Author's note: I changed the last chapter so you may want to go back and read the end. I thought it was just too spontaneous. I think it was a bit unrealistic as well that she would just heal all of a sudden. I want her to be smart, but I have to remind myself to keep it realistic. Thank you for the reviews I'm glad you said something because it was driving me insane!
Oh yea, just to warn you there is a bit of intimacy between husband and wife near the end of this chapter.
I slowly massaged my forehead with my fingertips and strained to keep my eyes open. I couldn't go to sleep. Every time I fell asleep I had to relive the horror.
I had seen many gruesome things in my life and for so long I believed I couldn't be intimidated by anything. I will never be able to erase that detailed image from my mind. My daughter's helpless body was limp. Her beady lifeless eyes stared past me. The most horrid detail was the cause of her death, a noose that was fastened around her neck. The dream had ended when I glimpsed down at my hands to see the rope's pattern indented in my skin. I had killed her.
I slammed a first hard upon the organ and walked back to the nursery. I had to be sure that she was alright. I opened the door slowly to prevent waking her up with the loud creaks and stepped inside. I sighed with relief when I saw her lying peacefully in her crib. I pulled up a rocking chair and sat next to her just admiring how tiny she was.
My eyelids slowly grew heavier. I shook myself a few times but it wasn't long before my body gave up in exhaustion.
"Mommy!" Rebecca exclaimed as I pried a bottle into her mouth. I wrapped my arms around her and lifted her from the crib.
It feels as if my heart bleeds deep within every time I see her. She is so unbelievably smart, but she is incapable of moving. She could do so much if she could move.
Behind me I heard Erik sit up.
"You've awakened. Good I wanted to talk to you about something." I said not bothering to stare back at him. I gently tipped Rebecca's head up and tilted the bottle at an angle to be careful not to drown her. Erik cleared his throat to show he was listening.
"Erik," I called pulling the bottle from Rebecca's lips.
"You know that I love you right?" I asked. I knew he did, but I just wanted to test him. I wanted to hear him say the words again.
"I know I love you, and yes, even though I falsely accused you the other day, I always knew that you loved me. When people are upset they say things they don't mean." He replied softly.
Rebecca giggled. Her joy despite her condition opened a new sore within my heart and released blood from within.
That night I convince Erik to come to bed. He couldn't avoid his nightmares forever. I was unbelievably tired and was on the edge of falling asleep, but the ruffling of bed sheets from his discomfort kept me up for hours. I finally gained the courage to ask him what was bothering him.
"In the dream, I had killed her." He choked. I knew who he was talking about.
I reached towards my desk and lit a lantern. I told Erik to turn his back towards me and firmly rubbed his vigor shoulders. He sighed comfortably. I slowly worked my hands down his body feeling his muscles until I reached the end of his back. Beneath my fingertips were countless scars. My hands began to tremble over the marks. He had seen more hate then I will ever know.
"Don't stop," he begged me turning around to face me and running my hands down his brawny arms. The lower half of my body tingled with urge. His eyes lit up and became alive. I wanted to drown within that green ocean that locked its gaze upon my eyes. I slowly ran a hand down his chest and closed my eyes as he sunk a hand through my mess of hair. He positioned on top of me and cradled my hips softly moving them side to side. I no longer cared that my gown and his pants separated us from becoming one. I only wished to touch him. I enjoyed slowly discovering each new corner of his body.
I opened my eyes and almost regretting doing so. The site of him above me bare-chested, his green eyes glowing underneath his dark eyebrows, and fat lips separating as he drew in large breaths caused my eyes to flutter.
His eyes begged my forgiveness as he ripped my nightgown off of my shoulders. A few stitches released as a result from his eagerness. I dug a hand into his pants. My fingers brushed his bare thigh. I slid the pants down to his ankles and allowed him to kick the rest off.
Erik slid a hand down my bare hip and raised it above his body. I wrapped the leg around his leg. We abandoned the sheets to reveal all.
"Addie if your still sore I'll stop at any time," he said beginning to retrieve to my side. I grabbed his face before he could leave me.
"No don't stop, I love you so much Erik. Please move inside me. You're driving me crazy." I begged slowly. It was difficult for me to breathe.
He didn't allow his eyes to separate from mine. He gently stroked my face as he harshly joined his body with mine. The intimacy of it all was so thick his body trembled above mine. He kissed my entire body and I did the same. I was so glad that he was with me.
"Never let go," I pleaded him. My eyes grew watery as the energy began slipping from me.
"I never will. When you wake up and when you walk into a separate room. Even when I die I'll still be inside of you." He promised me. We fell asleep with our bodies completely locked together. Our lips joined as we fell into slumber and our breathing united.
Authors note: I hope you realize again I wasn't trying to be sick or anything, I was trying to express how intimate their relationship is. I wanted to show how much they longed to be one and how beautiful it is. I hope you liked it. Just tell me if it needs some work.
