THE JOURNAL OF RACETRACK HIGGINS Chapter 5
Disclaimer: THIS IS SLASH... If ya don't like it, DON'T READ IT! I don't own Race or any of the Newsies. Anything else in here actually doesn't belong to me because they are actually people or places...
A/N - okies... Short chapter! (But a good one, I promise you!) This is what was actually supposed to go after last chapter, that I hadn't finished yet.. But it's finished now! And my goal for next chapter is Monday! (Hopefully, not totally promising.. Busy weekend, sis going back to college, reports due Tuesday, crew all day Monday, etc.) so yeah.. Ok without further babblings, onto the chapter!
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1/9/04
I officially HATE Braids. And all the damn homophobes in my school. I walk an inch without someone whispering or laughing at me.
And it gets worse...
For an English project, Mrs. Grill assigned partners. And lucky me, I get partnered with a bitchy cheerleader, who I heard her say to her friends, "Great, I'm stuck with that fag." Yea, that period sucked ass.
Other than that, friends wise is getting better. Spot actually talks to me! I hadn't said anything more about New Year's to him. I was afraid that he would immediately start hating me again. But it was eating me alive, I gotta know why he winced and why he kissed back. So, today on the ride home, I decided I would ask him.
"Spot? Can I ask you a question?"
"Shoot."
"Please don't get mad at me, but this is eating me alive and I need to know... Why did you kiss back?"
He sighed. "I knew you'd eventually ask me that."
He took a deep breath and sighed again. "Well.. um... the reason is cause.. cause I liked it."
I hadn't been looking at him, but as soon as I heard him say that, I whipped my head toward him, wide-eyed, and asked, shocked, "What?"
He nodded slowly, not meeting my eyes, then continued.
"And it scared me. That's why I pushed back, and then when I realized why you had kissed me, I freaked out. I was so confused. I still am confused. I just couldn't face you. I thought that having you think I hated you was better than trying to talk about it. But then Monday rolled around, and I saw Specs and Dutchy together, saw what Braids did to you... Man did I feel bad for you! Anyway.. Then your little 'speech' in the car home made me think. Especially when you said I was 'as straight as an arrow' I knew in my heart that I most likely wasn't."
"Don't get me wrong... I still like girls. But.. I.. I've also started to see guys in a whole different way. I found myself staring at guy's asses in the halls. I even started to check you out! Oh god.. I did NOT just say that...."
Oh. My. God... Did he just admit he thinks I'm hot? And that he's gay?
"Ah... I'm just so confused right now..." Spot said, sighing for like the millionth time.
I was in total shock. I never expected him to actually tell me those things. Only in my dreams did he do that.... He did lots of other things too, but let's not go there...
All I could get out was, "Wow."
"Tell me about it."
I laughed a little, and eventually Spot joined in as well. Soon we were pulling into my driveway.
"Race?" Spot said, shutting off the engine. "Um.. Don't tell anyone yet. I still wanna figure out everything. Just give me some time."
"Sure, Spot. Don't worry. Bye!"
I walked inside feeling better that I have in a while.
That brings me to now, happier than ever. And who wouldn't be, when you just found out the object of your affections might be gay and just admitted to thinking that you're hot?
Later days!
-Racetrack
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A/N - YEAH! I LIKE THIS CHAPTER!! *huggles Spot*
Guess what? I can get my mail! ...but sadly still can't review...
A BIG thank you to ALL my reviewers! I'm so glad you all love (or hate! lol) my character of Braids. She's based off of my personality... and I probably would actually do that...
Shoutouts:
Saturday
Harlem
Flare Conlon
T-R-Us
OneConfusedNewsie
Strawberri Shake
StudentNumber24601
BitterSweetDragon
Nakaia Aidan-Sun
Lil' Italy
THANKS SO MUCH!!
Anyway, I'm working on two things right now... the next chapter for this, and a Skitts/Snitch songfic to a Clay Aiken song... So look for those two soon!
REVIEW!!
~Braids
Disclaimer: THIS IS SLASH... If ya don't like it, DON'T READ IT! I don't own Race or any of the Newsies. Anything else in here actually doesn't belong to me because they are actually people or places...
A/N - okies... Short chapter! (But a good one, I promise you!) This is what was actually supposed to go after last chapter, that I hadn't finished yet.. But it's finished now! And my goal for next chapter is Monday! (Hopefully, not totally promising.. Busy weekend, sis going back to college, reports due Tuesday, crew all day Monday, etc.) so yeah.. Ok without further babblings, onto the chapter!
***************************************
1/9/04
I officially HATE Braids. And all the damn homophobes in my school. I walk an inch without someone whispering or laughing at me.
And it gets worse...
For an English project, Mrs. Grill assigned partners. And lucky me, I get partnered with a bitchy cheerleader, who I heard her say to her friends, "Great, I'm stuck with that fag." Yea, that period sucked ass.
Other than that, friends wise is getting better. Spot actually talks to me! I hadn't said anything more about New Year's to him. I was afraid that he would immediately start hating me again. But it was eating me alive, I gotta know why he winced and why he kissed back. So, today on the ride home, I decided I would ask him.
"Spot? Can I ask you a question?"
"Shoot."
"Please don't get mad at me, but this is eating me alive and I need to know... Why did you kiss back?"
He sighed. "I knew you'd eventually ask me that."
He took a deep breath and sighed again. "Well.. um... the reason is cause.. cause I liked it."
I hadn't been looking at him, but as soon as I heard him say that, I whipped my head toward him, wide-eyed, and asked, shocked, "What?"
He nodded slowly, not meeting my eyes, then continued.
"And it scared me. That's why I pushed back, and then when I realized why you had kissed me, I freaked out. I was so confused. I still am confused. I just couldn't face you. I thought that having you think I hated you was better than trying to talk about it. But then Monday rolled around, and I saw Specs and Dutchy together, saw what Braids did to you... Man did I feel bad for you! Anyway.. Then your little 'speech' in the car home made me think. Especially when you said I was 'as straight as an arrow' I knew in my heart that I most likely wasn't."
"Don't get me wrong... I still like girls. But.. I.. I've also started to see guys in a whole different way. I found myself staring at guy's asses in the halls. I even started to check you out! Oh god.. I did NOT just say that...."
Oh. My. God... Did he just admit he thinks I'm hot? And that he's gay?
"Ah... I'm just so confused right now..." Spot said, sighing for like the millionth time.
I was in total shock. I never expected him to actually tell me those things. Only in my dreams did he do that.... He did lots of other things too, but let's not go there...
All I could get out was, "Wow."
"Tell me about it."
I laughed a little, and eventually Spot joined in as well. Soon we were pulling into my driveway.
"Race?" Spot said, shutting off the engine. "Um.. Don't tell anyone yet. I still wanna figure out everything. Just give me some time."
"Sure, Spot. Don't worry. Bye!"
I walked inside feeling better that I have in a while.
That brings me to now, happier than ever. And who wouldn't be, when you just found out the object of your affections might be gay and just admitted to thinking that you're hot?
Later days!
-Racetrack
************************************
A/N - YEAH! I LIKE THIS CHAPTER!! *huggles Spot*
Guess what? I can get my mail! ...but sadly still can't review...
A BIG thank you to ALL my reviewers! I'm so glad you all love (or hate! lol) my character of Braids. She's based off of my personality... and I probably would actually do that...
Shoutouts:
Saturday
Harlem
Flare Conlon
T-R-Us
OneConfusedNewsie
Strawberri Shake
StudentNumber24601
BitterSweetDragon
Nakaia Aidan-Sun
Lil' Italy
THANKS SO MUCH!!
Anyway, I'm working on two things right now... the next chapter for this, and a Skitts/Snitch songfic to a Clay Aiken song... So look for those two soon!
REVIEW!!
~Braids
