Warning I don't own Degrassi, nor any of the characters in it.

When I was younger I used to try and fit in. I wanted to be the girl that had all the friends, and was well liked by everyone. I guess I just woke up, I stopped caring what others thought. I came to Degrassi not expecting much, assuming it was going to be just like the other schools I had went to before. Life can really take you by surprise. For instance I met some great people like Ashley and Marco. I had finally found friends that I could call my own. But I always felt like there was something missing, this hole that never filled up. That's when Sean came into my life. I thought everything was going to be perfect, I thought I found the one person who could save me from self destructing. For a time he was, he made my life so much better, so much fuller. Then Rick happened and yet again a person I was close to was ripped from my life. There was no closure, just a long trip back home from Wasaga Beach, and this feeling in the pit of my stomach that nothing was ever going to be the same again.

I was left with all this responsibility, an empty house, with the scent of him hanging cloyingly over everything. Everything there reminded me of him, and yet I knew that I could never bring him back. My life was about to change and I had no choice about it. Who was there now to pick up the pieces, Mom was in rehab. Sean was out of my life. As much as I still loved Marco and Ashley we had grown apart lately. What was I to do? Who could I turn to? I felt completely numb and alone in the world, but I had to keep on living. It was hard I can tell you that, it took so much effort pretending that I was ok, that eventually I pretty much was. I came out of the experience a changed person, slightly more damaged but I bit more whole too. I learned that I can take care of myself and that my happiness does not depend upon other people. I can stand on my own two feet, and even after tragedy you realize that your life will get better, you will find happiness again. Every little experience is worth living for.