While Matt & Gabby are getting ready for lunch, with Jay & Alex:
Floating in the pool with her husband, Alex Casey smiled as she found herself wrapping her arms around his neck. Meanwhile, Jay wrapped Alex's legs around his waist and moved his hands to them as a way to tease the woman he loves this afternoon. And damn are they having a lot of fun with each other. Ever since they came home, they have just been all over each other. And if they are both being honest with each other, they wouldn't want it any other way. Alex wants to run her hands all over her new husband and his muscular body; meanwhile, Jay wants to do the same with her body. And that is just a fact. A fact that they have both agreed will never change for a while. So, they have came to an agreement that they will act like hormonal teenagers for a while. And since they came to that agreement, the sex…
Well, it's been hot. They have been all over each other and have just been wanting to have each other all the time. Whether it be in bed, on the couch, everywhere. Heck, they almost went for it in the kitchen this morning while they made breakfast together. And then just recently when Alex put the bikini that she just bought from Victoria's Secret today. Yes, they went shopping again this morning. The reason? Jay is determined to give his wife the life that she deserves. He says that she has earned all of what he can give her. So, she is not going to complain. I mean, what wife would complain if her husband told her…here honey, here's the credit card, it's all yours. But Alex has been modest when it comes to taking advantage of her husband. Well, when it comes to money. She wants him for who he is.
Jay has such a big heart, and she is so glad that he is her husband. A man that she believes she can see herself living a long, happy life with for a very long time. And that includes when they are in the pool together. God, the way he teases her is so sexy. The feeling of his lips on her neck as he sucks on it. Oh, he is making her want to moan so damn much that it's crazy. How he can just do this so easily blows her mind. There's just something about him that turns her on in a way that makes her loose control, loose control of her body and all of the alarm bells in her. But she can say one thing. She has let her guard down with him. She feels so vulnerable when they are together, and it feels great. There are no walls in between them, and they are both very open with each other. And that includes with his PTSD.
Alex is well aware of the fact that Jay is a war veteran. And she knows that he has PTSD. So, she has decided to (secretly) start taking courses to help her husband. She just has a feeling that they might come in handy someday, which is why she needs to be ready. But she just hasn't mentioned it to her husband yet. And she is starting too wonder whether she should, as she is well aware that they say that secrets can kill marriages. And with their marriage being built on one of the least stable foundations, she has to assume that she can't keep any secrets for her husband. So, she has decided to tell him. "Jay?" Pulling his lips away from her neck, Jay smiled as he leaned back and looked up at his beautiful wife. "What is it babe?" Alex then took a breath, looking at him. "Listen, I want to talk to you for a second."
Jay agreed with his wife when she told him that, looking up into her eyes. "What's wrong Alex?" Alex took a breath when he asked her that. "I just wanted to tell you something. You remember how you told me that you are a war vet and have PTSD?" Jay nodded. "Alex, I promise. I can deal with it on my own. I just wanted to let you know that…" Alex interrupted him when he said that. "Hey, don't even think that way Jay. Please. Please do not think that I would ever let you do it on your own." Wrapping her arms around Jay's neck nice and tight, Alex motioned for him to do the same around her back. Jay then did the same for her, bringing her against his muscular chest even more while wrapping her legs around his waist. "Jay, if you have PTSD, I want you to come to me; I want to help you deal with it. I am your wife."
Jay agreed with his wife when she told him that and smiled. "Yes, yes you are. My sexy wife." Alex smiled and agreed with Jay when he said that, unable to hide a small smile that she wanted to give him. God, he is such a dork sometimes and he is also a huge turn on. God, the muscles that he has. The way he has the ability to easily carry her in his arms is just perfect; absolutely perfect in the best way possible. This is all she needs in life. She just needs him to be happy, and to be open with her. And that will make her a happy woman. "And you are my hunky husband. Jay, I am your wife. What I wanted to say is that I want you to come to me. Jay, I can't believe that I am even saying this but, I see myself living a long, happy life with you. A life that may include kids someday." Jay smiled when she mentioned kids.
"You have no idea how happy that makes me. I love the idea of having kids, I have always wanted them. If you haven't noticed, I am quite a big kid myself." Alex laughed and agreed with her husband when he told her that. She then wrapped her arms around his neck and just held him close to her. Running her fingers through his hair, Alex smiled as this is exactly what she wants to be doing with her husband right now. Running his hands up Alex's back, Jay smirked due to the fact that she is very sexy when she is naked in his arms. Kissing her shoulder, he smiled before proceeding to watch her as she leaned back. Grabbing the back of Jay's head, Alex leaned in and then bent down to kiss him softly. Taking things nice and slow with her husband, Alex smiled as he makes her happy. Being with him makes her happy.
Looking into his beautiful eyes, Alex smirked as she moved her hand to his chest and then bent down to kiss him softly. "Jay, what I want to say is this. I don't want you to feel like you can't talk to me, okay? You are my husband, I love you and I want you to open up to me. I want to help you through whatever you need me to help you through. If that means you need to wake me up in the middle of the night so that I can help you through some PTSD, then you do that okay? I want you to promise me that you are going to do that Jay. I mean it. I don't care if you don't want to. I am your wife and I feel like it's my job to help you." Jay smiled and agreed with Alex when she said that. "Well then, it looks like I am going to be waking you up if I ever need help with my PTSD." Alex smiled and agreed with her husband.
God, the way this man makes her heart skip a beat is just amazing. Grabbing the back of his head, she bent down and proceeded to kiss him once again. God, he is so damn sexy and she is so happy to be able to call Jay the man of her dreams. Taking things nice and slow with each other as they took their swim, Jay and Alex both smiled due to the fact that this is their dream life. (Are they even able to say that yet? Is it too soon?) Whatever, it is for them. The reason? They are together and they are so glad that they have found each other. Does Alex wish that someone didn't have to die for them to have met (and got married)? Of course she does. But all she wants to know is if Jay feels the same way. Taking a breath, Alex pulled back and looked into his eyes. "Jay, can I ask you a question?" Jay nodded, smiling at his wife.
"Of course you can babe. You can always ask me a question." Alex then took a breath as she went to ask Jay the question that is on her mind. "Let's say that we met under different circumstances. And your fiancé didn't die. Do you think that we'd be together?"
Jay's POV:
When Alex asked me if, had we met under different circumstances, if we'd still be together…I took a breath as I didn't know. All I know is that I hate that she asked me this question. I want to be honest with her and tell her yes. I want to tell her that of course we'd be together. I love her. But the truth of the matter is that I am not sure if we'd be together. Would I have married Hailey? I can't say that everything was sunshine and roses in our relationship as she hid things from me. But at the same time, I did love her. I did want to be with her and I did see us having a future together. We had the same friends and everything. Yet this question that Alex is asking me is a puzzling one, as I really do like being with her. I love being her husband and I am so glad that we ended up getting married to each other.
Yes, did we meet in an unconventional way? Of course we did, we met and got married in Vegas for crying out loud. But does that mean that I would want to be with her? Of course not. She is a beautiful, intelligent woman and I am proud to call her my wife. I am glad that we are married, and that we are going to stay married for years. I do not want her to think that this is just something that is going to be short until I am done grieving, I plan on having this last a long time. I want to see where this goes. I am wearing this wedding band because I have real feelings for her, feelings that I want to explore. Heck, I (maybe) even want to have kids with her. But if I answer this question, I am not sure if I can really recover from this. God, why did she have to ask me this question. There is no right answer to this.
"Alex, I am not sure if we are being completely honest. I don't know the answer to your question. Babe, I wish I did. I wish I could tell you that we would be together. I wish that I could tell you that I may have left my fiancé and been with you after we met. But here's the thing, stuff had to happen for us to even meet. Sure, could we have met at my hypothetical bachelor party in Las Vegas? Maybe we would have. Would we have spent all that time together that led me to wanting to be with you, wanting to marry you in Vegas? Honestly, I am not sure due to the fact that I would still be engaged. So Alex, I can't answer the question you just asked me in a way that is far to either of us. There are just too many unknowns. Do I wish I could say yes? Of course." Alex agreed with me when I said that.
Getting close to me, she wrapped her arms and legs around me. Putting my hands on her back, I smiled as I kissed her softly. Meanwhile, Alex put her hands on the back of my head and kissed me softly. "Alex, I mean it. I truly do mean it when I say that I wish I could say yes. I wish I could say yes to that question due to the fact that I am in love with you. I love you and I am so glad that we are together. I am glad that we are married. I am so glad that this is the life we are living together. Yet at the same time, I was also in love with Hailey. I was in love with Hailey, and I had every intention of marrying her. There are just too many unknowns for me to be able to give you an answer that would satisfy you Alex. And for that reason, I can't answer your question as it wouldn't fair to either of us if I did." Alex agreed with me.
"I understand. And I'm not mad Jay. In fact, that makes complete sense. I think you did the right thing in not answering my question. Heck, I am sorry that I even asked it." I shook my head when Alex said that she was sorry that she even asked it. "Hey, don't you dare say that Alex. If you want to ask me questions, then you have every right to do that as my wife. I owe you answers so that you don't have these questions, so many questions floating around in your mind. I mean, for all I know…you think that I am a serial killer or something." Alex laughed when I said that, smiling as she buried her head into my chest. Meanwhile, I kissed her neck softly and teased her a bit. God, she is so damn sexy and I am so glad that this is what we are doing right now. And even better, I am so in love with this beautiful woman.
Alex then proceeded to wrap her arms around my neck and smirked as she stared into my eyes. "Jay, do me a favor?" I smiled when Alex asked me to do her a favor. "And what would that be?" Alex smirked. "Take off my bra. I want to feel my body against your muscular chest baby." I agreed with Alex when she said that she wants to feel her body against my muscular chest. And the truth of the matter is, so do I. I want to feel her body against my chest, even when we are in the pool. It is such a turn on and I am so glad that she wants me to take off her bra. Going to play with the strings, I smirked as I proceeded to take off her bra for her just like she wanted. Afterwards, I grabbed it and went to throw it onto the deck. Smiling as I did that, Alex wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me softly. God, she is so sexy.
I then proceeded to wrap my arms around her back and went to kiss her once again, taking things nice and slow with the woman I am proud to call my wife. Swimming over to the side of the pool, I then went to push Alex against the wall and just smirked as it made her moan. The reason why it made her moan? Her breasts got pushed right against my hard, muscular chest that I work hard to keep muscular. Alex already told me that she wants me to keep it muscular. It turns her on and makes her want to tear my clothes off. And I know exactly what that means. It means sex. I know, sue me. Sue me for automatically equating tear my clothes off with sex. But what do you expect? I'm a man and my wife's gorgeous. Of course I am going to think about sex when I am thinking about her taking off my shirt in our room.
Oh, and when she gets undressed too. That is always a pretty sight. She does it nice and slowly like she used to do when she was a stripper. She uses those moves on me and she just knows that it turns me on. And then, each and every night, after she gets undressed, she joins me in bed, closes the covers and then lays down on my chest. Wrapping her arms around my torso, she cuddles up to me, lays her head down on my chest and makes me go crazy. But I promise, I don't have sex with her every night. Rather, I only do that every other night. Ok, kidding about that one. I am just happy that me and Alex are starting off this life on the right foot. We are being honest with each other, and we are having fun. When I started my last relationship, we were always so serious, and it wasn't fun. This on the other hand?
Well, this is how a relationship should start. I feel like I tried too hard in my last relationship. And that is not what I should have to do in a relationship. A relationship should be easy, it should feel natural. And that's how I feel with Alex. I feel like this is natural, and like we can talk to each other about anything and everything. And that's what I want in a relationship. Most importantly, it's what I want in a marriage. Thank god me and Alex have that, because I never had that with my (late) ex-fiancé. I hate dragging our relationship through the mud, but I have been reflecting back ever since me and Alex got together. Heck, since we got married especially. And I have come to realize, my previous relationship was not a healthy relationship. Rather, it was a toxic relationship based on power and control.
Oh, and money too, can't forget about money. It seems like I was always paying the bills in my previous relationship, and that isn't fair. I mean, I am doing the same here, but this is different. I can't explain why this relationship that I have with Alex is different, it just is. This marriage is something that I am really happy about, and I am glad that this is the life that I have now. I want this for the rest of my life, and I am so glad that's the case. Just taking things nice and slow with Alex, I smirked as I knew that she was enjoying the feeling of my lips on hers. But what she enjoys even more? The feeling of my lips on her neck. Bending down, I went to kiss her neck and smirked when I heard her moan. "God, I love the sound of you moaning." Alex agreed with me and smiled when I told her that. "I love it too Jay."
I nodded and just smirked as me and Alex took things nice and slow with each other in the pool. Heck, we even ended up having sex in the pool. And boy was that hot.
