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Neil and Summer walk thru South Coast Plaza for various items of school supplies an clothing. Neil decided to go and look for the supplies well Summer went and tried to find clothes.
Not to far away Seth and Ryan were doing the same looking for clothes well Kirsten gets there school supplies, but Seth could not find anything that caught his attention of his "type" of clothing. He was just dazing out the window when he saw her his "her" the love of his life Summer Roberts he looked at her from far away wondering what has her life been like ever since he left Newport.
He decided this was his chance to go and confront her to find out what he had missed in the last 3 months.
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SUMMER POV
I was walking towards the girl's bathroom to touch up on my make up that covered my dark circles around my eyes. The moment I turned to go thru the hall to reach the bathroom the tall curly lanky hair boy that I fell in love with stepped in front of me.
I didn't know what to do he was just looking at me nothing coming out of his mouth, no apologizing not begging for forgiveness.
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"Summer ah how have you been?" said Seth
"just great, Cohen since you know it's so common for teenage boys to run away and leave there girlfriends a letter. NEVER BEEN BETTER!" said Summer
"look Summer I just couldn't handle it ok, I got scared if it wasn't for Ryan you would still be Summer the girl that made my life a miserable hell but some way I still fell in love with Roberts" Seth looked at Summer hoping she would forgive him "Summer I just didn't want you to realize after Ryan left that there was no point to be around me to not even think about me at all to be the invisible boy once again an I could not have that happen all I am asking for right not is your forgiveness?"
Seth looked at her with pleading eyes but he could not see Summer's she had sun glasses on that blocked him from seeing.
Summer looked at Seth the "man" she loved but she couldn't figure out how to forgive him.
"Cohen you think you can just come back to Newport thinking I will be here waiting for you with OPEN ARMS well your off your rocket buster, Look I cant forgive you alright I have thought about this moments since the day I got the letter and I always seen it different. But now all I can say is I HOPE I NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN SETH COHEN!" and with that Summer left running into the bathroom crying.
Seth just looked dumbfounded watching Summer run was not what he had expected he wanted her to open her arms an hug him, tell him everything is fine an they belong together.
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KIRSTEN POV
I was watching as my son tried to get Summer to forgive him, Yea right If someone would have done what Seth did to Summer I would never take them back I would be way to scared to give the a shot.
As I watched Summer run towards the restroom all I could think about was how much pain Seth had caused her so I went after her since Seth was just too much in shock to do it himself.
I walked by Seth and gave him a pat on the back and handed him the bags of school supplies, and went to the girl's restroom.
When I walked in all I could hear were sniffling coming for one restroom I walked over to knock, but before I got a chance to Summer walked out.
Once Summer saw me she immediately walked over to the sink to wash up I supposed when I walked over to comfort her. I noticed her arms were bleeding I was not going to question her on this I mean she could have scrapped her arm in the bathroom stall.
But then all of A sudden Summer accidentally drops her purse, Me being the GREAT person I am bends down and helps her clear it up, She goes for the mirror and the make up kits all of a sudden I notice something bright silver as I pick it up now realizing what it is.
Summer tries to grab It from me before she could grab it I pull my arm away just in time; I turned to look at her knowing an understanding what this is.
"Summer, sweetie is this what I think it is?" I knew that she know exactly that I knew what it was.
"Mrs. Cohen it's not what you think" said Summer
Summer again tries to get it from me, But I grab her arm in the process, Summer gives a very little scream of pain as I look at her pink sleeves which now have red stains on the bottom side where know one can see.
I stand there in shock looking at this 16 year old girl who had so much pain, but hide it by cutting so she could feel alive everyday.
"Summer what are you doing to yourself?" I said
"look you wouldn't understand if you would just give me back my razor, I will be on my way" she said in a very little voice that I could barely hear
"Summer I am not giving it back to you, look at what you're doing to yourself look really this is not you!"
"WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME?" Summer was getting angry " You have no idea what I go through? Everyday of my life wondering if I am good enough to even be on this planet, to look at yourself and hate yourself so much you break ever mirror in your house so you just don't have to see what A MESS you have become" said Summer
"look Summer let me help you!"
"I don't need any of your help I am surviving very fine on my own, I am dealing with my pain the only way I know how right now so I would really appreciate it if you just would not bother me"
"Summer this is not healthy you can really do some damage to yourself by doing what you are doing"
" I don't need any of your help, And frankly I don't really care what I am doing to myself I don't have any reason to live if everyone you love the most ALWAYS LEAVES YOU" Summer walked out of the bathroom
I couldn't believe it, I knew kids did it but I didn't know that she would be the type. Heck I didn't know if there was a type. All I knew is that I had to help her some way.
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LATER THAT NIGHT
SUMMER'S POV
I looked at myself in the BRAND NEW mirror's FATHER DEAREST bought me since he had noticed that all the other ones disappeared.
I pulled up my sleeves to reveal my arms which were scrawnier then I have ever seen them. I looked at them staring at what I did to myself and how stupid I was, I should have been more careful now Kirsten Cohen knows.
My arms were straight out so I could get a very good look at them my left arm was full of cutes I had done there were so deep I had to put like 10 band-aids on one for the bleeding to stop, I just cant stop I want to but I cant every time I think life's getting better something has to go wrong.!
So yea I don't know if it was good I thought Kirsten should find out first I was thinking Ryan but no but I promise Ryan will talk to Summer about his 'Past" an Marissa will probably be mentioned lol. PLEASE REVIEW
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