It gets so much harder once the sun goes down and the world goes to sleep.
I got used to either sleeping with his arms around me. And the fact that if we weren't together for the night… which in reality was most nights… that he was at least thinking of me and wanting to be with me as much as I wanted to be with him.
See, we used to have this perfect love. I know people saw us and we were one of those couples who made people want to find love. In reality, for so long, we never fought. Yes, we had our disagreements, but we always worked them out civilly. I guess it was because we really didn't get to spend that much time together and why waste something so precious being unhappy?
We were so good for each other. Even though we appeared to be complete opposites… after all, I was the girl good poster child and he… well, he had never been.
I was seventeen when we met. He was twenty-one. Two weeks after we started dating, he turned twenty-two.
More importantly, one week after we officially started dating, I was forbidden to see him.
It was such a hard time for me. I lost some bad friends in the process, but to the world, they looked like saints. And here I was, torn between listening to others and staying with the first guy to really get me to fall for him.
I chose the boy.
Maybe I should start with the beginning of the story. Way back to January 29, 2004… the start of my tragic love story.
I walked into the bowling alley that night, frantically searching for that one face.
I sighed in relief as I saw my friend Lita. She was with Ken, as expected. Best friends for as long as forever. Everyone who met the two of them and had seen them together told the duo they'd start dating… but it would never happen. And the reason for my relief being that until maybe five that evening… I was scared senseless that Lita was dead.
Only by the strength of her body was she standing here tonight. Not by any help of the dozens of pills she had taken the night before. They had only sufficed to knock her out.
I was happy that I hadn't brought my boyfriend, Seiya, with me tonight. This was a night for friends, and he didn't really get along with my friends too well. Last time I had brought him with me here, he ditched me and my friends for three hours to play laser tag by himself. This was not a time for that kind of drama.
We were walking back from Round Table Pizza when we ran into two of Lita and Ken's friends. Darien and Andrew. Darien was 6' 5" with somewhat long dark hair, while Andrew was a few inches shorter with brown hair. I was immediately attracted to Andrew… but so was Lita.
We got a few minutes alone, and I told Lita I thought Andrew was cute. She laughed and told me she thought the same… but reminded me I could look, but I couldn't touch… however… she could. I laughed with her, cursed my relationship, and walked off with Ken.
As Ken and I were walking back from the arcade to the table the other three were sitting, I became extremely hyper. We reached the table and I looked down at my shirt, and poked it. "Look, Batman's squishy!" referring to the superhero adorning my chest.
"I'd like to squish Batman…" Darien did NOT just say that.
"…"
And that was how the rest of the night went. Darien continued to make jokes referring to Batman… complete with gestures and points. It was a great night though, all in all. I got a new nickname. I'll give you one guess. Darien appointed himself Joker as soon as I accepted that I was now Batman. I had a lot more fun that I had in a long time, worrying only about hanging out with good friends and making new ones.
It was during the short break off of… me…thatAndrew pointed out the tall, cute, tattooed girl Darien had a little infatuation with. It was then I learned that with all his jokes and bravado came a set-back- he couldn't find the right words around the girls he liked. Surprise surprise.
I left that night with two big hugs from Andrew and an awkward short hug from Darien. It was slightly awkward simply from the fact that he was 6' 5"... and I was only 5' 3". With shoes.
"Bye Batman!" they called as I left with Lita and Ken in Lita's mom's car.
That was how I met the first boy I fell in love with.
Sorry this is short. It's my first chapter of my first chapter and it's going to take a while to make them longer. I will, in time. For now, each chapter will probably focus on a part of the relationship… each new development. We'll see. I'll try to update soon. The more response the more motivated I'll get, so I encourage you to let me know. 3
Alicia
