Title: Open Wounds

Author: GEM

Date written: 8/27/05

Rated: T

Word count: 520

Story Timeline: Season 2

Category: Dradis Challenge

Warnings: SEASON 2 SPOILERS

Characters: Apollo, Adama

Summary: Dradis Contest: Secrets Revealed Week #4 William Adama. What is Betrayal?

Spoilers: Season 1 Episodes 4,12,13 and Season 2 Resistances, Home Part 1& 2

He hated feeling helpless and that is exactly how he felt. He sat by his son's bedside praying for forgiveness. Praying that Lee would survive the attempt on his life. He sat thinking of all the wrongs he couldn't make right but would try if he got a chance.

Dee was right. He had betrayed them all but nothing compares to the betrayal of his family. Caroline, Lee, Zac, even Kara. He has betrayed them all. Caroline gave him two sons. She begged him to stay home to leave the fleet but he didn't. Lee and Zac were robbed of a normal childhood because their father was so tied up in flying and a sense of duty that he felt his career was far more important.

He used to believe that he had nothing to do with Zac's death but after some soul searching he came to the same conclusion. He had betrayed his son, again. Now he realizes that he- William Adama had everything to do with Zac's death. He was the one that pushed him to become a pilot, to join the Colonial Fleet. He was the one who got him into flight school. He is the one who has to live with the blood on his hands everyday.

He betrayed Lee as well; He pushed him, like his brother to wear the uniform. He pushed him to be an officer and now he realizes that it may not have been what his son wanted.

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He was there when it happen. He saw the gun but he couldn't get to him fast enough. He froze. The gun pointed at Lee suddenly turned into Boomer pointing the gun at him and he be flung across the plot table by force of the bullets.

He held onto Lee's hand tighter placing his heard on his son's chest he began to weep.

He didn't hear her come in the room but her hand was on his shoulder her voice calm and soothing. "He'll make it, Bill."

She sat down next to him. "Do you want to talk about it?"

He hesitated. Lee left with her to find the way to Earth because of his betrayal. They were the reason he went down to Kobol. She may understand this battle he is fighting with himself. He decided to give in. "I felt betrayed then Dee pointed out that I had broken my promise to everyone. I was feeling betrayed when in actuality I was the betrayer. I have betrayed everyone I ever held dear to me Lee, Caroline, Zac, Kara, my crew. I've let them all down."

She placed her hand over the hand that held tightly on to Lee and listened.

"When we found the tomb on Kobol I suddenly felt like maybe I didn't betray everyone after all. Then I saw the gun pointed at Lee and I tried to get to him but my mind betrayed me. All I could see was Sharon holding the gun to my chest. I froze I couldn't save my son. I betrayed him, Laura. I am not the betrayed but the betrayer."