Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own the Teen Titans. Very tragic, I know.


They don't think I seem them together, but I do. And I'm so jealous of her. She's perfect, and they're perfect for each other. She's beautiful, he's strong. She's everything I'm not and he's everything that Ill ever want. She's filled with innocence and grace while Im filled with shadow and rage.

I hate her because she has everything I want and need, and him because he doesn't love me. But I love her… because she is so kind and caring, like the sister I never had, but I love him because of everything he is.

I also love and hate myself. Love because I do love him, truly. And I am capable of love. Hate because Im jealous of her and I love him. Truly.

But Im so jealous… Just once Id like him to look at me the way he looks at her, with that goofy smile of his face. And even if I can't see into his eyes, his soul, when he does look at her, you can tell how much he loves her by the aura he emanates because of her.

Why do I have to feel this way about him? He's taken! It would be so much easier for everyone, if I didn't love him. Then I could return another's feelings… And I wouldn't be filled with such inner turmoil.

I wouldn't die on the inside every time I saw them together.

I wouldn't have this secret burden.

This secret pain…

Or these secret scars.

I wish I could just turn my thoughts off so I wouldn't think about him every time I have nothing to do!

I wish I never had to sleep so I never had to be reminded of his absence in my dreams!

I wish I had someone to talk to… Some release… Some comfort. Anything to help.

Anything to make these feelings for him stop!

Who knows. Maybe one of these times Ill get lucky and cut to deep.

Maybe then this will stop…

Maybe then I can find peace!

Peace of mind and freedom of this pain.

That is what I should want; since I know my feelings can't be returned. At least not by him.

Never by him.

All I want is his love, his comfort, his shoulder to cry on when Im feeling down. I want his strong arms to be around me, cradle me, shelter me, and make me feel safe. I want to feel his silken lips on mine.

I want what can never be.

Robin.


Author's Note: Im usually not a fan of this pairing... But it just turned out this way. ;