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OK so here is the next chapter. I did get it in the next day. Only it took me longer then i would have thought. But it is sorta long..not very..but sorta. And it is Kinda boring. Akito just kept repeating herself..but yea please enjoy!
Chapter 16- Wanting To Forget…
Tohru had awoken the next morning far to late to go to school. But she had honestly didn't care at all. After what happened yesterday, school was one of the last things on her mind. She still wasn't over what happened yesterday. And even though it had all happened in the morning, not one thing that was said had left her mind. She had remembered it all. Like she had written it down on a piece of paper and reread each word.
After what had happened yesterday Tohru hadn't left her room for anything. Not food. Not water. Not to go to the bathroom. Nothing. Even when she heard Yuki, Shigure, and Hatori come back from where ever they had gone. She didn't care. Nothing mattered to her right now. The only thing she could think about was her mother. It was as if she was able to see Kyo in his true cat form run in front of the car, causing Kyoko (Tohru's mom for those who didn't know) to swerve to the side. She new she couldn't stay mad at Kyo. In fact, she wasn't mad at all. She wasn't even upset. She was confused. It didn't make sense to her.
How did Kyoko know Kyo? And if she knew him, did that mean that she knew about the secret? Had she actually known that Kyo had transformed into the cat of the zodiac? And if so, was the reason why her mother always told her the story about the zodiac? And how the cat was always left out.
Then came the thought of what Kyo had also told her. That he was to look after her. Make sure nothing was to happen to her. So, was the reason why Kyo was so nice to Tohru. She shook her head at this thought. No, she knew that Kyo had really loved her. And she did love him back. Didn't she? Tohru looked around her room. It was so quiet. She hadn't heard anyone talking yesterday, or so far today. She hadn't heard Kyo leave the roof at all. So he was probably still up there right now. He had to be hurt badly to. Not physically, but defiantly mentally.
Tohru had so badly wanted to go up to the roof and talk with him. But she didn't want to leave her room. She felt like it was the only comfort she had. Like her room was keeping her out of the pain she felt. Though she new it wasn't it had felt like that. She stood to her feet and walked over to her door. She grabbed a hold of the knob, and opened the door. She new she had to go and talk to Kyo. But she so badly just wanted to run back into the room like it was going to protect her.
Kyo's eyes open so slowly he thought they would never open. When they had fully opened though, he sat up. They burned from all the crying he had done. He must have cried the whole rest of the day yesterday. And he wasn't used to crying. The moment he saw the roof tiles, he had automatically started thinking about Tohru. Though he didn't know why, but it had just happened. He had felt horrible. He never wanted to have told her that. But he knew he would have had to one day. And the day had just come to soon for him. He let out a sigh of frustration.
He wanted to so badly jump off the roof and beat Akito into nothing. But he knew that wasn't going to happen. It was to good to even think of. If he couldn't beat Yuki, and Yuki couldn't beat Akito, then he had no right to even think about beating Akito. Then, he remembered that school was almost over. And if he didn't beat Yuki in just a little more then a month, he would be gone. He wouldn't have to be hear anymore. He wouldn't have to bear near Tohru and make her feel like she had yesterday. All her problems would go away, wouldn't they? Wasn't he the one who caused most of them?
Once again another sigh of frustration escaped his mouth. His stomach let out a small but noticeable growl. Just like Tohru, Kyo hadn't left the room for anything. Not food, water, anything! He felt like the roof would keep his from causing problems. But that of course just wouldn't happen.
Tohru's feet touched the floor at the bottom of the steps. It felt as if it too ages to get down the stairs. She stood there, looking around as if something was about to charge towards her and knock her off her feet. She heard a soft noise fill the house, and when she looked over she saw Yuki entering the house. Yuki, Shigure, and Hatori had no idea what had gone on yesterday. And neither her or Kyo planned on telling them this. They didn't need to know. That's what Tohru had thought.
Then, Akito walked in. She was the only one who seemed to notice Tohru just standing there staring at all of them. She had said something to Hatori that Tohru couldn't hear. Then, she started to walk towards Tohru. Out of reaction, Tohru's feet started to move her backwards, away from Akito. She glared at Akito with hatred. But then fear as well. She knew Akito wasn't going to do anything. Not with every one in the house like this. It would be such a dumb act on her part.
"I just want to talk…" Akito's rasp voice went threw Tohru's ears, and came out the other one. She had taken in what Akito said, but had also let it go at the same time.
"Talk? About what?" she asked, trying to hide her fear, but could tell she wasn't doing to good of a job.
"You of course…"
Me? But why me? I didn't do anything. So why would Akito want to talk to me? She asked herself in her head. "About?" Tohru asked, sounding serious now. Which wasn't often for her.
"Your memory."
"My…my memory?"
"Yes, after what happened yesterday you cant ay you don't want to forget. I know you want all these painful things to go away. Not let them hurt you anymore. You want to forget them. You want to forget every one you have met in this family. Including the monster. You want to forget him the most out of every one, don't you?"
"NO! I do want these painful memory's to go away. But I do not want to forget every one I have met because of this curse. And I defiantly do not want to forget about Kyo! He is not a monster. Just because someone has done something really missed placed in their life, that doesn't mean that every thing bad should happen to them!" Tohru's hand shot up to her mouth, covering it completely, after she heard what she had said.
"Yes you do. You said it yourself yesterday. You said 'I don't want to know all of this stuff anymore…'" Akito had quoted Tohru on exactly what she had said. Not one word was different. This had surprised Tohru, and she didn't know what to say. Finally coming up with something, she removed her hand from her mouth. This was it, she was not afraid anymore. She had no reason to be afraid of another human in the world.
"I say a lot of things I don't mean," Tohru said lying. But this time when she said it you were not able to tell if she were lying or not. "All people always say things they don't mean. Even you Akito. You are always calling Kyo a monster. But only so he thinks that you actually over power him. But you don't. Just because you are the god doesn't mean you can over power every one. They all wont listen to you. Not for ever…"
"Silence!" Akito said, sounding like a teacher. "I always mean what I say! And no one will ever stop obeying me! They are to weak now. They cant do it. Ever since you came into there lives every one has changed. They had all become softer because of you. And if they were to argue against me…they would know they wouldn't win! Its just simple. Because of you every one is now weak and cant do things for themselves."
Tohru looked at Akito. For some reason she knew what he had said wasn't true at all. But at the same time something was telling her to believe it. In a way…it really did make sense. Kyo would fight Yuki anymore. And Tohru had now thought that was because of her. Yuki never seemed to put a care in the world anymore. He always let Tohru be the one who would care for everything now. She looked from Akito to her feet.
Did she really want to forget? Had she honestly thought about her memory being erased. She had, she had thought that it was the only way to have a happy life once again. To be able to do things with Uo and Hana-chan again. Not have to worry about certain things like she did now because she new the Sohma's. For so long she had wished things could go back to the way they once were. But after hearing Kyo tell her that he loved her, she had started to rethink that. Not for long had her thoughts once again started to change. And now she was thinking about it again. But could she really just go and let Hatori erase her memory.
By letting him do this, it would change her whole life. Who knows where she would then live. More then likely with her grandfather. But the people there weren't to friendly. And she didn't really like them that much. And then forgetting about this would be like forgetting your whole. And though she had only known the Somhas for about 3 years now. It felt as if she had known them since they were only baby's. She loved each and every one in there own way. Making it even harder to want to forget them.
"Well…?" Akito said, breaking Tohru's thoughts. "Would you want to get your memory erased? And then be able to live like you used to. Be happy again. Hang out with your friends like normal teenage girls do. Or be stuck hear for the rest of your life. Helping every one with there little problems. Making sure every one is always so happy. But deep down inside you know that you are tired of doing all this. And just want to be able to live...free…"
Akito had made it sound as if Tohru hated living with Shigure, Yuki, and Kyo. And having to help them. Okay so sure, helping them with all there problems could be frustrating some times. But every one always needs help, and this Tohru new. Akito had started to become aggravated as she waited for Tohru's answer. But she had to just be as patient as possible and wait. If she didn't, she might just screw up what ever Tohru was going to say.
Tohru fidgeted for a moment, now noticing every one in the other room staring at her with weird expressions on there faces. The only thing she could think about was, 'maybe they just cant see Akito…'. But she eventually let them slip out of her mind and turned her attention back to Akito. She could see Akito growing even more impatient as she was still thinking about her answer.
"Do you want to live like this for ever?" Akito asked, a little nasty. "Or would you rather be happy? Do you want your memory erased so you can live happy just like you used to. And not deal with all this pain anymore?"
That was it, Tohru had come to her conclusion and she was ready to tell Akito.
" I want my memory…"
So, what did you all think? I thought this chapter could have been better. And once again, i apologize for not being able to thank my reviewers..tho i have to say that one of my reviewers told me i dont have to be sorry. That you guys should be the ones thanking me for writing this story, and letting you guys read it. Well, i thought that was very nice of them and i wanted to thank them. So you know who you are when i am telling people this! and thanks alot! Well please keep reading and reviewing...thansk to all my readers!
