Author's Note: Thank you to everybody for their great reviews. Sorry for the lag in updates, my internet hasn't been agreeing with me lately. I tried a new style of writing, so this chapter may sound different than the others. Anyway, here's the new chapter. The flashbacks are written in italics, and taken from Chapter 3, the episodes "Malone vs. Malone" and "Lost and Found". Hope you like! (i just kinda edited it and changed it up.. so you might want to reread it if you already read it)

"Sam... Sam"

Samantha quickly picked up her head and awoke from her slumber. She looked at Jack, who was trying to wake her.
"Martin's doctor is here." he said. Sam instantly sat up and looked at the man in the white coat, hoping that the news he brought was good.

"Agent Fitzgerald will be fine. However, there was a small complication during surgery. He lost a lot of blood, causing his heart to stop for a few seconds, but luckily, we were able to revive him." Jack let out a sigh of relief. Sam, however was in shock. She came so close to losing him. She wondered what would have happened if he had arrived even a second later to the hospital. Would he still have survived? "He wouldn't leave you..." Danny's words rang in her head. Once again, Martin had left. Only for a few seconds, but even that is too much. He came back though. Was Sam the reason? Sam's head began to hurt from thinking about it, and looked up at the doctor again. "He is still not awake from the anesthesia and the medicine, but he should be awake soon"

Jack nodded his head and asked, "Can we talk to him?"

"I'm sorry, only immediate family is allowed to see him"

Sam left out a sigh of relief. Relief? Why was Sam relieved to hear that She couldn't see Martin? Suddenly guilt took over Sam. So many excuses filled her head. What if she couldn't bear to see him hurt? What if Danny was wrong and Martin wasn't still in love with her? What if he didn't want to see her? Sam excused herself from Jack and walked off into the empty bathroom. She sat down on the floor and began to think again. Why was she so nervous to see him? He had always accepted her with open arms. Always, got her to let out her emotions and thoughts.

"You okay?" Martin asked as he walked over to Sam. "You seem a bit out of it today."

"Honestly?" asked Sam, not sure if Martin would like the truth

"Yeah." he replied. He wanted Sam to be able to say anything to him. He wanted her to trust him. Let him take careof her.

"I-- I kind of feel responsible for what's going on with Jack." There it was. The truth. The mention of the old flame. she felt it was her fault that Jack's wife was divorcing him. She was the one who had an affair with him.

"Right." Martin replied.Martinfelt skittish about the topic of Jack. As she said, old feelings die hard.

"I'm sorry." apologized Sam. She didn't want to put a damper on the evening with her feelings.

"No. I'm glad you told me." Martin told her. It was the truth. No matter how he felt about her relationship with Jack, he was happy that Sam could confide in him.

"Yeah?" asked Sam, surprised to hear that someone took an interest in her feelings"

"Yeah. Okay. I got to get back to the tree." said Martin, excusing himself.

"Okay." replied Sam, as she watched him walk off, carrying her heart with him.

Sam needed someone to help her figure out her emotions, and only one person came to mind.


"Viv?" Sam asked as she walked into the hospital room.

"Sam? What are you doing here?" asked Viv, as she tried to cover up her hospital gown with the blanket on her bed.

"Oh, um, I just needed someone to talk to, and I remembered that this is the hospital that you had your-- heart surgery. So, I asked Marcus, and he said it was fine for me to come in"

"What's wrong?" she asked in a gentle voice.

"Well, Martin and Danny got--" Sam began to explain before being interrupted by Vivian.

"I know. Jack already came by to see me, and told me what happened"

"Oh." said Sam, contemplating what to say next.

"So, what's the problem?" asked Vivian, showing concern for Sam.

"Um. I'm not allowed to see Martin right now. And," Sam sighed before confessing," I'm actually kind of relieved"

"Relieved?" asked Vivian, not expecting to hear that.

"Is that bad of me?" asked Sam, completely lost in her emotions. She began to breath in deeply, trying to hold back the tears.

"No," replied Viv sweetly. "It's never easy to see a loved one in the hospital"

"But-- "Sam sighed as she pulled up a chair next to Vivian's hospital bed. "I'm not sure if that's the reason why"

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"I don't think that the reason I don't want to see him, is because he's injured." Sam looked down, unsure of how to express her thoughts. "It's -- I mean -- things just haven't been the same since he told me he didn't want to be with me. And, I'm not sure if seeing him, right now, is the best thing. for both of us"

"Sam, he almost died. He could use all the friends he has right now." replied Vivian, making an attempt to comfort Sam.

"But what if he doesn't want to see me. I mean-- what if he doesn't even want to be near me"

"Sam." Vivian said. "I think you're just letting your insecurities get to you. He loved you. Old feelings die hard." Sam suddenly remembered a conversation with Martin.

"Yeah. Well, I guess old feelings die hard." replied Martin after hearing about Sam's relationship with Jack.

"They don't die," she corrected him,"They just fade, and then you feel bad that they faded ... because you wonder ... you wonder what they meant when you had them." her mind was wraped around the feeling of being cast away for someone else.

"Well, I guess if they didn't fade, there ... there wouldn't be room for new ones." replied Martin, wanting to console Sam.

"No," said Sam as she let out a small smile, not realizing the logic. "I guess there wouldn't." Sam looked at Martin, just realizing how comforting his baby blue eyes were. Martin looked at Sam, and saw down into her soul. There was a sad girl who wanted someone to care for her.

"They just fade" whispered Sam, as she remembered the look in his eyes.

Vivian nodded. "I think you just need the strength to face your emotions, and let someone in again. You're using his feelings as an excuse for yours. You scared. You don't want to have your heart broken again. And you afriad that seeing him, will only make youfall back in love with him, and that scares you. Once you can face your feelings, you'll be ready"

"Thank you," replied Sam, as she rubbed her eyes to prevent herself from crying. She got up and began to walk out, before she abruptly turned around. "Oh, I completely forgot the reason you're in this hospital. How are you?" she asked with concern.

Viv sighed, "I'm fine. Doctors, say I should be as good as new"

"Glad to hear that," replied Sam. "Get well soon. We need you." Sam smiled as she leaned in for a hug.

Sam began to walk out, as Vivian said, "Hey. If you ever want to talk, I'm willing to listen"

"Thanks." whispered Sam.