One too strong to fight
Chapter twelve
"Headmaster, I can't find Harry any where, he's been missing for several hours now." Severus said barging into the headmaster's office without taking a breath; he had run all the way from the dungeons.
"Okay, calm down Severus, please explain to me what happened."
"Well … we've been …"
"I am quite aware of what you have been doing Severus please continue."
Severus explained about Draco, Blaise and the Polyjuice potion, the argument and finished with "and he's pregnant, with my child, please can't you help me find him before he does something stupid."
"I think I know where he would have gone, you wait here and under no circumstances are you to wander after me, I think I need a little word with Harry before you see him again."
Severus nodded and watched as the headmaster departed at a brisk pace to find his Harry. There weren't enough words to describe how guilty he was feeling; after all he had wrongly accused Harry of cheating when in his heart he knew that despite his worries to the contrary Harry would never hurt him intentionally.
Harry had been sitting in the room of requirement for the past seven hours and he had been crying non stop but now he had taken it that one step further and slipped back into old habits. Last year he had promised Ron and Hermione he would never do it again but they were no longer his friends, he didn't have to keep promises that he had made to them.
He still had the scars from last time; he was surprised that no one in Slytherin had noticed them, even more so that Severus had not. Maybe the man only cared for their love making; he very clearly wanted Harry for little else. Harry didn't think he could cope without his lover and especially not with a child in tow.
Severus didn't want him, Harry was decided and with that thought he took a knife to his forearm, dangerously close to the major veins on his wrist. A thin streak of blood appeared on his lightly tanned skin; Harry held up his arm and watched as a droplet of precious liquid trickles down.
He felt the rush of peace as if by making this cut slowly took his pain away, the familiar relief that he felt as he watched, it was amazing, if Severus didn't want him then he was nothing, nothing without his boyfriend. He loved him and would never love another man as long as he lived, if Severus could not trust him, could not love him then he couldn't live.
This is how Dumbledore found Harry, sitting there, one cut on his arm, staring into space and tear streaks down his cheek. The headmaster shook his head, took the injured arm and with a wave of his wand he healed him, he almost cried at the sight of Harry, his golden boy or so every one said.
"Harry … I know you are hurting right now but I want you to listen to me, can you do that?" Harry gave a barely noticeable nod. "Severus is in my office, he is very worried about you, it is very clear that he still loves you."
"You can't love someone fully and unconditionally if you do not trust them." Harry retorted, Dumbledore actually smiled, the twinkle returning to his eyes.
"That child growing inside of you would not exist if the two of you were not very powerful and very much in love with each other, that is how male pregnancies work, the magic of the carrier carries the child in a magically constructed womb." Dumbledore paused as Harry took this entire statement in. "So you see Severus does love you, would you like to come with me now and see him?"
Harry furiously shook his head and remained stubbornly sitting on the floor.
"Come on Harry, we will never resolve this if you do not come with me, besides if you think that I am leaving you on your own after what I have just witnessed you are very much mistaken, now are you going to come willingly or do I have to drag you there kicking and screaming?"
Slowly and with the headmasters help Harry got to his feet and was helped from the room, through the corridors of Hogwarts corridors and up to the headmasters office.
When they entered Severus practically ran to embrace his young lover but just before he reached him Harry withdrew his wand, "Stay away from me" He said coldly glaring at the older man and fighting the urge to cry and throw himself into the arms of Severus and beg him to take him back.
"I think you should sit down Severus." Dumbledore suggested, the headmaster then conjured another chair for Harry, who pushed it all the way to the other side of the room where he sat, arms crossed over his chest and glaring at Severus who felt as if he were a timid first year under his lovers gaze.
Before the headmaster could say anything Severus had crumbled with the amount of guilt, he hadn't even seen the blood that had stained Harry's white undershirt yet. He threw himself onto the floor and looked up at Harry who rightly looked a little surprised at how uncharacteristic Severus was being.
"Please can you forgive me Harry, I made a huge mistake and I'm so sorry, I can't lose you, I love you too much … I swear that I am going to kill Draco for doing this and then maim Blaise for good measure."
"Don't beg Severus, it doesn't become you." Harry said still speaking coldly, he couldn't look Snape in the eye instead he stared defiantly at the floor.
"I don't care … I will do anything to show how much of an idiot I've been, do you want me to sing, I'll sing for you."
"Don't threaten me." Harry said lightening up a little but his voice was still only lukewarm.
Dumbledore couldn't help but chuckle, both of the other occupants in the room ignored him, "I mean it Harry I'll do anything to make it up to you, and I'll have you know that I have a rather pleasant singing voice."
"Has any one ever told you so?"
"Well … no …but."
"Then please, don't sing, I will not have our baby's safety threatened by your terrible singing voice."
"Brat … wait, did you say our baby?"
"Yes I did, and seeing as I have only just forgiven you I wouldn't call me names." Harry paused before adding: "I still love you, but I need you to trust me. Now get up off the floor, you'll get your robes dirty."
I loved some of the lines in this, I shouldn't laugh at my own jokes. Please review and I will love you forever. After I've finished this what is the next story you want me to finish? Let me know. xxxxxxxx
