Chapter four:
One week passed since Lupin's visit to Snape. He had been barely sleeping at all, staying in St. Mungo's hospital of Maladies and Injuries all nights long, just staring at her, hoping she will wake up and smile at him, he loved how she used to smile at him.
" How is she?" Molly Weasley asked him when he exitted the room. He wasn't sure what to answer, Creptius disease wasn't something one could describe or sense any kind of improvements.
" She's.. asleep." Lupin answered simply. Molly began crying again, and this time, no Fleur, no Arthur around, he comforted her himself. He knew how fond she was of Tonks by the moment she tried to get her to basically live with the Weasleys in hope that Bill would marry her instead of Fleur. He wanted her to do so, but secretetly, deep down, he would collapse if he ever saw her with Bill at the altar. He couldn't have her, but he couldn't watch her with anybody else.
" Remus.. why is it, really, that you don't want to be with her? Don't you like her?" Molly began asking. Lupin had feared it. Being alone with Molly Weasley would definetely lead to thousands of questions involving his feelings, feelings he intended not to reveal.
" I've told her, and I'm telling you, even though you heard me that time.. I don't deserve her.. she's supposed to be with someone much younger, richer, and safer than me. I can't guarantee none of those and I want her to be happy with someone she deserves.. not an old werewolf.." Lupin said bitterly.
" But Remus.. Love doesn't care about wealth, or age, or danger.. it just.. want's to be with that significant other.. And Tonks.. she's neither a child, nor a helpless woman. She's an auror, she can defend herself and she's very good at it.." Molly insisted one more time.
" I know she can defend herself.. I also know she doesn't care wether I've got no pennies in my pockets or that I'm nearly ten years older than her.." Remus began.
" So? You can't tell me you don't love her cause I've seen you look at her! When we were at the order, with Sirius, everybody.. you two seemed to get along so well.. and something happened and then you were cold to each other.. well.. you were cold to her mainly.." Molly said in hope that he would tell her more to fulfil the story.
" I kissed her." Lupin said ashamed, not only he had blushed, but the tone he had used was the one that reflected when someone did something he shouldn't have done.
" And why is that so bad!" Molly asked confused. She was sure kissing was not bad in her book.
" Because I'm a.." Lupin began but Molly interrupted him abruptly and ragely.
" A WEREWOLF! I KNOW!" Molly yelled that part, forgetting that they were still in the hospital. A couple of nurses shut her up and shot her nasty looks, which meant that she should shut up, and so she lowered her voice. " Just because you've got that tiny problem, doesn't mean you've got to close your possibility of finding happiness.." Molly said in a much politer tone now.
" I'm going to hurt her.." Lupin said worried.
" No you won't. Not if you take precautions. But answer me an honest question.. do you love her?" Molly asked eagerly to know that answer. Remus Lupin had never showed his true feelings before, he had never told anybody how he felt about anybody as well.
" I do.. I love her very much.. I need her with me.. I'm losing my mind.. I'm afraid I've become dependent on her.. her smile.. her scent.. I need her but I'm afraid I might hurt her.. and I don't want to.. she's so fragile and precious.." Lupin talked as if he was a monster and Tonks a little fairy. Molly looked at his eyes and clearly saw the expression of a man in love, no matter how he acted towards the beloved one.
" Don't worry.. she'll wake up.. I know she will, she's really strong you know, don't reject her.." Molly said as she and Lupin began talking about Tonks'es childhood, one Molly was very well informed about.
Meanwhile, Tonks was having the most beautiful, perfect dream she could possibly ask for. There she was, sitting on the shinning green grass, resting her head on someone's bare chest. She opened her eyes and felt the warm touch of fingers sliding through her hair, which was bubblegum pink, the breeze striking on her cheeks. She looked at her surroundings and saw nothing but trees, birds, flowers. She possed her hand on the thing that was supporting her head and felt the warm skin contact her own fingers. She turned around and saw Remus Lupin staring at her, smiling, still playing with a couple of strands of her hair.
She looked at him unbelieving, realized soon enough he was shirtless. She was going to ask about it, but she concentrated so much in looking at his chest that she forgot to speak. It was toned, muscled and firm, she felt it that way when she started passing her fingers up and down of it, touching it, feeling every curve. Then she noticed a couple of scars, her eyes widened as she tried to explore them as well.
" Don't.. they're when.. when Fenyr attacked me.. I.. I understand if you feel disg-" But Remus didn't get a chance to finish his sentence, Tonks had put one finger on his mouth to shut him up, and with her other hand she smoothly and carefully touched the scars. Then she glanced at him, and for a minute she felt him glancing back at her with a smile. She approached him even more and kissed him slowly. Lupin put his hands around her waist and kissed her back with the same intensity, as they went on, they deepened the kiss and were begining to explore each other mouths with their tongues.
Back at the hospital, Lupin who had not moved an inch from Tonks'es side, noticed she was smiling widely and her hair, begining to gain the gum pink he secretely adored.
A/N:
First of all thank you very much to all reviewers it really motivates the author to go on.. I'm sorry again for grammar mistakes I don't have a beta I tried to correct the most myself but it gets kinda tiring you know..
I also wanted to know if there's a Tonks/Lupin community or something here at fanfiction.. same with Bella/Snape though I get the feeling I'm the only one who wants them together lol...
Done.. There isn't much I want to say except that I just love the couple Tonks and Lupin make.. This fic is getting to its end.. so keep checking and reviewing..
Paris BYK
