A warm breeze caressing my face draws me to consciousness. Slowly I open my eyes to the light of day. I'm alive? I push the covers aside and see the bandage wrapped around my lightsaber wound. I also notice that I'm not in the healer's ward. Curious.
Stretching out with the Force, I sense my Master, Master Siri, and Padme close by. Where are we? I look out the window to my left where sunlight is streaming in and see a dark green field and in the far distance, mountains.
I carefully sit up and feel a dull, but bearable ache where my wound is. How long have I been asleep? I close my eyes and think back to what I last remembered and I slowly realize how foolish I had been. Not only had my drawing on the darkside hurt my Master, my near death must have hurt worse. My Master loves me like a son, a brother, he would never turn away from me. I don't deserve forgiveness. And Padme, my angel, my love. How could I have been near death and not think that my death, my near death would not cause you pain?
Carefully getting out of bed, I spy some clothes lying on a chair by my bed and put them on. Standing up causes my wound to feel irritated, but I ignore it and head for the door. I enter a small living area and see my Master and Master Siri dozing together on a couch. I hear sounds of pots clanging and know that Padme is at work in the kitchen.
I brush the Force against my Master's mental shields and he awakens. I find myself staring into his eyes and minutes later I am enveloped in my Master's embrace. Tears begin to spill from my eyes as I realize that my Master has forgiven me. What have I ever done to deserve a Master like him? I was just a slave boy from Tatooine until the day Qui-Gon came and freed me.
I tell him I'm sorry that I failed him, but he tells me that I have not. I don't understand, how can I not have failed him? My Master asks me if I learned anything and I tell him. I tell him that the darkside rings more harm then good and in the end, it does not ease pain or anger. I let my doubts cloud my judgment and didn't trust in the Force. I let myself be engulfed by the darkness because of my fear and not having the will to fight the darkness.
Looking into my eyes, my Master nods. He tells me that I have not failed, that I had learned a lesson, one where I had almost lost my life. I will never forget this lesson, I promise myself that.
My Master and I went outside where there was a picnic table set up for lunch. We sat down and we talked. My Master told me about what happened after the battle and why we are here instead of instead of in the Temple.
It turns out that this planet is Siri's home planet and this little retreat used to belong to her parents. I wonder if there is another reason we are here? My Master seems so relaxed here, indeed it is nice to be away from the Temple for awhile.
I told my Master about my mother's death and the events following that. He was very understanding. I also told him that I realize now that I am still far away from taking the trials. He just smiled and said nothing. My Master loves secrets.
Padme was happy to see me up and about. Master Siri on the other hand was glaring at me during the meal. I can't say that I blame her, I was a total idiot that day.
After the meal My Master and I went into the living room to talk while Padme and Master Siri went to take care of dishes. I decided then and there to tell my Master how I felt about Padme and that I wanted to marry her even though it was forbidden. I don't wish to hurt my Master any further by doing something behind his back.
Of all the ways my Master might respond, laughing was not on my list. I thought for sure he would quote the code to me about attachments. Could this have something to do with the fact that we are far away from the Jedi Temple and temporarily on vacation? Sure I know my Master loves Master Siri and that he actually thinks that attachments are not always bad, but I was sure the word marriage would be crossing the invisible line that I was sure that my Master had.
My Master told me that I'm not the only Jedi to think of going against the code to get married. In fact, my Master told me that he had the same thoughts when he was younger and had voiced them to Siri.
It's amazing how my Master and I can be so alike and yet so different. Scary isn't it?
I ask my Master if he'll ever ask Master Siri to marry him again, since I get the feeling that she turned him down the first time. I also tell him we can make it a double wedding.
My Master told me that I was getting ahead of myself, but after he said that, he headed for the kitchen. Something tells me that Master Siri has been on my Master's mind lately.
After staying here for a month after I woke up, we headed back home, but not without making a small detour on the way. We had a double ceremony on Naboo, it was wonderful and we stayed at the lakeside retreat for a week.
Now begins a new and exciting chapter in our lives. Well, the war on the horizon is not exciting, but it will be interesting on how things will work out.
My Master is a lot happier then I've seen him in ages. Not that he wasn't happy before, but there is a difference. I also feel happier to. The bond between my Master and me have grown stronger and now that we share secrets, I feel there is even more trust also.
I wonder if the Council suspects? My Master told me that Yoda knew about how he felt for Siri, but he believes that since that incident years ago when Siri and he had hidden their love for each other, that Yoda would think nothing of it.
It feels great to be alive.
