Silent Cry, Lonesome Tears

Mona-chan: Hey everyone! Thanks for the three reviews! I'm sorry I have not updated in such a long time (almost a month), but I've been really busy with school, homework, projects, activities, and such. I also just got better from being sick for a week, so I haven't been able to update. Those of you who are waiting for ABH of H, BD of H, I am trying to fix my problems right now with the new feature, "backup/export", because I found I messed up some of the information and things. I also have no idea what chapter 3 will be about. Please stay patient with me! Thanks everyone for the support and the reviews to both stories. Thank You's will be listed at the bottom. I'm going skiing starting tomorrow and till like this Saturday or Sunday, so I won't be updating till after that…sometime when I find time. Anyway, enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story associated with CCS. They belong to CLAMP (I wish they were mine, though!). I own only the plot of this story, and Akito, a character made up from my own crazy imagination.

Chapter 2 – Just Remember I Love You

Akito called many times after my talk on the phone with him. Every time I picked up the phone, the caller ID said, "Sasaki." I always put the phone back down in its place, in order to avoid Akito.

But one day in the late summer, Akito came to visit me…

"Ding Dong," the doorbell rang that day (A/N: Just to warn you, there's a lot of dialogue in this chapter).

"Hello," I had said, while answering the door. Then I looked at the person I was speaking to (A/N: Guess who??). Akito was standing at the door, his eyes sad and his expression distressing. His mouth was curved into a small frown.

"Can I come in?" Akito asked politely and casually. His voice made it felt like we were just two good friends ready to enjoy a cup of tea. But really, I knew we were going to discuss our relationship.

"Sure…" I faded off. I closed the door behind him and then took his coat and hung it up on one of the coat racks. I led him into one of the large rooms inside the mansion. I motioned to Akito to sit down, as I myself got comfortable in one of the sofa seats. Akito sat down besides me. I stared down at my feet the whole time, and there was an awkward silence between the two of us. I figure that we were both thinking about what to say to each other and not finding anything words that were working too well. Just as I was about to say something, Akito broke the silence.

"Tomoyo, please tell me what I did wrong. I can fix it, I promise!" Akito pleaded. I saw desperation in his eyes.

"Nothing," I replied truthfully. "I-I-just…" I struggled with my words and then suddenly burst into tears, not for the first time. Akito was shocked, but reacted quickly. He pulled me into a hug, and it felt like he was protecting me from all my misery. I was too tired to make an effort to stop him. Besides, I enjoyed this feeling. If only it would last. Akito's warmth made me feel wonderful, and soon my sobs turned into sniffles. But then, an image of Syaoran ran through my mind. It reminded me of what I had to do. I cried heavily again. Akito said nothing but pulled me to his body tighter. He tried to brush the tears away, but it didn't help much, because they just kept on falling down, one-by-one, harder and harder, like they would never stop.

The sound of my crying got softer and softer until it completely faded away. I hiccupped a few times, but besides that, all was quiet again.

Everything that had happened up until now felt like a dream. Time had passed by too quickly. I was lost and fell into a state of further confusion.

All of a sudden, I spoke. "Akito…do you want to know why I decided to b-break up with y-you?" I stuttered. Akito deserved some answers.

"Yes," he whispered in my ear. I flinched slightly as I pulled his arms off me. I motioned for Akito to sit down, as I myself got comfortable in one of the sofa seats in the room. Akito sat next to me.

I began explaining, choosing my words carefully. "Akito…I'm sorry. These days have just been really, really hard. My whole life has been hard. But then you came into my life. You don't know how much you changed my life. I was finally happy. I'm really, really sorry. Please forgive me, Akito. Can we still be friends…?" I begged. Akito stared at me, confusion written across the full length of his handsome face. I realized I was clearly not making sense to him. I sighed and went on, "The cause of my misery was jealousy. I was jealous of my best friend, Sakura--"

Akito cut me off, "You mean the girl with auburn hair and green eyes? The one that walks home with us sometimes?"

I breathed out deeply, "Yes." Akito made a motion for me to go on with my explanation.

"Anyway, Sakura, her boyfriend – he goes to Yotsubashi High – is also our long time friend. He was a person I secretly loved, two years after I met him. I've loved him since sixth grade. Then you came to my life and now I'm not jealous anymore. But I realized that I still love the boy that I loved in sixth grade. I've tried to move on, but it's just too hard. I can't forget him. And it's not right to make you miserable, too. You were a great boyfriend, Akito. You deserve better. You deserve a person better than me. And that's why I've got to let you go."

Akito stayed unspoken for a few seconds, letting my words sink in. Then he said, "Tomoyo. Tomoyo Daiidouji, I love you. Don't you understand that? If I was such a great boyfriend, why are you doing this? Why are you running to someone who doesn't love you back? You need to move on. Forget about that boy. I, Akito Sasaki, love you. Why don't you get it?" He flooded me with questions I couldn't answer. But most painful word to hear was love. The word came out of his mouth and it felt like a shot to my heart.

I blinked back a few tears.

I was startled by Akito's expression. His voice and face were calm, yet his eyes were fierce. I looked into his eyes again. I saw the fire in his eyes begin to dull. It was replaced by doubt, misery, desperation, and confusion. This was all my fault. I had to break up with him. Now. Before I caused him any more pain. But what if I would just hurt him again, ending all this so quickly?

I didn't know what to do or what to say. That was the first time I had felt so desperate, so helpless, so clueless, in many years. I remained unspoken in fear of saying the wrong thing.

"Alright!" Akito yelled. This time his expression, voice, and eyes all showed fury. I trembled at the anger in his voice. I could feel his patience growing thin. "Go off with your precious boy! See what I care! I thought we had something, Tomoyo. I thought I found the girl of my dreams! …You know what, Tomoyo? I was right. I did have the girl of my dreams. You. But I guess I'm not the guy of your dreams," he said harshly.

"I'm sorry it had to turn out this way. I guess we're just not meant to be. I need to go," Akito said. He started to walk to the door to leave, and I followed. Akito turned around and told me, "Good-bye."

"G-g-good B-bye," I said, holding in another sob.

Akito opened the door, but before he stepped out the door, he said to me without turning around, "Tomoyo. Good-bye. Just remember I will always love you. Just remember…" His face was turned away from me, and I could only see his back, but I caught a tear falling down his beautiful face.

Akito walked away and I watched him go. His figure and his shadow got smaller and smaller, until he was completely out of sight.

I closed the door behind me softly. Sliding down the door and sinking down to my knees, I finally let the tears flow.

After my breakup with Akito, I never saw him again in high school, even though we were on the same campus. Actually, it was about 7 years before I met up with him again. The phone calls, emails, long walks, nights underneath the moon, and daily talks all stopped. He used to wait for me outside of Jonan or Jenbo high to walk me home. All that stopped too. I thought I saw glimpses of Akito once in a while, but I think I was only hallucinating. By the start of my university years, Akito was tucked away into a small corner of my mind as one of my sweet memories.

I think I missed Akito a lot. He was no longer on my mind, but he taught me many things. From that point on, I learned to enjoy life and I was no longer feeling jealous of Sakura. The hatred was fading away just as well. Confusion was still a part of my feelings, but that was expected.

My time with Akito was precious. In some ways I felt sad, but at the same time I felt relieved that I was able to start a new love life with all that Akito had taught me.

Two weeks from my breakup, Sakura called me. She asked how Akito was during our conversation. I calmly stated that I had broken up with him. I told her Akito just wasn't the one. I couldn't tell her the real reason.

Sakura sounded surprised and upset. Of course, she asked me to explain everything, which was fine with me. I explained about my phone call to him, telling him we were over. I explained about his visit to my house, and how I was in his arms one moment, and crying on the floor the next. I explained about how sad I felt when he told me good-bye. And last of all, and most important of all, I told Sakura about Akito's last words before he left. "Just remember I will always love you…"

Sakura sympathized with me but I don't think she really understood. I didn't blame her. I was just glad Sakura was feeling so concerned about me.

I looked at the clock, and it read 7 PM. The day was drawing to a close. That was when I told Sakura I needed to go. We said out good-byes and then I hung up the phone.

It was only late summer, but the weather seemed unusually like autumn. Leaves were already falling, although it wasn't autumn yet, and we weren't even back in school. The night was getting darker, but there was just enough daylight to see clearly. I thought it was the perfect time to go on a long, soothing, walk. Just like the walks I used to have with Akito. No one would be accompanying me this time, just myself, on a walk. But I wouldn't feel lonely. I would have some time to myself. Maybe to sort my feelings out, and maybe to get rid of some of the confusion I felt.

I hugged my coat tightly, pulling it up to my ears. The wind blew and autumn leaves swirled around me. With the wind came a voice I recognized. "Just remember I will always love you…!" Akito's last words. I sighed. The wind blew again, but this time it only succeeded in making me colder. I hugged my coat tighter and pulled it up further.

Thank You to:

yumewolf-chan: Yeah, its going to be an all Tomoyo P.O.V. Well…actually the last chapter may be in a normal P.O.V, 3rd person I think its called. Anyway, thanks for the review and the emails! Keep in contact!! And update your story as soon as you can!

Angel Frost: Thanks! Yep, so this chapter had some more Akito stuff in it. But this is probably the last time you'll hear of him till like the last chapter or something. Update your story soon!

Sifauna Auria: Thank you! You really think so? Well, part of it is because I based Tomoyo partly on myself, Sakura on my really good friend Victoria, and Syaoran on this guy named James. The whole story of our lives differs A LOT from my story, but it still helped me write this story.

Mona-chan: Haha…you guys, I just realized you three are my only reviewers and readers!! Haha…well, thanks for reading! I appreciate it a lot. Hopefully I'll get some more reviews, and readers, though. Please keep on supporting me by reviewing! Thanks, everyone!!!! I'll try to update soon!! Comments, questions, or concerns, email me at . Thanks everyone!! Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanzaa, and Happy Hanukkah!! Happy Holidays everyone!!!!!!!!