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Chapter 12- I Just Want To Be Held

Akito looked over at Kyo, then back at Tohru. She hadn't been looking at Akito anymore. But now Kyo, who seemed ready to pounce and kill. He had forgotten about Yuki even kicking him. Not that he would have cared if he were to remember now. Every one stayed silent. No one new what to say. Kyo, who was still staring at Akito said down away from them, but not to far. He wasn't planning on taking his eyes off of Akito any time soon.

Tohru had sat near Kyo, but not directly next to him. She to was not staring back at Akito. Though, not for the same reason as Kyo. But another, actually two other reasons in that matter. One, being about Kyo being locked up. And the other a question she had been holding in to long.

" so…" Shigure said to try to break the awkward…yes very awkward silence that had fallen upon his house. No one said a thing, and no ones eyes moved from what ever they had been staring at. Finally, Yuki stood to his feet and went to go leave. Akito had turned her head to look over at Yuki. But right now, Yuki wasn't her concern. It was more of the line of Kyo and Tohru. She new that they both had something going on. And she wanted to end it. Also end Tohru's memory as well. But how to do both these things was something she didn't know how to do.

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" he…I mean she has much nerve coming here! I cant believe she is here, and Shigure is just letting her in the house. It doesn't make sense. I thought Shigure had hated Akito now. Its his house so doesn't he have a right to say that Akito cant come in, even if she is the god. Who gives a damn about that!" Yuki said so aggressively. But no one had been around to hear him.

" I need some fresh air Shigure…" Akito said, now looking at Shigure.

" Ah…of course, come with me. Hatori, your welcome to come if you want…" Shigure said as him and Akito left. Hatori stood up and followed them out of the house; leaving Kyo and Tohru.

" I cant believe this!" Kyo yelled now standing to his feet. " Why the hell did he come hear!"

" maybe because Akito wants to take you…and lock you up earlier…" Tohru suggested.

" No, its something else…something you don't know. But something that shouldn't happen!" Kyo yelled becoming even more angry then he already was.

" What so do you mean something I don't know?" Tohru asked as she walked up to Kyo and looked deeply in his eyes.

" Something you don't know, and don't…." Kyo stopped to think about what he was going to say. " No, you do need to know. But…the only problem is I don't know how to tell you."

Tohru still looked into Kyo's eyes. She was so confused that words couldn't even describe it. What was he talking about? The only other reason she could think of Akito being here was for Kyo. Actually that was the only reason why she had thought Akito was hear. But there was another reason, and she intended on finding out why. She stood closer to Kyo and placed a hand on his cheek. He hadn't taken any time to move his head more comfortably into her hand.

"Kyo, tell me what you know. I want to know why Akito is hear. I need to know the reason…" she said so softly and low that Kyo could barely hear her. But he just made out the words. He closed his eyes as he felt pain shoot through his heart. He didn't want to think about her memory being erased. Nor did he want to tell her about it.

He didn't want her to know. He wanted her to go on with her happy little life she had. So he thought she had. He wanted to be able to protect her when Akito did come, just like this. He wanted to be able to keep her from getting her memory erased. He had thought the only way for that to happen was to keep it hidden from her. But now he had started to think different. Now he felt as if he should tell her. For if he didn't, he wouldn't be able to protect her they way he wanted to. Make sure she is able too get on with her life. Even if it meant for him not to be able to beat Yuki, and get locked away.

" Tohru…" he said as he moved back from her. " I cant…I just… not right now anyways. Maybe a different day I can tell you…" If there is another day…but don't worry I wont let Akito do this…he wont get away with it! he thought to himself.

" But Kyo…"

" No, I'm sorry. I cant…I just cant tell you. Not yet, I don't feel like I can. But I promise," he said as he grabbed her hand. " I promise you'll be okay, even if it means to take my own life…" he said. Tohru looked up into his eyes again. She didn't know what to say. Actually she didn't want to say anything. She knew what Kyo had told her was true. But she also knew she would be able to see him die. But that wouldn't happen…would it? It couldn't. Not to Kyo. What was he hiding from her that made her feel so…so afraid.

Like it was something bad, and about her at that. What ever it was, she couldn't take much thought to it. Kyo had said he would protect her, and she trusted him with her life. No matter what it was.

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" Are you still planing on taking Tohru's memory?" Shigure asked, even though he was pretty sure he knew what the answer was. Being that Akito had brought Hatori along with him.

" Well why else would I be hear? And I did bring Hatori with me. So wouldn't that just make sense of why I came here…" Akito said so smoothly, but it still sounded so harsh to Shigure.

" I don't get you Akito. She is innocent. She hasn't done anything to anyone…just like I said before…she has only helped us!" Shigure said, letting his voice rise just a little bit, but enough to make it clear to Akito that he didn't approve to her doings.

Akito only grinned. She new all Tohru had ever done was helped, and that was the problem. She didn't like it. She wanted to be the one to help them, even thought she knew she was the one making everything worse for them. But wasn't a god supposed to make things better for the ones he/she would looked after. That's what every one was always taught. And at first Akito didn't think to do that. But now that Tohru had stepped in, she couldn't help but want to help all the cursed Sohma's. It was jealousy that made her want to erase Tohru's memory and nothing more.

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Tohru and Kyo had gone up to her room. They were both sitting on her bed in silence. Tohru had her head gently resting on Kyo. Kyo had so badly wanted too wrap one arm around her waist, but he knew he would only poof into a cat. He sighed as he thought about just being able to hold Tohru, but knowing that he couldn't.

" Tohru, can you hug me…I want to be able to be held by your arms…please…" Kyo asked, making Tohru take her head off his shoulder. She smiled and nodded.

Her arms wrapped around Kyo's neck as he wrapped his arms around her waist. He pulled her closer to him before he had transformed into his cat form. White mist had lingered about her room for a few seconds before it had slowly disappeared. There sat Tohru with Kyo in her arms. She was straddling him as she hummed a soft tune, and was petting him so gently that he could barely keep his eyes opened.

"Thank you Tohru…" Kyo said as he slowly slipped into a deep sleep. A smile crossed over Tohru's face as she watched him sleep so peacefully. Then, tears began to form in her eyes. She didn't know what to do when he was to leave. She didn't know if she could stop it from happening. All she new was that she wouldn't be able to live with out him. He was the reason why she was still so happy. And if were to leave, she wouldn't be happy anymore. And she would feel alone. She didn't want this to happen.

She pulled him closer to her body as more tears flowed down her cheeks. " You cant leave Kyo-kun, you just cant. I wont let it happen. Its not going to happen. I'll try anything, okay?" she asked, even though she new she would get no answer from him. She had sat there for hours with Kyo sleeping in her arms…


OK people sorry for the wait on this chapter, on Saturday i slept over a friends house, Sunday i just want in the mood to type but i had finished this chapter last night, and today was my first day of school. 8th grade baby! last year of middle school! So happy...ok this chapter was short...i no...but i liked the ending alot...anyways special thanks to...

i luv kyo!-its greath that u still think my story is the best in the flippin planet...i appreciat that. Omg i would love to be able to meet you in person!Also glad to hear about you computer...but uh...oh...skittles and coffee together! EEEK! ur going to be really hyper! but thats okay, i dont mind you being hyper at all! Well, thanks for also reviewing my story...oh and tell Kyo i said HI! hehe...well i kno u will keep reading so just enjoy it i guess...

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