Authors note: I was really nervous about posting this chapter please tell me if I went too far or not far enough to express emotions. Your advice really helps. Thanks
When I woke up I sat in bed for a while rethinking the events of yesterday. I looked to my right to see Erik still in the chair. He had never left me. He was slouching in it and was sleeping uncomfortably. I wanted to giggle at the site. Then I remembered I was still wearing the dress. I jumped out of bed and rushed towards the mirror trying not to wake Erik. I was relieved to know the dress was only a little bit wrinkled but I smoothed it over with my hands. My makeup was all runny from crying so black lines were down my eyes. I took a washcloth next to my bowl of water and dipped it into the water to smear it off. When I had taken all my makeup off I heard Erik stir in the chair next to me. He sat up and stared at me with his eyes half closed. He obviously didn't get good sleep. I couldn't believe he had done that for me.
We stared at each other, both of us knowing the other's thoughts. We were both wondering if last night had changed anything between us. He stood up suddenly looking more awake. His eyes were pleading mine. I now realized how tall he was. My head barely reached his shoulders. I suddenly felt so juvenile.
I stepped an inch closer to him waiting for his body to reply with mine. He stepped closer to me. Our eyes were locked onto each others. We slowly moved closer until we could feel each other's breath. I placed both my hands on either side of his face and stared at his mask then back at his eyes. I tried to slip a finger underneath the mask. Then he jerked from my grasp and took two steps away from me realizing what I was attempting to do. His Eyes were now furious.
All I wanted to see was what lye behind that mask. I knew it must be distorted but I don't think that could change how I feel about him at all. I love absolutely everything about him. Even his angered face drives me insane. I just want him so badly. I want to grab him and force his lips onto mine. I wondered how those big soft red lips would taste. I'm sure my urgency was shown in my eyes and I could feel my chest rise and lower heavily with each breath. When he saw my reaction I saw his expressions change. He stared at me mouth open. Nothing could be heard but our breaths.
I took a step towards him once again. He didn't move only looked at me. This time I went so close I could feel his chest heaving with mine.
"Did he have this desire that I did?" I wondered.
His mouth was opened even wider now. I stared into his green eyes once again. I was going to melt. I nearly fell to the ground forgetting that I had legs and he caught me. I was now in his arms. I don't believe it is possible for anyone to breath as fast as we were now. I leaned in towards his face and asked permission once again in his eyes. He leaned in closer as well. Oh it was killing me. I could taste his breath! I savagely gripped his neck and draped another hand underneath his and grabbed his back. He softly placed his hands on my hips he seemed to be reluctant to at first. I stared at his lips I wanted them so badly. I looked at them for a while and he moved as close as he possibly could without our lips touching. He wanted it as badly as I did. I firmly pulled in the rest of the way. Our lips met.
I had always thought that the kisses in stories and plays were not that magical in real life, but this was my first kiss. This was the first time a man's lips had met mine.
I placed my lips upon his softly at first. I had to stand on my toes to reach him. I was expecting for him to pull away at any second. Then I felt him kiss me back. I couldn't help that smile that formed between both of our lips. He had kissed me back! Then our kisses became faster. We were nearly suffocating each other and both of us were gasping for air. His gasp sent chills of utter pleasure down my spine. I grabbed his neck firmer and pushed him even further into me. My hands ran down his neck and ran down his back as he began kissing my cheek and then sucking on my neck.
"Oh Erik," I heard myself cry with utter delight.
We swirled around and I was forced to sit upon my desk. His lips were now back on mine and we were once again both gasping for air. A held on to his face and he cupped his hand underneath my head. His gentleness with his hands and firm movements of his soft lips sent another wave of pleasure through me.
Then we both gave up and moved back trying to receive air. I let my head thump on the wall. We were still gasping even though our lips had separated.
Once we had gained our breath we looked at each other once more. Oh his eyes! I loved that look he had on his face. He looked as if he was trying to hide a smile and I bit my lip to hide mine.
When I awoke I could barely keep my eyes open. I had tried to fall asleep in the chair after a few hours of watching Addie in her sleep. I loved watching her so peaceful. I loved hearing her soft breaths. I didn't want to leave her and have her be terrified when she woke to see I had abandoned her. I tried going to sleep but it took me hours and even when I did fall asleep I constantly woke. I tried sleeping on the wooden floor but that didn't work either.
I had felt so tired until I saw her smiling face looking back at me. Even though all her makeup was gone she still looked stunning. I noticed a beauty in her I hadn't seen before. She seemed to always glow. Her smiling face could light up any room. I loved the placement of everything on her face. I noticed how light her eyes were. They were a brilliant honey colored, but they would look dark next to her makeup.
When she had tried to take off my mask I refused to let her. I know if she were to see my face she would never wish to see me again. She would leave me just like Christine did. I had always wondered if Christine would have chosen me if it weren't for my face.
When she had stepped towards me once again and touched me I wanted that so badly but didn't want to jump upon her. I tried so hard to contain myself my body was swirling with emotion. At first I was afraid to put my hands on her. I didn't want to make her uncomfortable. Was it right what we were doing? I had asked myself that, but when her lips touched mine I had gone mad with desire. All thoughts of right or wrong left my mind and my emotions took over. I would have gone so far if we hadn't pulled away from each other. I had never received a kiss like this before. The only kiss I had received from Christine she gave to me because I had threatened to kill the man she truly loved. My flesh had finally explored somewhere and I wanted more. When I had a taste of Addie I couldn't let go of her despite my lack of breath. I tried so hard to contain myself when I began sucking on her soft neck, Oh it drove me insane with lust! Her skin was so soft. What was this I felt for her? Could an angel love a devils child?
