Disclaimer: Unfortunately, Fruits Basket is not mine.

A/N: i wrote this at about 3:30 a.m. one day. This story starts out as a poem but in later chapters i'll write in story format. all poems that i may include are of my own creation or else i'll have a disclaimer in the beginning giving credit to the original author.

YUKI'S POV

Funny thing, this love business

You think you hate someone

Then you actually lose him

Now it's too late and you

Just newly realized

With an emotion

Close to shock

That you were

Hopelessly

In love. – as written in the journal of Yuki Sohma, zodiac sign: the rat

I never knew how much he meant
How much I thought he is heaven sent
How much he was a part of my life
Or how much I loved him though I caused him strife
I didn't know anything until the day he died
I fell to my knees and without abandon, just cried
Now there's a gaping hole in the center of my heart
Nothing seems sweet anymore, life suddenly turned tart
What I would give for just one more day
To confess my love before you're taken away
I need to know what you would have felt
Need to know how you could make me melt
Please come back to me, I cry in my sleep
This love for you I always will keep
In the deepest crevices of my soul
But the pain I feel is too sharp for any to console
Physically I am alive and well
But too much on my agony do I dwell
In my heart I died with you
How I'll live now I have no clue
You were my one and only
Without you all I am is lonely
I want you by my side
If you were here, I would have tried
I hunger to feel the warmth that inside me floods
When I see you and feel the love that buds
I yearn to confess my undying love
And the passion that is put above
Stay with me always is all I can say
Watch over me now is what I pray
Meet me when I sleep and in my dreams
Comfort me, hold me, and quiet my screams
Be my guardian angel, protect me at all times
It is my request for leaving me was your only crime
Be my angel although you already are
I will forever have this invisible scar

I wish you had known.
I wish I had told you.
I wish you were here.
I wish I could find you.

My love.
My only.
Forever and always.

A/N: me again. just a friendly reminder to review and please be respectful of my work. any and all flames will be ignored and doused with a hose. thank you!