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Ok, this is...another pretty...not ot long...but pretty long chapter. hope you enjoy it!
Chapter 17- Saying Good-bye…
"I want to keep my memory!" She spat out, tears forming in her eyes. "I cant not keep it. I know to much stuff that I don't and do want to forget. But I do want to keep all of them. I don't need to forget any of this. None of it! I know this is were I'm supposed to be. I just know that if I left, everything would go bad. And that's because of you! You still think you over power ever one! But you don't!"
Akito grinned so evilly that Tohru had honestly thought it would kill her. She was now able to tell that Akito was pissed. And didn't like the answer, or what Tohru had just said.
"Why you…" Akito's hand lifted as smacked Tohru's cheek. She hoped that Tohru would have flinched in pain, but she didn't. She hadn't moved. Her eyes hadn't closed. Nothing. Not even her breathing changed. She was not afraid anymore, and she had just made this clear to Akito.
"You don't own me! You don't rule me! And you are defiantly not going to tell me weather my mind is going to be erased or not!" After that, Tohru hadn't waited another second to leave Akito standing there in shock. Every one in the house stared at Tohru as she stormed out of the house. Though no one had heard what she had said that whole time, they all had a good guess that it was Akito.
She looked around outside for Kyo. She knew where he was but just looked around the yard out of habit. She grabbed a hold of the ladder and started to climb up. When she saw Kyo sitting there, his head was resting in his knees. It was obvious that he hadn't heard her coming up because he hadn't looked up. He just sat there, his eyes closed in thought.
Quietly she walked over to him, and even when she sat down his head hadn't lifted. She nudged his a little, being that she wasn't quit sure what she wanted to say. She only came up here so Kyo knew that she still loved him.
Finally after another nudge Kyo's head lifted. His eyes started to open, indicting that he was asleep. But the moment they got even the smallest glace of Tohru, they shot open and stared directly into her eyes. He stared at her as if he hadn't seen her in years. But finally Toru broke that and turned her head so she was looking in front of her. She sighed a little bit, getting ready to tell him what she had to. But what if now he wanted to leave her. What if he just wanted to go and not have to deal with things like this, just like she had. What ever it might be, Tohru just had to tell him.
"Kyo…" her voice seemed disturbed by something. Like she wasn't going to be able to talk anymore. It sounded to Kyo as if he was already loosing her. And yet, here she was sitting in front of him, trying to speak to him. When she got no answer, she just continued with her speaking.
"You…You have to…" Now her voice was shacking and she had small tears trickling down her cheeks. "You have to beat Yuki Kyo! You have to do it. I cant loose you. You cant leave and go to that room! If you do, you'll be leaving me hear…and I don't want to go on in my life without you…"
Kyo stared at Tohru blankly. "Hadn't you said you wanted to forget all the painful things yesterday?" he questioned, a little confused now.
That was it. He sounded like Akito just then when he had asked her that. She had heard to much about her memory wanting to get erased. And how she had hinted that she wanted to forget yesterday. It was to much for her. It started to tick her off, and now it had gotten to the last bit of her.
"NO!" She shouted, making Kyo jump back a little. "I didn't mean what I said! I wasn't thinking yesterday. To many things that I didn't want to or needed to know were being thrown at me. It was to much for me to handle. And I said a lot of things I didn't mean. And that was one of them!"
Tohru had been pissed now. Not once had Kyo seen her like this. It made him feel like he was the cause of it. And in a way he was. But he didn't mean to make her like this. Tohru stood to her feet, and started to head for the ladder. She had thought that Kyo would stop her, but he didn't. That's when she turned around and looked Kyo dead in the eyes. She had yet another question, and this Kyo was able to tell.
"Are you going to beat Yuki…or try at least?" she questioned, now a little more calmly.
Kyo still didn't answer. He didn't want to fight with Yuki anymore. He knew it was totally pointless. He thought he would never be able to win. But then again, he hadn't fought against Yuki in a while. But that didn't make any difference to him. He only looked away from her, knowing that this was going to disappoint her. And make him regret doing it.
"You tell me you love me Kyo, and then your going to just go and let yourself get locked away. Why? Why would you do that to someone? If you loved them as much as you said you did, then wouldn't you try anything to be with them forever, or how ever long you can be with them for? I know I would…" Tohru carefully took another step back, making sure she would tip on her own feet she looked down at the floor. Then back at Kyo after knowing she had enough room to stand there.
"If there is one reason why I should say good-bye to you right now Kyo, then tell me!" she demanded, not so calm anymore.
This had definitely put Kyo into shock. Had she really just said that, or was hearing things. When he looked over at her, he knew he wasn't hearing things. He knew that was exactly what she had said. And knew that she meant it. He found himself searching for the words to find. But it seemed like he would never be able to find the right ones. But in this state, who needed right words to stop someone. As long as you told them something like not to go. Then wouldn't that person stay?
Tohru couldn't believe. Here she was, about to walk away from Kyo for good. And he wasn't saying anything. Nothing. He wasn't even trying to stop her. Nor move. Any sign showing her that he didn't want her to go would be good enough for Tohru. But now, as she stared even harder at him she noticed he didn't want to say anything. He didn't want to do anything to stop her. He wanted her to go…but why? Is it because of Akito? She wasn't afraid of him anymore. And she knew he knew that. So what was it? Yuki maybe? No, it couldn't be that. It was something else. Maybe it was the fact the Kyo had killed Kyoko (Tohru's mom for those of you who don't know) and was now thinking he didn't disserve Tohru.
And that was it. That was exactly what he had been thinking. Just because he was the cause of Kyoko's death didn't mean he had to loose Tohru. Kyoko wanted Kyo to look over Tohru if anything had happened to her, isn't that what Kyo had said? Tohru couldn't take it anymore. She could feel all her emotions going into one little spot, and every single one of them about to burst out of her chest.
That was it, she had turned around fully and went down the ladder. She hadn't looked back once, she hadn't said anything. She just climbed down the ladder, and ran into the woods. And still Kyo didn't even make any effort to go and stop her. He could go after her right now ans stop her. Tell her not to leave. But after not saying anything to hear...now that would just be wrong. He didn't try to stop her before, so what would you be showing a person if you went over them now. Okay, so maybe you would be showing them that you love them. But you would also be showing them that your only doing it because of the way they feel.
Kyo let out a loud scream before falling to his knees, and cursing himself to hell. "What the hell…why the hell did I just do that? Oh my fu- ah! I am such an idiot!" His fist met the roof tile, and a tear slowly trickled down his cheek. He found himself once again crying. He couldn't just sit here and let her leave like that. He knew he couldn't live without her. Even if she were to come back, he also knew she wouldn't talk to him. And for some reason, something inside of him was telling him that she wasn't coming back. It was telling him that he needed her. To go after her. Not let her disappear out of his life.
He stood to his feet and took not time to run climb down the ladder and run towards the woods. He walked in a fast past, making sure she wasn't in the woods somewhere. But he picked up his speed in walking when he didn't find her anywhere. Then, he came to the exit of the woods and looked around quickly before walking again.
She stopped for air. She hadn't stopped running once, and now she felt as if she was going to die from all the running she had done. Tears had still been slowly dripping down her face, and people were staring at her closely. Tohru hadn't really noticed, the only thing her mind was on right now was Kyo. And where she was to go now that she had just ran away from him. Her grandfather hadn't lived to far away. But she didn't want to go there. Or back to the Shigure's house right now either. She sighed, knowing she had no other choice then her grandfather's house. She wiped some sweat off her forehead, then started to walk slowly.
Kyo was so intent on finding her that he was actually asking people if they had seen a girl with brown long hair, and a light blue dress on running by. (yes, I have just now made up what Tohru is wearing…) Some people had answered yes, and some no. But everyone who did answer yes all pointed in the same direction. So at least he knew he was on the right track. But now he just hoped he would find her, and soon to.
For the sky had now started to grow dark. And Kyo could sense that it was going to be raining soon. It was just his cat side of him that knew it. And oh how he disliked the rain. So now to find Tohru was something he wanted to do soon. And with luck, after asking one more person if they had seen her they had pointed down a narrow side walk. They told his that she had stopped only a few feet away from him, and that she went down that path after she thought for a few moments.
"She couldn't have gotten to far," The women told him. " She had just continued on walking and not to fast at all. In think she was tired or something. She looked as if she was crying also…" she said.
Kyo thanked her before running off. He so hoped he would find her soon. For one, he wanted to just be able to tell her how sorry he was. And he should have though harder before on the roof. And second, it was now starting to rain. He was able to feel the rain on his face as he ran quickly down the narrow sidewalk. He came to a stop when noticing the sidewalk continued straight down, but also turned onto another road. He bit his bottom lip as he looked across the road to the other side of the sidewalk to see if she was walking down there. But she wasn't, no one was there. Then he turned his head and looked down the path he had to choose.
There she was. Tohru, walking down the sidewalk. Her arms were wrapped around herself from the cold that the rain was giving off. It wasn't drizzling anymore. Now it was pouring. And Kyo was soaked. So was Tohru. Kyo couldn't help but let out a small grin of happiness for finding her. He now walked at a slow past for his legs were shacking from all the running he had done. When he had reached Tohru, he placed a hand on her shoulder making her turn around.
Her eyes lit up when she saw Kyo staring there. He was smiling so softly that she couldn't help but smile back.
"Tohru listen, I don't know what got into me back there. I just… I don't know. I cant even understand it. All I know is that I had just made the biggest mistake of my life. I should have never of let you go like that. It was wrong of me…and I really am sorry. Please don't go. I wont be able to live without you. Tohru, I don't only love you…but I am in love with you…" Kyo said, looking down into her eyes.
Tohru couldn't say anything. But she was able to smile. And she did. Kyo smiled back before kissing her gently. Tohru returned his kiss. When Kyo broke apart from her, he grabbed her hand and entwined his fingers with hers.
"C'mon," he said smoothly. "let go home, and get out of this rain…"
Tohru nodded, know resting her head on his shoulder as they walked. Both soaked, and also the only people probably out on the roads right now. Other then the cars that were going by and making noise, it was so peaceful. And for once, the rain wasn't making Kyo feel all pissy. Nope, he was happy. And never could be any happier…
WHOO-HOO! I am really hyper right now! i alot of ice cream with my friends today after school. And i just got home like..20 minutes ago...so i am suprised i got this chapter in today. yes...i acted like a normal person today and didnt sit at my computer all day like i usually would. Well anyways thanks to all my reviewers i appreciate it very much...you guys have no idea. Please keep reading and reviewing...thanks!
