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(knock knock)

"Come in." I heard the stern feminine voice behind the huge oak door.

I gulped.

Here we go.

"Good evening Officer."

"Good evening Sir."

I saw her put some paperwork away as I got closer to her desk. I stood at attention. Her body leaned forward a bit, her eyes fixed on me.

She is so goddamn scary.

"It seems you find my office very appealing… this is the third visit you pay in three weeks." She can be the Queen of Sarcasm when she wants to. I didn't know what to say to not make her angrier. So I chose silence. "I will be brief. I am curious Officer; what were you thinking when you decided to disobey a direct order from your Captain... again." Her tone is getting a tad tense.

Oh, so it's about this? What's her deal, why wait so long?

I couldn't say the others were screwing up, right?

"I knew there were other Freaks hiding and were weak enough to lure them on my own... I thought this information was not known, Sir."

"You underestimate us, Officer... our Intelligence & Information units are one of the best in this continent. You should have a little faith in us."

"Pardon me, Sir... I was just thinking about the safety of everyone else and completing the mission."

Alucard fazed through a wall and walked behind Hellsing. What the hell is he doing here?

"Captains are Captains not because they won the title in a festival raffle. They are where they are because they have an overview of the situation and this is why they command units! If there is an order to retreat, you must do so no matter what you feel you should do! If you think you have found something of importance, you know the procedure by now, I am sure..."

"Yes Sir. Inform my Captain via radio and await orders."

"So I gather this was not a case of misinformation but a misjudgment on your part."

"At least she doesn't run away scared like most..." Alucard commented in his usual irreverent tone, but low enough to not reach my ears. It reached me by thoughts. I thought he used a different tone to address his Master, but I was surprised.

"I don't recall asking for your opinion Servant..." She whispered back at him but I did get that with my ears. I can feel a twitch in my eye.

"A good sign to know it is time to leave the scene is if you see the vampire. Usually he doesn't need backup..."

"Thank you, My Master..."

"Alucard..." She said warningly, not believing his formality. It did sound mocking. Everything he says does actually.

"It will not happen again Sir; I have learned my lesson..."

"I hope I don't have to see you next week again, if it is not to report."

"Yes Sir."

"Alucard."

"Yes Master?"

"I will call you when I have a need for you." She said looking at me still.

Silence.

He bowed and walked through a wall, exiting the office, not before turning his eyes to me. I felt a little heat come to my face. Damn it, did he do this just to torture me?

I had just left him in my room sleeping, apparently, a few minutes ago. I woke up, took a shower and as I finished getting ready, Seras knocked at my door with the news that Hellsing wanted to see me. I got scared right there. I really screwed up this time. I could feel it. I didn't bother on waking him up. Actually I haven't found a way to do it without hurting him.

As I walked toward the office something began to bother me. I told him after the first time we slept together that if he wanted he could take little sips of my blood. That was about a week ago. But last night... or morning or whatever, he didn't take any. It scared me. I felt some kind of void in my stomach. I mean, I don't want to die of anemia or anything but it's just... I dunno.

What if he doesn't like it anymore?

And why should I care, right?

I am not ready to accept the reason. I can't even phrase it, yet.

"Officer."

"S-Sir." Stop spacing out like this!

"Lets take advantage of your visit, since I expect it to be the last this month."

Silence.

She stood up, walked around her desk and stood in front of me; spine almost inhumanly straight, eyes able to burn holes on my skin and lips in a straight line.

What else did I do now...

"There is no room in this sacred order for people who protect or join themselves with the undead, our enemy. My duty is also to protect this home, the Queen and my country from traitors who side themselves in any way with monsters. If I were you I would review the codes of conduct given to you when you first were recruited into the Organisation. "

Gulp.

Yes, I did screw it up this time.

"Sir if I may, Captain Bernadette had nothing--."

"I am aware of that."

Silence.

"Dismissed."

"Yes Sir."

I turned around and got out of that office. Oh god... the Inquisition has nothing to this office... nothing. I walked down the hallway sighing heavily.

Then I stopped.

My brow furrowed.

Is she using the Organisation to warn me about Alucard? Is she calling me a traitor for getting involved with him?

Ohhhh I am SO going to the shooting range now. GRRR!

Don't even think I didn't see right through you Hellsing.


Why do I have to be cursed like this?

He's here again... god I hate to feel watched! It makes me nervous!

Sometimes I wonder if sleeping with him was the best thing I could have done. Trying to understand his logic, which is a bit difficult because it's not logic at all, I guess this will make him think he has even more rights over me than before. I seem to get deeper and deeper into this shit. Yes, I am having fun but I wonder how this will end. I hate my sense of adventure sometimes. It gets me in trouble. And not only in the workplace.

Good, he's gone.

I have a little thing in my stomach since that night I saw Hellsing and him at the piano. Again my ego was bruised; jealous? Who knows... one can be jealous for stupid superficial reasons like attention; it doesn't have to mean anything. Plus this is as casual as it can be. After that day there was no talk, no cuddling, nothing. It was hardly a romantic first time anyways... I guess this qualifies as casual. Yes, he stayed with me but...

I am afraid to loose him.

My hands stopped weaving for two seconds as this random thought came across my mind. Is this the reason why I care if he likes my blood or not?

"You're really good at that." Clay interrupted my thoughts. My head snapped up and after digesting what he had said I smiled.

"Let me see your arm for one second..." I asked him and he stretched it toward me. I measured his wrist with the hemp strings and continued to weave.

Oh god... loosing him? What the hell am I--.

"Saw you talking to Alucard after the mission."

I gulped. Oh god, please don't tell me he heard what I said on the radio.

"What do you mean?"

"Yeah, Captain Bernadette asked me to look for you and when I found you I saw you two talking."

"Oh..."

Silence.

"I wouldn't get so close to him if I were you."

I looked up.

"Close?"

"You were standing very close to him."

Silence. I stopped weaving.

"What do you mean?"

"Yeah, he was invading your personal space."

"I think... I would know when I don't want someone in my personal space... not to sound rude or anything..." What's his deal; it's not like people don't know we chat once in a while.

"Why would you want him in your personal space?"

"What is a personal space anyways..."

"We all have a personal space."

"What is it? 10.163 cms?" I said with a chuckle.

"I think sometimes you forget what he is..."

"It's kinda hard with the weird red eyes, big teeth and the disappearing thing..."

"I don't think you really understand what he is."

"A vampire? I was in Vampire 101 my first three months in Hellsing, read Bram Stocker and all that crap... I know what a vampire is..."

"Then how can you socialize with him that way?"

"Socialize?"

"I have seen you talk to other soldiers more cautiously than to him."

"So?"

"He's a monster."

"Clay... I don't know how personal your hatred towards them is but you know what? I respect it; I just see them differently and--."

"What do you mean differently?"

"Look at Seras... she's the personification of sweetness! How can you think all of them are the same?"

Silence.

"I can't believe you think this way..." He said shaking his head.

"I am entitled to my own opinion just like you."

"So what are you doing here then?"

"Here?"

"Hellsing."

"Killing scum just like you do."

Silence.

"Would you really protect a monster?"

"Clay, why are you taking this so personal?"

"Because I want to know your reason for being here!"

"It's a job!"

Silence.

I sighed. "Ok, so we are supposed to be better than them? And what, besides Alucard, have you seen vampires killing other vampires? You like people! And you started in the SAS! They kill people! At least vampires kill us because its part of the food chain--."

"How can you compare humans to that scum?"

I sighed.

Silence.

"I'm sorry if you find it offensive but I am here because I need a job... nothing else. Monsters, in my eyes, come in all shapes, colors, flavors and species... but this is just MY opinion."

Silence.

"So you WOULD protect a vampire..."

"If he/she deserves it, yes..."

"You know you could get in trouble for something like this."

"Believe me I know."

Silence.

"Your tone tells me you have."

"I protect who I feel should be--."

"No, your tone tells me you HAVE done it and gotten in trouble."

I sighed again and threw my head back. How frustrating.

"This makes no sense to me... how can you befriend someone who kills what you are for subsistence. It just makes no sense to me..."

"Something tells me there's nothing to worry about! That's all!"

"Ok... fine, sorry..."

"Great... now you're taking it this way--."

"--I wouldn't be surprised if you two were pals--."

Silence. I looked at him for a few seconds.

"And what if we are?"

He turned to me.

"What if in fact we are... I don't think there's a problem with that..."

He is staring at me, his eyes a bit bigger than normal.

"Why is it ok to be friends with Seras and not him?"

"He's not like her."

"So? You're not like Pip... and I hang out and have a good time with both of you... how is this different?"

"Ok, ok, fine I'll tell you..." He said faster and a bit louder "... call me crazy, but I don't like the way he looks at you... I don't know what intentions he has, as man or beast, but I have seen the way he looks at you... when you train, when in a mission, when you walk by and he happens to be there, which is very strange... he never happens to be anywhere; it's all because of something... it is just extremely suspicious to me..."

Silence.

"Now you see?.. I think you should go to Hellsing and talk to her about this."

"Thanks a lot... I will be careful about this but I will not go to Hellsing unless I have proof something is wrong... I don't want him to get punished for something he hasn't even done--."

"I can't believe I'm hearing this--."

"I don't want to talk about this anymore--."

"You are definitely protecting him--no doubt now--."

"I am not!"

Silence.

"Has he been here in your room?"

"I don't need to be interrogated by you or anyone, unless it's Hellsing..."

He didn't seem to like my answer.

"Yes... you are very right."

"Stop testing me and implying..."

"Fine..." He said and stood up to leave. "I'll see you, then."

"Yeah..."

He opened the door and walked out.

Damn… was I that obvious?


"What did she say then?" Asked Seras a bit worried.

"Uh... nothing just scolding me for disobeying orders... at least I'm not fired." I said as we walked down the hallway. "So can you come this time?" I asked and turned to her.

"Why not! Let's go somewhere!"

"Cool! Tell Pip too... I'll tell someone else though; Clay and I are not in speaking terms." I turned the key and opened the door to my room.

"I'll +silence+ ask... wow." She whispered that last thing.

"Wha--."

I looked in the direction Seras was looking to see what had made her react like this.

God. Damn.

"Oh... good evening. Police girl... Officer."

Silence and lots of staring from the police girl and me.

If it wasn't for the voice I would have never thought it was the vampire, but a gift from the goddess Aphrodite after hearing my prayers every night.

"Hi..." I said absently. Seras was still silent and not moving.

There was the vampire, standing in a pair of black pants, a dark red wool turtleneck, very nice shoes, his hair as always, a bit short on the back but somewhat longer on the front, falling over his eyes. No red coat, just a black one resting on my bed. He was as always eying my shelves and my stuff, but not touching anything, his hands inside his pockets.

The beast was absolutely yummy-licious.

"Police girl... do you mind if I speak with the Officer in private?"

Silence and staring.

"Uh!--oh! no--no Master go ahead--I will uh... see you later."

"Bye..." I said still eying him. When I was sure I couldn't listen to Sera's steps I closed the door. "... so... what's with the eye candy?"

He walked slowly towards me; a panther about to catch it's prey. The eye contact was making me a bit uncomfortable, specially the way he was half smiling as he came closer. He stopped inches away from my face, and then slowly his nose got buried on my neck.

"Hmmm... pheromones..."

"One can't have privacy around you, vampire."

"I see you like it..."

"It?--what you did with yourself? Oh yeah..."

"Hmmm."

"Is there a reason?"

He backed away from my neck and stood straight in front of me his head cocked to one side.

"I am taking you out, of course..."

Silence. Processing...

"You're what, pardon me?"

"I. Am. Taking. You. Out."

"Out of the Manor?"

"Of course, milady..."

Silence.

"... you're asking me out on a date?"

"Yes."

"You."

"Da."

"W--where?"

"Get ready... let me worry about it--."

"But I need to know so I can dress appropriately..."

He looked at himself then back at me.

"Yeah, I guess you have a point..."

I studied him, gladly I will add, trying to think of what to wear that would match him.

"Fine... but I need an hour for this..."

"All I have is time, milady."

"Aww..." I said sarcastically. "I'll call you when I'm done--."

"I can wait here--."

"No, I need privacy... I'll let you know when I'm done..."

"Very well... see you in a little while..." He chimed and disappeared.

I think this will be my hottest date ever...


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