My Master. I miss having you around. I miss the joking and the laughs we had together.
You should see your son, he has grown so much. He is a lot like you in some ways. He hates flying, he likes the kind of tea you like, he likes meditating sitting still, he has your sense of humor, however he tends to like aggressive negotiations. Definitely has some of his mother in him.
Having a padawan is a lot of work. I don't know how many times I had to tell Jamie to be patient. He always seems to be getting in some sort of trouble. For example: the last mission we were on, Jamie got caught in the middle of a swoop gang war. Your child attracts danger.
If you were here Master then maybe you could straighten him out. Now that I think about it, you would be laughing right about now. I guess I deserve it huh?
I remember when I confronted Sidious only to find out that you had been captured by your arch nemesis. Sidious tried to use that to get me to join him, but I resisted. It was tempting, I admit, but to turn my back on your teachings, that was something I could not do.
I destroyed Sidious and continued my search for you. On my way, I found a child that Sidious had been teaching. Her name is Mara Jade. My now twelve year old son seems to have taken an interest in her.
You are missing so much Master. Why did you have to leave? I think Luke would have been a good apprentice for you. Skywalkers keep you young.
My search led me to Telos and as soon as I arrived, Padme went into labor. I was a mess. I wanted to find you, but I also wanted to be with my wife. Your right, a Skywalker is not one for patience. He, actually, they, came a whole week early!
Oh well, I was thrilled when Bant told me that there was not just one but two babies, a boy and a girl, Luke and Leia. Once I had calmed down enough I continued my search.
I found you at nightfall and you were unconscious, I could not rouse you. I could feel my anger try to gain control as I saw the shape you were in. Your condition reminded me of my mother's.
My Master, I had found you, but in a way I had already lost you.
With my attention focused on you, I was caught unaware by the person called Xanatos.
Xanatos was very boastful and arrogant. He told me everything. He told me about him being Qui-Gon's second apprentice, how he tried to get you to join him when you were not yet a padawan, how he met Sidious and he cloned himself and Bruck.
When he finally got to the Temple Massacre, he raged at me for killing his pupil, Bruck Chun.
One he cooled down, he told me how he captured Master Siri and used her as bait after you had defeated General Grievous. Xanatos told me all the gruesome details, the torture of you and Master Siri.
Something snapped inside and I attacked him in rage. I felt like a dragon had awaken inside me and I dimly realize that Xanatos had done what Sidious could not. Xanatos had caused me to take a step toward the darkside.
I'm not perfect, I have my flaws, my weak spots. Xanatos did not really know me, but he had found a weak spot. It hurt to think of what he had put you, Master Siri, and even what he had put Qui-Gon through.
A picture comes to mind, the faces of my two young children, so innocent, yet so vulnerable. As I battle, I come to realize that to raise my children, I must set an example, and fighting in anger is not a good one.
It is difficult, but I manage to push aside my anger and let the light fill me instead of the darkness. Minutes later I defeat him.
I go back to you and take off the Force collar and then do what I can to bandage your wounds.
After I make sure that you are not in any immediate danger, I search the building for Master Siri. I find her in a small closet, dead.
Oh Master, you don't deserve all this heartache. Why must the Force put you through this?
We go to the nearest medical center where Yoda meets up with me. We perform a small service for Siri and then wait for you to recover.
My Master, do you know that Master Yoda calls you child of light? Master Yoda tried to help me understand why it seems that the Force causes you to go through so much pain. Master Yoda said that the stronger the light is within a person, the more the dark tries to drive it away.
I disagree. You have gone through more pain then I have and I am the Chosen One. Is it because you taught me in a unique way that the pain is less? Is it because you choose to take the pain upon yourself? No, this seems unfair.
My Master, please come back. Your son needs you. I need you. I want to help you like you helped me. Please Master, come back.
I know you are out there somewhere. I hope you are well. I also hope you reconsider and come back.
You said you would only be gone for a year. It is more then a year now Master. Please, I promise I won't whine, your son does that enough.
Please Master, you're like a father to me, a brother. We are still a team!
I have saved you a seat on the Council. It is waiting for you to fill it. There is a house on Naboo near the lake retreat for you and your son.
My Master, my teacher and my friend. You don't have to be alone. We all care about you. Me, Padme, Bant, Yoda, and even Jamie, your son. We want you to come home to us.
Come home soon, my Master.
My Master.
THE END...or is it?
There is a possibility of a sequel so keep your eyes open. :) It may take a while because of College so stay tuned. :D
