The young man was sitting by the window. His thoughts were far a way. Way out in the cold concrete world outside the train. In brief moments the train's neon light lighted up small spots of that dark world. The young man could barely see what was out there, but it didn't matter. He knew it all too well.
There had first been a hunted look on his face, when he had got on the train, but now it had turned angry. The old women in the other end of the train, who first had felt sad for him, now shrank back in her seat.
He hated the world for what it had giving him – or in other words – had taking away for him. He hated what just had happened. He had got so used to using the suit that he almost had forgot how to be without it. He hated himself for that.
"It was so easy for them!"
He knocked his hand down in the seat beside him.
The train came to a station and the old women quickly stepped out. Outside the train she turned around and cast a quick a glance back at the young man. She thanked herself that Gotham had Batman and hastily left the station. The train doors closed, and the train left the station.
At the next station the young man stepped of the train and walked down of the cold concrete street, which the apartment blocks created. He stopped by one and went in.
He locked himself in. The apartment was very modern and clean like all the others in the block, but today it look different for the young man. He had been living there since his father had died, but it was the first time he really missed the company of the others, who was living here. Matt teasing him about something and his mom reprimand him for something he had forgot.
At the kitchen table he found a note:
"Hi Terry, hasn't you forgot something? … Your phone!
The school has called. We have a meeting tomorrow at 11. What have you done !
Mr. Wayne has called. He is coming home from the hospital today and wants you to come out to Wayne Manor as soon as possible.
A girl named Dawn has also called. She wanted you to help her with something. Give her a call!
Matt is playing at Dylan's after soccer, so you don't need to pick him up.
I have left some food in the fridge for you. Remember you pills!
Love mom!"
A little smile went over his face. Bruce had told him that he maybe could come home soon, but Terry had never believed it would be that soon.
He took the food out of the fridge and heated it in the microwave. In the meantime he pick the phone up and dial Dawn's number. The phone rang several times before it got answer. It was Dawn.
"Hi, it's me, Terry"
"Hey"
There was something in her voice.
"You have called."
"Yes, I had a problem with the mathematics."
She sounded strange.
"Had?"
"Yeah, I figure it out."
The microwave rang.
"Well… I have to go then."
"Oh, Terry… what about going out tonight"
There was something. Was it sadness? He felt like she needed to talk to him.
"Yeah, it would be nice… Let us meet at the arcade on 24. Street at… 7 o'clock. Okay?"
"Okay."
He rang off and quickly ate the food and took the pill. He put the plate in the dishwasher and was about to go out of the door, when he remembered the suit and the phone. He got the things and went out.
o-
Dear Diary
What have I done? I'm such a fool. I have lost him. Why did I do it?
Well, I properly need to start at the beginning. I had just had a big quarrel with dad about my grades, my relationship with Terry and almost everything else. It had all begun, when I was getting ready for a date with Terry. I was wearing this wonderful and sexy dress, which I just had bought the same day, when my father saw me. He didn't like the dress. It showed too much, he said. Well, you know, one thing let to others and soon we were quarrel about everything. In the end I left for my date and slammed the door behind me.
I went over to Rhino's, where I was going to meet Terry. I really needed him. We hadn't had so much time together lately, so I really was hoping for a nice evening together with him. I sat down by a table and waited. I waited and waited, but there was no Terry. As the minutes passed I got more and more angry with him. How could he just stand me up like that – again!
After an hour I called him on my phone. I was about to explore. I had just justified Terry to my dad, so how in H. could he then just stand me up like that. I didn't mean to do it, but the words just came out. Maybe I wanted to punish him. He sounded strangely, so I quickly rang off.
Then it hit me. What had I done? I really love him. I hoped that he would come, so I waited at Rhino's until they closed. Maybe the next day he would come to me, so I went home.
I didn't sleep that night, because I couldn't stop thinking about Terry. He had sounded so strangely. There had been something wrong. Was it because of me or was there something else? I had to talk to him at school the next day, so the next day I went to school feeling kin of all right. I was going to apologize to Terry and we would then be back together. I could almost fell his strong arms around me.
But at school I couldn't find him, so after the 1. Period I asked Howard about him. He hadn't seen him. The rest of the day I went around asking everybody about Terry, but nobody had seen him. Was there something wrong?
Then when I came home, then I was about to call him, but I couldn't. What should I say? What would he say? So I decided to wait until the next day.
The next day was the same. Nobody had seen him. I wanted to call him, but I couldn't. Why hadn't I called the day before? I waited the whole week, but he didn't come to school. So I decided to visit him at home. I was almost at his apartment block, when I saw him coming out of the door. I was just about to run over to him, when I saw it. He was happy. Not just happy, but very happy. Something in me broke. Doesn't he love me? I went home crying.
It was a whole week before I saw him again. He came sneaking into class. He looked so hot, that I just wanted to kiss him on the spot. He was then sent over to Mr. Jacobs, so I didn't see him again before lunch. I hope there is nothing wrong. When I saw him at lunch, I knew, that I had to talk to him, so I went over to him. We got eye contact for a moment, but then I saw her. Her, the new one, took him away from me. The rest of the lunch they sat together. She was all over him. They looked so happy together. From where did Terre know her? At one time he even putted his arm around her. That bitch! Then I saw something that worries me. Terry took pill bottle from his bag. Not one like those over-the-counter drugs. No, it was real medicine. Is something wrong with him? Is he sick? Is it serious?
After lunch he went off with her, so I didn't see him before the end of the day. He came out of a classroom together with Dawn. Yes, that's her name. I asked Chelsea. Dawn said something to him. He laughed and came over to me. My heart jumped. I really love him. I laid my arms around his neck and asked for forgiveness. He turned me down. Then something inside clicked me. It had to been Dawn's fault. I shouted at him and called Dawn names – okay, I was jealous. Terry just turned me down again and went off. Doesn't he love me? I miss him so much…
