Chapter 5 – Confusion

I put my hands to Sean's chest and pulled away from the kiss, pushing him backwards.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't know what--"

"I-I have to go. I'm sorry."

I turned around and left a confused Sean on the steps. He called my name, but he didn't come after me. I'm not sure what I would have done if he did.

I reached my apartment and quietly creped in. I didn't want to wake my dad.

"Young lady –" I jumped at the sounds of his voice and turned around to a very pissed dad. "—Do you realize what time it is?"

I looked past him and looked at the clock. It was midnight.

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"You're an idiot!" I yelled.

I'm not completely sure what I was thinking when I kissed Terri. One minute I was thinking how terribly things get screwed up with girls and the next, well…you know.

I picked up the beer bottle from earlier--the one that Terri tripped over—and looked at it. Some many things were rushing through my mind. Emma. Ellie. Rick. Terri. Terri; now there's a girl that'll make you crazy.

I looked at the bottle one last time, and then threw it against the wall.

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I lied in bed after the interrogation I received from my dad. Where were you? Who were you with? Why didn't you call?

I lied and told him I was with a friend. Well, it was a complete lie, but I wasn't quite sure what to call Sean. He wasn't a friend--and he sure as hell wasn't a boyfriend.

I was just thankful he didn't ask me about the bruise that was forming on my lip. What would I have said? That I ran into a door?

I got up and turned on the lamp next to my bed. I looked at my face in the mirror. It wasn't too bad, barely noticeable even.

I wasn't sure how I was going to approach Sean at school. I wasn't sure if I could approach him at all.

What seemed even worse, though. How was I going to deal with Rick?

A/N. As you can plainly see, I changed the title of the story. Why you ask? I felt it needed a change. The title before sounded way too bubbly for me. Also, I understand that the kiss seemed that it happened way too early in story. Things happen for a reason my friend :D Trust me, I have a plan with it. Any who, you the drill…REVIEW! Oh, and please don't hate me for such a short chapter :(