I tried to be perfect, It just wasn't worth it, Nothing could ever be so wrong, It's hard to believe me, It never gets easy, I guess I knew that all along, If you believe it's in my soul, I'd say all the words that I know, Just to see if it would show, That I'm trying to let you know, That I'm better off on my own-Pieces: Sum 41
I
leant against the door tears streaming down my face. "Drusilla!
What's wrong?" Clarissa cried. I fell into her arms crying
hysterically. "Minnie... Well..." "Draco cheated on
you?" I nodded and sniffed. "Minnie said everything he told
me was a lie and well... Today he said that he loved me." "Oh
My God!" Clarissa gasped "What did you say!" "Nothing
I just freaked out... but... Oh god Clarissa I love him" I
sobbed. "How can you love Malfoy!" Melinda snorted
appearing with Hermione next to Clarissa. "Look... I know you
guys think he's a jerk and a sleaze and whatever, especially you
two." I motioned to Hermione and Melinda "And I don't blame
you, I mean to be fair, he's said some horrible things to Hermione."
I admitted begrudgingly. "By the way Draco never finds out I
just admitted that... but... He's... Oh god he's beautiful..."
I sighed. Melinda raised an eyebrow at me. "I've seen a side to
him that you guys haven't... and... he makes me feel sexy and wanted
and that makes me so happy." "He makes lots of other people
very unhappy." Melinda mumbled. "Yer well that might not
mean anything to you, but it means the world to me." I growled
tears filling my eyes. I could then tell by the looks in their eyes
that they all understood. "And he's damn sexy too..." I
added. Melinda rolled her eyes. "Oh Drusilla..." sighed
Clarissa. "What are you going to do?" "Well if he was
lying he won't want me back now." I sighed. "And if he
hasn't?" "Well... I sorta showed him up in fronta his mates
sooo..." Everyone winced. "Don't worry, if he meant what he
said he'll come after you." "I doubt it." I sighed.
"Remember this is Draco Malfoy." Melinda told Clarissa.
"How did I get myself into this!" I groaned falling to my
knees in despair. I started crying again. "C'mon Dru, just go
get some sleep, your head will be clearer in the morning."
Clarissa hushed. She pulled me off the ground and with the help of
Hermione and Melinda took me back to the Slyterin common room.
I
couldn't sleep a wink that night and I couldn't eat in the morning.
My eyes were red and swollen from crying and my hair and make-up
askew. When Draco joined the table I got dizzy and nearly fell off my
seat. I was so alone. Sally was now best friends with Minnie and
they'd lost all intrest with me and were instead flirting shamelessly
with Draco. I stood up feeling weak. I noticed Mel, Hermione, Ron and
Harry giving me sympathetic looks from the Gryffindor table. I sighed
knowing I looked a mess. I walked out of the hall. I couldn't muster
the motivation to go to lessons where I knew Draco would be so I
stayed in bed crying instead.
I awoke feeling sicker and tireder
than before, this carried on for the next few weeks. I'd often wake
up in the hospital wing because I'd passed out in lessons. I'd
literally become lovesick.
I walked back to the common room after
being dismissed from the hospital wing. I shuffled along looking at
my feet lost in my thoughts. 'I love him so much it's untrue'
my head sobbed. 'Then talk to him... I can't it'd kill me' I
started crying and feeling dizzy as I pictured Draco's face. I fell
forward. I felt someone catch me as I crashed into them. I clung to
the person. I was sure I could hear sniffling but I wasn't sure
whether it was my own or someone elses as my head was spinning. I
closed my eyes to stop crying and try and regain my balance.
