I BACK! HERE'S CHAPTER 5
LAST TIME- TAI WENT MENTALLY INSANE, NEARLY KILLED HIS SISTER AND MADE OUT WITH HER- MATT & TK COME TO HER RESCUSE- TAI IS ON HIS WAY TO THE HOSPITAL
SONGS
EVENESCENTCE- GOING UNDER
K.C. RAVEN (ME) - POINT OF PLEASURE
CHAPTER 5
'What have I done?' Tai looks down at the white tile floor, as he sits on a hospital bed in a blue gown. 'I could of killed them. Why couldn't I stop thoughs voices from controlling me? Why did they make me hurt them?' A tear slipped down Tai's face. The room he was in was small and only had a bed. Tai looked down at the straps that kept him from getting up. There was some slack on them so he could sit up and move a little. 'What's wrong with me?' There's nothing wrong with you. "Who said that?" Tai got defense of. Just me, there's something wrong with them the voice hissed in his mind. "You're wrong! It's me! Leave me alone!" Tai looked around the room, 'Where's that voice coming from?' The voice echoed in the room as Tai became scared. See that rope that holds you? The voice asked eagerly. "Yah?" Tai answered unshore of himself of what to do. Then throw it around your neck! The voice yelled at him to do. Slowly Tai's hand took hold of the rope and was about to bend down to be able to throw it around his neck when. "NO! Stop it! Leave me alone!" Tai yelled in fear. Realizing what he was doing. Kill yourself! Kill! No one wants you! Kill yourself! "NO! SHUT UP! I WON'T! GET OUT OF MY HEAD! STOP IT!" Tai screamed in pain as the voice continued to talk to him. "STOP IT!" Then two nurses came in.
"Easy kid." The one nurse held him down as Tai tried to fight back and kept screaming at the voice. The other nurse quickly took a shot out as the other nurse tried her best to keep Tai still as she sandaited him. Tai slowly calmed down as he became weary and tired. He soon felt his eye lids falling close. The last thing he mutters was...
"What's wrong with me?" Tai said in weak voice as the two nurses ignored his question as he fell a sleep.
'This is all my fault. If Tai didn't get mad at me, he wouldn't be like this.' TK sat alone in his apartment. His mom was at a meeting some where in Hamada. So he would have the house to himself for a few days. TK played with the radio, trying to find a song to get his mind off the entire thing.
"Welcome back to 95.7. Other radio stations tell you they have a vast collection. We actually play ours. NOW I WILL TELL YOU WHAT I'VE DONE FOR YOU
50 THOUNSAND TEARS I'VE CRIED
SCREAMING DECEIVING AND BLEEDING FOR YOU."
'Great all the songs to come up. It had to be this one.' TK looked sadly at the radio as his eyes started to water.
"AND YOU STILL WON'T HEAR ME
DON'T WANT YOUR HAND THIS TIME I'LL SAVE MYSELF
MAYBE I'LL WAKE UP FOR ONCE
NOT TORMENTED DAILY DEFEATED BY YOU
JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I'D REACHED THE BOTTOM
I'M DYING AGAIN
I'M GOING UNDER
DROWNING IN YOU
FALLING FOREVER
I'VE GOT TO BREAK THROUGH
I'M GOING UNDER"
"Did they have to pick a song that relates to me?" TK slammed his fist in anger as tears began to stream from his face.
"BLURRY AND STIRRING TRUTH AND THE LIES
SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S REAL AND WHAT'S NOT
ALWAYS CONFUSING THE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD
SO I CAN'T TRUST MYSELF ANYMORE
I'M DYING AGAIN...
TK quickly turned off the radio, as sadness took over him. Maybe there's something on TV. TK changed the channel to the war of the bands contest. 'Maybe I should call some one and get this pain off my chest.' TK grabbed the phone and called his brother.
"Sorry we're not home at the moment please leave a message after the beep." TK hanged up the phone. 'Great Matt's not home, maybe the others aren't still mad at me.' TK's heart filled with hope. TK quickly dialed Kari's number. "Dam! The answer machine!" TK hanged up. "DU! You idiot! They're probably still at the hospital! Maybe Sora." TK quickly dialed her number. "Pick up, pick up..."
"Hello?" Came Sora's happy voice.
"Hey Sora, what's..." TK got cut off by an angry Sora.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing calling me! Fuck off TK! I mean it!" Sora slammed the phone on the receiver.
"That went well." TK took a deep sigh and dialed Izzy's number. "Great line is busy. Maybe Yolei." TK quickly dialed. "Hello is Yolei home." TK ask her mother.
"Yes she is. Who is this?" she asked in her sweet voice.
"It's TK." TK became afraid that Yolei wouldn't answer.
"Yolei it's TK. He want's to talk to you."
TK could hear Yolei angrily stomping to the phone. The next thing he knew, she hanged up. 'Great!'
TK tried several other friends; their words were to violent that we couldn't post it please stand by.
"One more." TK dialed the last number.
"Hello?" Came a male voice.
"Hi, is Davis home?" TK prayed that Davis would listen to him.
"Davis, phone for you!" Shouted his father. TK heard Davis running up to the phone, hoping it was Kari.
"Hello?" Came Davis' goofy voice.
"Hey Davis." TK said a little scared.
"What do you wa..." TK quickly cut off his angry voice.
"Forget. I'll hang up on myself!" TK slammed the phone on the receiver down. Not realizing that it hadn't gone on all the way and it was still on. "For Chris sakes! Is there anyone I can talk to!" TK shouted. Davis remained on the other line, realizing that TK forgot to press off. 'Alright spy time.' Davis got an evil grin as he listens to TK. 'Man this kid gots issues. TK plumed himself on the couch and began to cry.
'Is TK crying?' Davis listens in confusing. As TK cried he heard the announcer announcing the next singer.
"Ladies and genital men put your hands together for K.C. Raven!" 'Whoa he's watching war of the bands. I almost forgot that was on.' Davis quickly leaped over the couch and changed the channel on Jun, as he kept the phone on his ear.
"Hey!" Jun shouted in anger.
"Shut up Jun! I'm trying to listen!" Davis' mouth drop when he saw a girl with short blond hair with purple and black streaks in it, an eyebrow piercing, black lipstick, a black skirt with red streaks going down it. With black baggy pants and a silver chain going the skirt and black sleeveless shirt with a skull on fire on it and net gloves. "Dude that's a girl! Usually they wear pink and show their body and don't look miserable!" Davis looked in shock, he had never seen a girl like that.
" The song is Point of Pleasure." K.C. Raven announced in a cold voice. 'Point of Pleasure sounds like a nice song for sad looking girl.'
"NO ONE SAW WHAT I WAS
NO ONE SAW THE FEELINGS I HID
NO ONE COULD EVEN TELL, THAT I NEEDED HELP!
I LEFT ALL THE SIGNS
I WAS TO SCARED TO TELL
I LAY IN THE DARKNESS...
"I can relate." Davis heard TK on the other side. 'What's he talking about?'
"ALL ALONE, BY MYSELF
NO ONE SAW THE WAY I EYE BALLED THOSE KNIVES!
"OK. It's not a nice song. It's a suicide song. How nice. Who would want to commit suicide and end everything?" Davis looked at her confused.
"NO ONE EVER CARED!
I CAN NOT EVERN SWIM!
I'M DROWNING IN MY OWN BLOOD!
I NO LONGER CAN BREATH
AS BLOOD POURS OUT.
I CAN NOT BE SAVE!
I CAN'T EVEN SAVE MYSELF!
WITH EVERY SLASH I TAKE
I RELEASE THE PAIN!"
'That girl's crazy.' Davis kept watching.
"She's right." Davis heard TK speak as he became more confused. "She's right, where's that steak knife." 'He can't be serious! He can't be in that much pain. Can he?'
"TK! Pick up!" Davis shouted with fear in his heart. "TK! TK! TK!"
TK heard Davis screaming on the other line. 'Great I left the phone on.
"I JUST WANT MY WRIST TO BLEED
SEE THAT LIQUID POUR OUT
QUICKLY...
"Davis?" TK asked into the phone unshore of himself.
"TK don't do it! Don't do it!" Davis shouts in fear.
"Huh?" TK became confused, then realized what Davis was thinking. TK listen to plea for him to not to do it. "Fuck off Davis! I'll do what I want. Even death! So fuck off!" TK slammed the phone down on the receiver making shore to hang up.
"TK! TK! No!" Davis whispered the last part. Then quickly ran out of the house.
I CAN NOT EVEN SWIM
I'M DROWNING IN MY OWN BLOOD
I NO LONGER CAN BREATH
AS BLOOD POURS OUR
TK took hold of the steak knife and brought it to his wrist and slashed it open. "That felt good."
NO ONE NOTICE
THE WAY I EYEBALLED THOSE KNIVES.
'Just hang in there a little longer TK! Don't be dead! Please don't be dead!' Davis raced down the street, passing some of his friends, not willing to stop to say hello. Panic raced threw him as ran.
HOW DEPRESS I AM
THERE'S NO WILL IN ME
JUST WANT TO LET GO OF THE RAIL
AND PLUNGED TO THE DEATH
TK slashed deeper into his skin as more blood poured out. "No one cares about me. No one gives a dam if I'm a live or dead! Everyone be happier if I was dead!"
THESE WOUNDS ARE TO DEEP TO EVER HEAL
NO ONE CAN SAVE ME FROM THIS PAIN
I HAVE NOTHING LEFT BUT,
WHAT IS HOLDING ME BACK!
'Be a live! Be a live!' Davis ran up the stairs of the apartment. Reaching TK's door, he played with the handle to find it unlock. Davis quickly bust into the apartment.
I CAN'T EVEN SWIM
I'M DROWNING IN MY OWN BLOOD
I NO LONGER CAN BREATH
AS BLOOD POURS OUT OF MY MOUTH
Davis spotted TK over by the counter slicing his arm before bringing it to his neck.
"Don't TK!" Davis grabbed TK, yanking his neck away from the knife. Davis grabbed the knife by the steal and tried to rip it away. TK fought with all his might to keep the knife in his hand. Davis quickly kicked one of the crutches away from TK and let go of him allowing him to fall to the ground, to get him to let go of the knife.
I'M SINKING SO FAST
THAT NO ONE CAN SAVE ME FROM MYSELF
I'M CHOKING ON MY OWN BODY AS STEEL SLICES THREW ME!
Davis threw the knife on the counter and quickly tackled TK before he could get up.
"I won't let you kill yourself!" Davis said flat out.
"You don't understand what I'm going through!" TK shouted back as the two kept switching who was on top and tried to punch the other. Davis finally got a good hold on TK. He sat on TK's stomach and had TK's upper back and head on the counter's side and pinned his arms down. TK squirmed to get free.
"I would if you would just tell me!" Davis shouts angrily.
"You won't listen!" TK shouted back. 'Just leave me alone.'
"You're the one that hanged up on me!" Davis reminded him.
THERE'S NO REASON LEFT
I GOT NO HOPE
I HAVE NO DREAMS
I LOST THE WILL
TO KEEP MY EYES OPEN!
"NO ONE WANT'S YOU TO BE DEAD!" Davis shouted at him
"Yes they do!" TK began to sob.
THEY'RE CLOSING FAST
AS MY LIFE GOES BY
"No they don't, they don't mean it." Davis said calmly.
"Yes they do!" TK is now crying as Davis looks at him with concern eyes. Then he leans in towards TK, inches away from his face and whispers...
"I don't." Davis kisses him on the lips. TK's eyes go wide in shock.
NOW I REGRET IT
I CAN NOT TURN BACK
IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME
IT'S TOO LATE
IT'S TOO LATE.
Davis pulls away to see a shock TK, not to his surprise. Davis leans in and whispers into the shock boy's ear. 'He has to know, he's not the only one that won't be excepted. For what he is.' Davis slowly speaks in a loving voice towards him.
"TK, I'm bi and I always had a thing for you." TK closes his eyes, not wanting to believe what he just heard. 'Davis bi! But he has a crush on Kari or was that made up?' TK finally opens his eyes to show he was scared. Davis could tell from before he opened his eyes he was scared. "It's okay. There's nothing to be afraid of." Davis rubbed his hand up and down TK's face. Davis slowly got off of him, then pulled him onto his chest. TK didn't know what to do, his mind was racing to fast for him to think properly.
"It's okay." Davis took a towel from the counter and rapped TK's bloody arm in it. TK just allowed him to hold him, not shore of what he could do, now that he was crippled. TK's mind was to much of a jumble mess. TK soon found himself crying on Davis's chest. 'What am I doing I not gay!' "It's okay to cry." Davis rubbed his back lovingly, sensing the boy was in a ton of pain.
"I don't want to be alone." TK whispered in a low voice.
"You're not, I'm right here." Davis whispered as his clang to TK, not wanting to let go, as TK shakes in his arms.
Little while longer.
"Just don't do this again." Davis put a hand on TK's shoulder, TK just gave a small nod.
"Thanks. For listening." TK gave a guilty look of embarrassment.
"It's okay bud. The thing I want to do is go to a funeral." Davis gave some advise that should work for a while. TK just gave a small nod of understand. "See yah at school." Davis took off. TK slowly closed the door and plopped himself on the couch, totally exhausted. Then there was a knock on the door. 'Did he forget his keys again?' TK slowly got up and made his way to the door. When he opened up he was surprised to find…
"Raven? What you doing here?" TK looked at the girl with black hair, wore a black shirt and black knickers. She had a dark purple backpack and a duffle bag. She gave him a cock eye and looked at him in confusion.
"The court said I can live with you and your mom." She said happily.
"That's great!" TK wanted to hug her but due to his crutches he couldn't. He moved out of the way to allow her in.
"Did you twist an ankle or something?" She looked at his legs in concern.
"No, I crippled." TK looked down as he told her the entire story.
"That Tai is a complete jerk. Why were you even friends with him?" Raven said angrily. 'How could he do that to my cousin!'
"He wasn't always like that. He was once like a other brother to me." TK signed in depression. 'This isn't the happy TK I once knew.' Raven looked at him concernly.
"Well, now you have a sister." Raven punched him in the arm. TK gave off a weak smile.
"Actually, you're the second." TK replied with a smirk, seeing if she would catch on.
"What?" Raven looked at him in confusion.
"Mom's pregnant."
"You're kidding! Since when?" Raven shouted in surprise as she fell off the couch. TK let out a little laugh watching her hall off.
"Since seven months ago." TK said happily.
"Who's the dad?" Raven asked excitedly.
"She doesn't know." TK looked down depress. Raven face turned to shock that his mom wouldn't know the dad.
"How things bin?" Raven tried to get off the subject.
"Just peachy." TK said angrily then got up. "I'm off to bed."
"It's only 7:40." Raven asked in concern.
"School tomorrow." TK answered flat out before disappearing in his room.
'What has happened to you? You're wearing all black, my thing, got sad eyes and has mood swings. What has happened to you?' Raven walked over to the counter looking for cup.
"Huh!" Raven backed up is fear, seeing the bloody knife laying on the counter. "Tai what have you done to him?" Raven looked back at TK's door.
SO WHAT YOU THINK? GREAT YAH? SUICIDE, DAVIS BI, IS TK BI? I HAVEN'T DECIDED YET. I DON'T THINK ANYONE HAS EVER DONE BI, MENTAL ILLNESS, CRIPPLED, HEART BREAKING, AND PREGNANCY ALL IN ONE STORY. SO HOW'S THE DAD? YOU'LL KNOW IN GOOD TIME. TAI? HE GETS RELEASED FROM THE HOSPITAL BUT IS STILL A JERK TO TK. SO WHAT DID YOU THINK OF THE SONG I WROTE?
SO NEXT CHAPTER- CAN RAVEN HELP TK AND BRING BACK THE OLD TK AND WHAT ARE THE OTHERS GOING TO THINK WHEN THEY SEE HIM HANGING WITH ANOTHER GIRL? ESPESCAILY WHEN IT'S THE SAME GIRL THAT GOT EVERYONE MAD AT TK. TK CAN'T CATCH A BRAKE CAN HE? I THINK I'M CALLING IT TRUST.
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