Title: Covered in darkness
Chapter: One
Disclaimer: I don't own any of Harry Potter's characters, even though I really wish I did, I don't, this is all J.K.Rowling's rich imagination and my story.
Pairing: Nymphadora Tonks and Remus Lupin
Almost half an hour had passed after the incident in St. Mungo's hospoital for Maladies and Injuries, Remus Lupin had left the room, where one of the Weasleys, Bill, had been suffering for the same he had never had peace from. Being a werewolf was something that rather than annoy him, it scared him. He was terrified that one day, he may kill or even worse, convert, all of his friends and companions into something he already hated.
The metallic scent of blood nearly tortured him. Even when he wasn't turned into a werewolf, the mere thought of blood haunted him. It was one of the benefits of having animal's influences in him. Often he would shut himself appart, he didn't want to be near people fearing that he could easily try and attack them. That's, in great part, why he had become so lonely. He was not alone, he knew that, but he was definetely lonely.
" Remus.." Nymphadora Tonks called for him, but he didn't turn to face her. He remained in the same position he had adopted, hoping maybe, that if he was cold to her, she would leave. " You will have to face me.. eventually.." She said one more time as she possed her hand on his shoulder, only to be fiercely rejected by him, who got rid of her hand quickly.
" I don't think there's anything to discuss.. I've already told you what I think." Lupin said icily as he remained still and unreadable.
" And I've told you what I think.." Tonks emphasised the pronoun. He made it look as though only his opinion mattered.
" Well, it's a lovely feeling, but I can't return it." Lupin said, his manner had become not only cold, but sarcastic and hurting. Tonks fought for the urge to punch him. He was being rude and she knew he was nothing like that.
" You can.. You may don't want to.. but you can." Tonks said fiercely, trying to ignore his last comment. She had managed to turn him around to face her, and had caught his chin trying to deepen the eye contact. In those days she had turned into a completely mess. She was no longer cheerfully and vivid, full of colours, as he sweetly remembered her, she was doomier and darker. He was to blame for that and he knew it. He had changed her vivid smile for an expressless face.
" You know.. all this time.. you've been insisting.. Didn't it occur you maybe, that I'm simply not interested in you?" Lupin said as hurtful as it sounded in his mind. He had to forget about her and he had to make her forget about him soon before she literally fall appart.
" Yes. A thousand of times. But you never said that." Tonks said in such a tone that made Lupin shiver. Her voice had been so sweet and yet so full of hope.
" Do you want me to say it then?" Lupin asked defiantely as he approached to her, his eyes locked on hers. He had to do it, he had to tell her that for her to stop thinking about him. He had to hurt her i such a way that she would hate him.
" Do you want to say it?" Tonks asked as she rose an eyebrow. Lupin could easily melt with that expression. He didn't know why, for he knew his feelings were not clear, he prefered her far and safe.
" Fair enough." Lupin said as he maintained eye contact. " I don't love you. I don't even like you the way you want me to. To me, you're just a little girl with a crush on me that would not give up until I pretend I respond her feelings." Lupin battled harshly to say those things. He knew he had to be severe, but he also knew about limits. He had gone too far and he had hurt her badly. Very badly. But at least, he had accomplished what he pursued: Tonks was so devastated that she turned around and started to leave. He felt she was crying behind.
For several minutes, nothing fell worse than what he had done. He was begining to regret it but he conviced himself over and over again that it was the best thing to have done. That it was no other choice and that she would be soon over him and starting to meet other men. She was attractive, sweet, especial, she would not have any problem to find someone rapidly. However, that thought didn't relieve him as much as he thought it would.
A/N:
That's chapter one.. I hope you liked it. I've been hoping for Lupin and Tonks to get together for a while, so when I read Harry Potter and the half blood prince I was shocked but mainly satisfied. It was something one knew was going to happen. I'm also a good Hermione/Ron fan, which we know, want it or now Draco/Hermione, Harry/Hermione, Ron/Lavender, Harry/Ron fans, WILL get together.
Focusing on Tonks and Lupin, I think they're great for each other and this fic, my first Harry Potter one ever edited, it's all about them.
Review, there's more..
Paris BYK
