Very mucho danke for those reviews...yes, the story is ending and I don't see where I can expand it more (it was originally 13 chappys). There will be an Afterword that is not even planned yet, so I don't think it will come out as soon as the other chappys.

2 more chappys to go...+sniffle+


I saw him feed last night.

In last night's mission, we ambushed a warehouse in the outsides of London where Freaks were 'manufactured'; people went there by appointment to get turned. How lovely. So we not only had some Freaks to silence, but humans too. Yes, believe it or not. Hellsing's orders were to search and destroy, period, and that humans who sided with Freaks would be treated the same. I gulped as I thought of Alucard.

This time we went in with him. It was... there are no words to describe how it is to be in battle with such a powerful being. The place was packed with Freaks and humans. It was hard to tell them apart. But we kicked their asses the same. And Alucard, well... let's say he doesn't need to feed in quite a while. It was crazy to see him kill people with his bare hands and bite them shamelessly; snapping their necks as they put resistance, or other times just keeping them alive until the end. The screams of horror and panic were sending chills down my spine. He knew I was watching, and sometimes looked at me as he killed them. It was a reminder. He is a monster, no matter how I try to see him. And destruction is his high; it's who he is.

Scared? It was something between awe and fear what I felt. It had a weird effect on me. It reminded me of that night we slept together for the first time. How delicate his touch had been on me. It contradicted everything I was seeing. Yes, we were everything but normal in that department, but he was never violent.

Only that time he threw me to a wall and he learned his lesson.

I let him kill them. I went after the Freaks and let him have the humans; I gave some orders around to make the others do the same. He was ecstatic. As I saw him leave, his face was a bit flushed. He had a big banquet, he he.

'he he'

God... I have to start hanging out more with humans...

Ok, enough spacing out!

"Pip focusssss!" I said for the... ten thousandth time I think.

"I'm trying! I still don't get zees..."

"It's called push-hands... try and push me!"

"Zat I've been trying--" I extended my hand and brought him up "... ok let's do zees..."

"You can also pull; as long as you bring me off my balance it's valid..."

"Everyzeeng goes?"

"Yep..."

"Okeeeee."

"Ok mercenary, bring it on!"

Silence.

And, I brought him down again.

"I am starting to like ze floor, luv..."

"It's ok it happens at first..." Again I helped him up. "... I will teach you some stuff when we're done--little tricks..."

"Teach me now..."

"No, I wanna win a bit more." I grinned.

"Riiight."

Silence and trying to push him and vice versa.

"So... how's your stalker doing?" He asked biting his cigarette.

"We are not... seeing each other anymore..." I said a bit short of breath.

"Good for you... was it because of zat or--."

"Everything that has a beginning has an end, my friend."

I brought him down.

"Merde... this one hurt--."

"You ok?"

"Oui... women here are destined to kick my arse, I see..." Again he got in position. "I can get you a date with--."

"Nooo, thanks... have my hands full now."

"Ooohhhh... is it what I zink?..."

"You think? Well, well... good for you." I patted his shoulder.

"Talk it out... I might win for a change..."

"Shit." I gave little steps backwards, loosing my balance.

"Is it ze other guy?... you chose ze other guy over Brendon?"

"What do you mean..."

"Ze other guy... ze one you never told me about zat time in your room..."

He offered his cigarette and after taking a deep puff I gave it back to him.

"Nah..."

"Oh, whatever happened to zat problem you were having, oui?"

"What problem?" He's getting the hang of it, or I'm getting distracted.

"Ze 'no shagging' thing."

"Nah, that was solved thank god--gotcha!"

"Shit-fuck..."

I brought him up again. I took the cigarette from his lips and put it in mine.

"I was going to offer my services, girl."

"Do you want to wear a patch on one of your balls too?"

He put his hands in the air in defeat.

"Get rooted, man... to the floor."

"Rooted? I feel rooted to ze floor weez all this falling and what not..."

"Never mind, I'll teach you later..."

"Ok."

Again we got in position.

"I should have paid attention to you, merc."

"What about?"

"When you said Clay was not what he seemed."

"Told you, girl... "

"He almost got his fucking pinky cut off... he tried to get violent with me."

"What ze--! He hit you or somezeeng!"

"Noooo don't—don't... I already took care of it."

"He he!... someone will get a whole lotta shit to do from me, starting tomorrow..."

I chuckled.

"He doesn't like you very much… or the Geese..."

"He makes a lot of shitty comments about us..." He lost his balance but didn't hit the floor this time. "... always rubbing his Hellsing pride on everyone's face... he can wrap it in sandpaper and stick it up his arse for all I care... " He lit another cigarette.

"Yeah..."

"I'll believe in anyzeeng you want as long as there's good money zere..."

"I hear you brother..."

"+chuckles+ Arsehole... you would be the last girl I wanna mess with..." He said a bit out of breath too.

"Mh?"

"What, don't you know?... Mr. Alucard is what's keeping a lot of blokes here from grabbing your arse in the middle of training..."

I clicked my tongue. Damn, don't tell me the thing is going around...

"... or the police girl's..."

"Well, I hope they try it so I can cut some pinkies off for real this time..."

"… To everyone here, you are his other daughter or whatever you call it..."

Phew.

No, I'm not getting weird thoughts here; I'm not getting X-rated mental flashes to make that comment inappropriate. Actually, a smile is stretching across my face. Yes, this reaction also shocked me.

"And he knows it... cause he's always around... about a year ago we barely saw him outside."

I didn't really see anything different in his behavior. Well, Pip has been here forever, he must know.

"He he, and here we thought once the bloodsucker was gay... he's fucking smart, the bloke... been pissing all around the place marking territory... his 'Hellsing crackin' birds'..."

I lost my balance backwards and began to laugh.

"Hey, the boss is not bad at all. I bet you give the vixen a few drinks and a little 'thwap' and that'll kill that bug she has up her arse..." Yes, he spanked the air at the word 'thwap'. I had to hold my stomach as I laughed.

"You are such a man..."

"And you haven't seen nothing, luv."

"Uh... no thanks, I'm cool..."

Silence.

"He doesn't know I saw your knockers that time, does he?"

I brought him down really hard.

"Ffff—damn!"

"He should, so can you stop bringing it up!"

He laughed. God, at times I could swear they hang out together.

"So do I know him?"

"Who?" I asked confused.

"Ze other bloke..."

"What the—you're asking a lot of question today, huh?"

"You start loosing when I ask you, he he."

"Shut up..."

"And get all pissy when talking about Brendon..." Silence. "... forget about him... it's not worze it..."

If he only knew who I'm thinking about really.

"If I wasn't weez ze police girl, I would make you forget him +snap+ like zat... one night, all it takes..."

(raspberry)

"I have seen the world, luv... I know women—all tastes, colors and shapes." I took the cig away from his lips.

"Riiiight..."

"Don't believe me zen..."

"Keep it up and I'll put this out on your good eye..." I showed him his cigarette on my hand.

"I'd like to see you try."

"Start running..."

Yeah, this is also part of our training. Stamina.


(knock knock)

I saw the door of the police girl's room slowly open after I knocked.

"Seras…" The word almost didn't come out of my lips.

"Oh my god—are you crying?" Her eyes were huge.

I just had to hear the word 'crying' to begin sobbing again. As I walked toward her, her arms opened to comfort me in a bear hug.

"What is it!" I continued sobbing and sobbing against her shoulder. "Please tell me!"

"I … hate… your… Master—I… hate… him."

"What did he do!"

I guess she was surprised to see me cry after everything I have told her he has done before. She sounded a bit scared. I felt her sniff me.

"… you smell like beer…"

She pulled me to her coffin bed and made me sit there. I wouldn't stop crying.

"I can't believe he did this to me, Seras..."

"Oh no... did he hurt you this time!" She studied my limbs, looking for any sign of physical violence.

"No...!"

"Then tell me—oh! That girl! Did he--."

"No..."

Silence.

"OK! What is it!"

"--that bastard--."

"TELL ME!"

I sniffled.

"Seras…" I could barely talk. "I'm in love with your Master…"

Silence from her and my uncontrollable sobbing.

"That's it! You scared me!"

"What do you mean? This is scary Seras!"

She began to chuckle.

"I hate him! It's his fault!—stop laughing!"

"You are drunk, aren't you…"

"… no…"

"How many?"

"... 8..."

"Oh no… you can't be hung-over tomorrow."

"God, I can't believe this!... when the hell did this happen! Stupid animated corpse I hate him!" I hissed and sniffled.

"I think it's great!" She said kneeling in front of me.

"No! It's not great! He—he doesn't care about me, no!"

"What do you mean…?"

"He has fun with me Seras! HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME!"

"He has been waking up in your room, IN A BED, FOR MORE THAN 9 MONTHS!"

"SO?"

"WHY ARE WE YELLING?" She yelled.

"I dunno…" I mumbled.

Silence.

"Go to sleep, please…"

"I can't-- you know what I was thinking when I was about to get fired? HIM! How corny! I'm not corny Seras! I am a fucking bitch!... I think…"

"You're not a bitch…"

"I've been told…" I sniffled. "… this is so stupid…"

"It's not stupid, stop saying that—."

"I hate him… I need more beer…" I stood up and walked to the door.

"No! Go to sleep!"

I opened the door and reached for the bottle I had left outside near the door.

Oop, almost fell.

She sighed loudly.

"…Crap, STOP MOVING!" I looked at everything around me.

"Please go to sleep… you still have to train your people—."

"Screw 'em… though if they bring beer to training, I'll do the Macarena for crying out loud..."

She pulled me with incredible strength and put me over her shoulder in one smooth movement. I didn't realize that I was upside down right away because everything was moving anyways.

"Hey! I'm flying! HAHAHAHA!"

"Sh! Please be quiet, at least until we are out of here…" She whispered.

I think we are moving too.

"Put me down, police giiiiirl!" I sing-songed and giggled some more.

"Shhhh!"

"Wheeeeeeeeee!"

"+sigh+… I think you'll be quieter if I put you down…"

She did and again everything turned around. I landed on my feet but she had to hold me by my shoulders for me not to fall on my butt.

"Man, everything is moving, STOP IT!"

"I need you to be quiet now…" She said softly, covering my mouth.

A deep chuckle rumbled around us. I turned and saw Alucard standing a few feet away from us. She mumbled something under her breath.

"Master—."

"Hiiiii…" I said, my body swaying, eyelids heavy and a big smile on my face.

"Hello…" He smirked. Since when he's a hello person?

"Master, I am taking her to her room."

I walked toward him, zig-zagging and giggling, biting my nails nervously.

"Uh—where are you—." She lost the grip on my arm as I walked away from her.

"Sh! Seras it's ok, I'm fine."

Yes, fine, right.

I stood on my toes and wrapped my arms around his head. He knew what I wanted to do, but I was too drunk to do it myself so he helped by wrapping my legs around his waist.

"Uh..." She sounded uncomfortable. "… Master she has to go to sleep—."

"Alucarrrrd?"

"Yeees?"

"I love you."

"Oh no—." She whispered.

"Wait Seras! Shhhhushhh for a minute..." I put my finger on my lips, turning to her.

"Yes, shush police girl." He was grinning like a madman. "... you were saying?"

"No, Master please she's—."

"I'm fiiiiiinneeee…" My face turned into a frown. "… and I hate you for that!"

"For what, milady…"

"It's your fault I'm in love with you!"

"Is it?"

"Please Master, let her go…"

"Seras!" I said loudly and she jumped back. She was standing beside both of us, pulling at my shirt.

"Alucard…"

"I'm still here…" He said with a serious face. Apparently.

"You bastard… you made me—Seras stop pulling me…"

"Please lets take you to your room…" She almost whined.

"Alucard…

"Hm?" His lips were in a tight smile now, trying not to explode in laughter.

I looked at him for a few seconds, blinking very slowly.

"I want to have your vampire babies…"

"Ok, I'm taking you to your room now—." Seras grunted.

"Police girl, you are no fun…" He said with an almost straight face.

"… Master, don't encourage her!"

"Seras, is it ok with you if I have his babies?" I rested my head back and looked at an upside down Draculina.

"Oh please stop saying those things… let's go to your room—please…"

"You still can't have babies right?" I asked him, disappointment in my slurred words.

"… Last time I checked…" He sounded thoughtful, but playful.

"Oh… sucks..."

"I very well remember a dagger buzzing near my head one time you thought I could make those vampire babies…"

"Oh, Master…"

"Not your heeeeeaaaaddddd…. the waaaaall…" I giggled.

"No... I am almost positive; your target was my head..." I felt him bringing me higher. I was slipping down his body; my legs were not holding me up very much. His hands intertwined under my butt to keep me on him.

"Lets go! NOW!" I felt her pulling my arm.

"Oh… too bad then…" I said with a click of my tongue.

"It is the thought that counts, milady."

"Yeah... +silence+ They would've had the coolest hair..."

Seras sighed loudly.

"And-and... does it hurt you to get married?" I am so drunk.

His body shook with silent chuckles.

"WHAT!" I jumped at her yell.

"SHH!" I said in her direction and then went back to him. "... we're having a conversation here, Seras—yeah, like... the church and the blessings and the ring—does that hurt you?"

"I can't believe you are saying all this..." She sounded pissed. "Master!..."

"Police girl!" He mocked her.

"Stop answering her! She's been drinking!"

"Just a little Seras, don't be such a baby--+hiccup+..." I giggled. He arched his eyebrows.

"8 beers is not a little!"

"I think she's even more fun when she's drunk." He turned to me. "... don't you agree?"

"Yeah!" I giggled and climbed higher on him, my nose touching his. I tilted my head a bit, and bit his lower lip playfully.

"Ahh!" I heard the police girl yelp.

I opened my eyes as I kissed him aggressively and caught the moment Alucard put his hand on the police girl's head and pulled her behind him. He's hiding her? Or not letting her see us kissing? More giggles from me.

"Master! What the—let me--."

"Hmmmm." I moaned into his mouth.

"Uh, hullo? I am here! Girl, lets go, you need some sleep... and a cold shower..."

"I really liked what you did with your gun that time..." I chuckled wickedly.

"AH! I CAN'T HEAR ANYTHING CAN'T HEAR ANYTHING! Blah, blah, blaaaahh—let's GO!" Yeah she was yelling.

I felt a pull so strong I flew off Alucard's body.

"Damn! C'mon girl! It's not like you aren't having fun too with your merc--."

"LETS GO, BYE MASTER!"

Again everything turned around... I guess I was on her shoulder again.

"Wheeee! I'm flyi—bye Alucard!" I blew a kiss in his direction.

--

I felt the police girl tuck me in. I guess I had passed out on the trip here. Wow, I didn't know I could sleep upside down.

"Now, get some rest, ok?"

"Mh-hm..." I nodded like a little girl.

I saw her walk away, about to get the door.

Silence.

"I can't compete with her..." My voice was breathy and surprisingly sad.

I sniffled. I felt much calmer now.

She stopped and turned around.

"What do you mean?"

Silence. I chuckled sarcastically.

"It is her he loves... don't you see it?"

Silence.

"I can't believe people here are so blind..." A little sad smile came to my face.

She continued to look at me, curious about why I was saying those things.

"Everyone calls your Master a beast around here... and he is... beasts also need to be petted once in a while and I conveniently was around the place--."

"Don't say that."

"It is so obvious Seras... and it wouldn't be a problem... but I'm starting to care..."

Silence.

"You see how she is... they both feel something for each other, I heard it in a conversation they had... but she's more unapproachable than him... you think that 'Ice Queen' nickname came out of thin air?"

"He cares for you too... " She was kneeling beside my bed.

"He said he only acts in his self-interest..."

"And what if his interest is simply you..."

Silence. She spoke softly, closer to me.

"He doesn't care about soldiers... yes it sounds mean, but--I saw him take you away from that craziness when you were caught in the illusion, remember? He wasn't even supposed to be there in the first place. I think he got in trouble for that..."

Silence.

"And he stayed with you and—remember what he said! What you told me!... he doesn't do things like this I am telling you...+silence+ he reacted to your death—not a real one but he did! How can you think he doesn't care?"

Silence.

"Stop jumping from one extreme of denial to the other... remember all those little things... those are the ones that really count... maybe he doesn't do it all the time, but I doubt very much you are just a good time..."

Silence. Sniffle. Yeah, she does have her insightful moments.

I started to chuckle.

"God, I can't believe I told him I wanted his babies..." My hand went to my face.

"His vampire babies..."

"Oh. God. No."

She chuckled. I had to laugh too. Her chuckle escalated to a laugh with mine. What was the use of getting mad or embarrassed?

"Oh, no... I proposed to him?" More laughs from her. "... shit... where the HELL did all that come from?"

"It's the beer's fault."

"Damn Germans..."

She chuckled. Again my face went serious.

"Should I back off now?"

Silence.

"Before it is too late?" Her tone was a bit sarcastic.

Silence. Too late... ha.

"I better go to bed."

"Ok." She came to me and gave me a hug. "...look for me if you want to talk."

"Thanks..." I said with a smile as our bodies separated.

I know I won't get any sleep... but I'll pretend.

I can almost hear his answer to that question that has been driving me crazy for all this time. And is not the one I want to hear.


Thanx again+chom chomp+ mighty cookies :D