Part Two: Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
After The Jellicle Ball
Chapter Eight: Fallen
We all begin with good intent
Love
was raw and young
We
believed that we could change ourselves
The
past could be undone
But
we carry on our backs the burden
Time
always reveals
The
lonely light of morning
The
wound that would not heal...
He had to do this. He had to talk to her. No other way. No way around it. Damn did he hate his Dad for always being well so right and all the time too. Flowers? Should he take her flowers? Nah. Not his style, he would just bring himself simple as that. But of course seeing her talking to his brother made it a bit difficult... what if Munkus liked her? No. No. He likes Demeter, remember? Right. Just got to get the act together and do this," Hey uh..." Should he still call her his pet name? Why not," Boms can we talk?"
Bombalurina looked quite surprised, even a bit stunned that he was talking to her at all. And he wanted to talk to her, this was something she had not been expecting at all. At first she didn't know what to say, a part of her wanted to say no and tell him right where to stick his tail, but the rest of her wanted to simply say yes," Err... I suppose." Her eyes traveled towards Munkustrap, Jemima and Plato, then solely on Munkus," Handsome you think you could..."
Munkustrap nodded," Sure. You two talk." With that he motioned the curious kittens to follow him for their picnic.
Tugger gave an appreciated nod to his older brother and knowing that he probably owed him for this, which was not a problem at all," Mind if we go somewhere ya know... quiet and private?"
" Here is fine." Bombalurina was not going to do this the way he wanted, for once this was going to be done her way, in front of most everyone else.
Tugger sighed," Fine. I... um wanted to apologize, say sorry and all." He searched her face for any sign of acceptance, but found her fairly unreadable," I'm not good at this stuff Bomba... you know that... you know how I am and well you're," He nervously scratched at his mane," you're the only queen that really puts up with me. Only one that would put up with me for a long haul too."
She almost jumped on him then, almost showered him with kisses and other means of affection, but despite these swelling desires Bombalurina held back," Tugger. I'm sorry to. I expected things from you that well... isn't you."
" Whoa there babes. You have nothing to be sorry about. I'm the one who messed up, all the blame is mine sweetheart." He moved his fidgeting from his mane to playing with his tail, his eyes never leaving hers. A trick he had pulled from watching Munkustrap talk to people, he always seemed to make eye-contact.
" No. I was being overly jealous like you said... but Tugger you're such a free spirit, not the sort of tom anyone even me sees as being tied down to a family let alone just one queen. " Bombalurina gave an almost girlish chuckle," You're a well... a stud."
With that the maine coon couldn't help but boast a wide grin," Well yes I am, but that's besides the point. " Slowly he edged closer to her, taking her paws in his and then dropped to a knee," Point is Boms... I love you and I messed up... I was afraid to love you. Figured I might miss out on something ya know? But anyhow when I told you it was over for good... I well... I realized what I was missing out on was you."
Her brown eyes went wide. Was he actually do this? Was he actually wanting to commit for the long haul as he called it? What was she to say... what was she to do? Everything was going blank on her, she needed to collect her thoughts," I... well... um...oh will you just get up!" She knew most everyone around them in the yard had stopped their own business and were now watching Tugger basically propose to her. For some reason such a knowledge made her smile.
He stood as asked and moved closer to her, his paws cupping her face, massaging the sides of her chin softly," Way I see it." He paused, his lips finding hers for a moment," You and I are so much alike that we need each other." He kissed her again, making it last a little longer this time before pulling back, his lips barely inches from hers," Thing is no matter how much I flirt and play with the hearts of queens... I can't live without one of them. I can't live without you and I don't want to try to anymore. So I wonder, how does she feel? "
She felt her heart literally stopping with each kiss and word, he really loved her... underneath all the flirting and teasing he loved her. In some strange way he was right too, every word he spoke was truth. He was waiting for her to say something now, to reject him or to love him. Her eyes drifted away from his for a moment, the attention of the entire junkyard was upon them, well all those present currently anyhow and this made her feel like teasing him just a little," How do you think she feels Lover boy?" Smirking, Bombalurina moved to slide passed the tom, her bushy tail coming up to tickle his chest as she moved passed him.
Slowly one brow arched, the other not far behind. Was she toying with him? Or was she just in her own way saying yes? He had no idea, but all he knew was she was now his like it or not and visa versa. The only junkyard had witnessed his pledge to her. Eying her tail as it tickled his chest, Tugger snatched the end of it and gently pulled her back towards him, the action gained him a slight hiss and glare from the red queen. Ignoring her annoyed actions, the studly tom dipped his queen into a deep and long kiss," Say it Bomba." he spoke breathlessly, breaking their contact," I'll kiss you again and again till you say the words."
" Mm. That's almost enough to make me not want to say them." the scarlet queen smirked in a snarky manner.
" Say the words and you'll get much more than just endless kisses." He purred the words huskily.
" You got it Lover boy." Bombalurina smirked and took a slow and deep kiss before breaking contact to speak loudly enough for their spectators to hear as well," You are mine and I am yours." She smiled and kissed him again realizing he had said them right along with her.
End of Chapter Eight
