I am going to give you guys a warning now that I should have put in chapter 1. I suck at updating. I will update at various times, as much as I love to do it, I just don't. I might update twice a day, and then not update for a month and a half, but don't give up on me, 'cause I will update.

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A/N: in chapter one I said that the music will be from Evanescence's cd Fallen. I lied. Loll. Or I changed my mind, yyea that one. The music will still be Evanescence just not from one CD. And from now on if you want to know the song's name, it's the chapter title.


How can I pretend that I don't see
What you hide so carelessly
I saw her bleed
You heard me breathe
And I froze inside myself and turned away
I must be dreaming

We all live, we all die
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No, I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind

Not real life
No, I must be dreaming


I didn't know why I was in school today. I had spent the weekend and the rest of Friday at the hospital, convincing myself that the sight in front of me wasn't real.

Mom had figured that I had had enough time to mourn without going anywhere, and forced me out of bed. I hadn't cried and I didn't plan to. She wasn't really dead anyway, so it would be a waste of tears… right?

I dressed in a black knee length skirt with a black sweater. Yea, not my usually style, but I wasn't feeling like my usual self.

"Heyy Brooke!" Peyton said catching up to me in the halls. I was hoping to avoid her, along with Lucas and Nathan. I just wanted to get through the day and get home. I didn't want to talk to anyone.

"Hey." I whispered out of the corner of my mouth.

"What's wrong, you've been so quite all day?" She asked worried.

"It's nothing," I lied. What was I supposed to say, "MY SISTER JUST DIED FOR GOD;S SAKE!" I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. All this anger was building up inside of me and I didn't even know it. It didn't matter because Haley wasn't dead.


Help, I know I've got to tell someone
Tell them what I know you've done
I fear you, but spoken fears can come true

We all live, we all die
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No, I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not real life
No, I must be dreaming

We all live, we all die
That does not begin to justify you
It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No, I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not real life
No, I must be dreaming


"Brooke, I'm your best friend, I know when something's wrong and I'm not going to take this BS from you. You can talk to me. I mean," her voice suddenly calmer, "If you can't talk to me, who can you talk to?"

"It's nothing Peyt,"

"Oh you did not just call me Peyt. Now I know something's wrong. I don't even think that you've ever called me Peyton, and you know how much I hate Peyt. Fess up."

She was probably expecting that I'd tell her that I don't know, I'm moving, Lucas and I broke up, I didn't get into cheerleading camp, or something stupid like that. Stuff that was my whole life last Friday morning. Well not my whole life, Haley was the biggest part of my life and she was gone now.

"It's nothing Peyton." I said with an edge, walking off. Like any good friend would, she followed.

"Brooke you can tell me."

"You wouldn't understand." I said stopping.

"Try me. I've dealt with every kind of crap, Heartache, Rejection, Hurt physical and mental, death." I froze. "Oh my God Brooke, who died?" She said in a low worried voice.

I walked off. She was right, she would understand, her mom had died. But I loved Haley more than anyone could ever love their mom.

She followed. "Brooke, it feel's better when you talk about it. I didn't talk about my mom for days, and it felt so good to tell someone. You can tell me."

I quickly ran out of the school and drove home.


Not what it seems
Not what you think
I must be dreaming
Just in my mind
Not real life
I must be dreaming



Peyton war right, if you can't tell your best friend, who can you tell? The only problem is that my best friend is the problem.
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