make that promise and aim to keep it."
"Then listen to me. I won't leave you. Just listen to this song." I'm getting teary and desperate not. Damn her why can't she just promise me this.
"Sometimes, in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorry
But, if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow"
I'm singing to her hoping she gets what I'm saying. I know she knows this song.
"Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For, it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on."
I wrap my arms aroung her. I'm singing softly in her ear. I feel her shaking in my arms and I want to cry myself, but the song must go on.
"Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill
Those of your needs that you won't let show"
I mean every word I'm singing to her. My soul is being poured out to her. No one else, save Dawn, can make me act this way.
"You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For, it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on"
I think she's finally getting it. I knew she would. This is important for her to understand. I'm not going to let her go or let what happened before happen again. I love her too much to let her go now. Or ever. I just want to be the one that holds her every time she's sad. I want to be the one to wipe away her tears. I want to be her everything.
"You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load
You have to bear, that you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load if you just call me
Call me if you need a friend
Call me ..."
"I love you Faith."
BUFFY P.O.V.:
"We need to talk." I say calmly. I can feel her tense in my embrace, but I have to do this.
"No we don't," she says quietly.
"Yeah we do." I stop her from interrupting me by putting a single finger onto her lips. "We need to talk about us, and about last night. I'm not mad, but we need to talk about it."
That wasn't too hard, now I just need to tell her everything.
"Don't say anything right now, 'cuz there's a lot I need to tell you. All of it ties into last night." I take a deep breath and begin. Faith is looking at me with those sweet dark chocolate eyes. "I tried to do what you did last night. Obviously someone saved me. I couldn't stand living in this world without you. Yes, you. You are the only one that can understand what it means to be a slayer. You're the one that hold my heart. You're the one that keeps me alive these days. I know it doesn't seem like I care about you some days, but I do. I only fucked Spike because I need release. Slaying always leaves me hungry and horny." At this I wink at her watching her blush. "I didn't know if you loved me, so I stayed with Spike. Yesterday I was going to tell you how I felt, but I saw you almost die on me." She turns her head away from me in shame. "And now I know how it must have felt for Dawn to walk in on me doing the same thing. I don't want you to die on me. Promise me you won't kill yourself."
She looks at me sadly, "I can't do that B."
"Dammit Faith! I don't want to lose you, please promise me this!" I am close to tears now and I can't help the anger that I feel.
"I won't. I'm not stable enough to make that promise and aim to keep it."
"Then listen to me. I won't leave you. Just listen to this song." I'm getting teary and desperate not. Damn her why can't she just promise me this.
"Sometimes, in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorry
But, if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow"
I'm singing to her hoping she gets what I'm saying. I know she knows this song.
"Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For, it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on."
I wrap my arms aroung her. I'm singing softly in her ear. I feel her shaking in my arms and I want to cry myself, but the song must go on.
"Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill
Those of your needs that you won't let show"
I mean every word I'm singing to her. My soul is being poured out to her. No one else, save Dawn, can make me act this way.
"You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For, it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on"
I think she's finally getting it. I knew she would. This is important for her to understand. I'm not going to let her go or let what happened before happen again. I love her too much to let her go now. Or ever. I just want to be the one that holds her every time she's sad. I want to be the one to wipe away her tears. I want to be her everything.
"You just call on me brother when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load
You have to bear, that you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load if you just call me
Call me if you need a friend
Call me ..."
"I love you Faith."
