Title: Steal My Soul
By: Strawberry L
Fandom: The O.C.
Pairing: Seth x Ryan
Rating: PG
Warnings: unrequited boy love
Disclaimer: Written for the 14lyrics livejournal challenge 'Everything you touch, you don't feel; do not know what you steal'. I don't own the O.C. or anything cool like that.
Ryan's POV
He's closer to me than anyone ever has been, but sometimes he makes me feel invisible. It was his self-proclaimed friendship that drew me in at first, and over time we trusted one another, had each others back amongst the every day hell that is Newport Beach. I grew to accept that, and after awhile expect it and want it and need it, because if Seth doesn't have my back, who does?
Seth thinks he understands, thinks he gets it. He's perfectly content in his world with Summer, his perfect girlfriend, and Ryan, his perfect best friend. Seth doesn't see that he means more to me than a best friend. He doesn't see how much I enjoy being close with him and spending time with him, doesn't notice when I lean into his touch or how I have to restrain myself when he touches other people. To Seth, an arm across a shoulder is normal, ok. To me it's pure heaven, and yet hell because I know he doesn't it mean like I want him to. I just want to shake him and make him realize whate he does to me.
Everytime he touches me I feel myself losing a little more sanity. My mind reels and my breathe stops and I can only look at Seth and think about how much I want us to be together, as more than friends or brothers. And yet everytime he touches me I feel like I'm losing a part of that dream, like I'm getting father away from Seth.
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