This is my first Teen Titans fanfic, so please don't be so hard on me when reviewing!

Pairings: Major BBRae and some Beastboy Terra and StarRob.

Rated PG-13 for some romance scenes, violence, and disturbing thoughts/actions.


The Secrets that Beast Boy Had

Chapter 1

I Want Candy


"Azarath Metrion Synthos… Azarath Metrion Synthos… Azarath Metrion Synthos…" The only things you could hear at all at Titans Tower. Raven was on the roof meditating, Starfire was in her room, "preoccupying" herself, Cyborg was playing some videogame, Robin was… on the roof also?

"Rae, have you seen Beastboy and Terra anywhere?" asked Robin. Raven didn't answer at first, but then replied, "Don't know… don't care…" said Raven. "Why don't you like Beastboy? Every time I ask you 'Where's Beastboy,' you always say, 'I don't care…'" "Azarath Metrion Synthos" said Raven, ignoring Robin. "Answer me, Raven!" said Robin, a little louder and more aggravated. "Azarath Metrion Synthos…" "Raven!" "I don't need to answer your stupid questions! So just BACK OFF!" screamed Raven. A window in Titan's Tower shattered, and Raven got off the roof and went back to her room.

Robin sat on the roof for a while, wondering why Raven didn't even answer his question. All the thoughts were running throughout his head when he heard Cyborg scream "Dinner!" Now, Robin got off the roof and head towards the eating area.

Cyborg cooked up 2 Steaks, a huge bowl of mash potatoes, and 2 salads, one for Robin and one for Raven. Cyborg was shoving food into his mouth acting like the food was unlimited, Raven only ate her salad and Robin was slightly eating his steak. Starfire got a scoop of mash potatoes and then asked, "Friend Robin, how was your day?" Robin picked at his steak, then replied, "So-so." "Cyborg?" asked Starfire. "Great!" said Cyborg, before shoving a chunk of steak into his mouth, savoring the taste. "Raven?" asked Starfire. But before Raven answered, she wasn't in the room, and her plate was washed out and in the sink. "Robin, what is wrong with our friend Raven?" asked Starfire worried. "Don't know, but I'm gonna find out…"

Robin knocked on Raven's door, and there wasn't a reply, heck, not even a noise, in Raven's room. Robin opened the door and scanned the room. 'Raven's not here.' Before he left the room, he noticed on an end table next to the door Raven's diary. He looked both ways of the hallway, then entered Raven's room, turned on the light, sat on Raven's bed and opened the diary.


December 16, 2004

Today the Titans put up Christmas Decorations. I didn't even want to bother, but Beast Boy insisted, so I guess I couldn't refuse. Since I can fly, he wanted me to decorate the stair railings, while he decorated below me. I seem like I couldn't stop staring at him, and this weird thought came up in my head. I love Beastboy…

A surprised look wiped on Robin's face, but he continued reading.

… but does he love me? I mean what happens if he does like me then we start dating then one day we get married and then I become Beastboy's wife and it would interfere living with the titans…but it still would be dreamy…

Still Loving Beastboy,

Raven

Robin put the diary on the end table and turned off Raven's lights, and left the room. While Robin was walking down the hallway, he thought, 'I wonder how Raven is taking the fact that beastboy and Terra are dating now? Besides, how could Raven even like him. Beastboy is going crazy now with Terra and they go club hopping all the time and…" thought Robin before he screamed, "Oh my god!"


Ding Dong

Cyborg jumped up from the couch and screamed, "I got it!" He opened the door to see a police officer. "Titan's Tower?" asked the officer. "Yes officer…" said Cyborg. "We have just found out that two titans, age 18 and 17, have been under the influence of heavy alcoholic use. We will start this off as a severe warning, since you save our city regularly, but one more time and I find that these two will do serious time. Hear me?" "Loud and clear officer." Beastboy and Terra walked into the house, Terra fainted onto the floor, and Beastboy fell onto the couch. Robin got into the room and Raven entered the room. Starfire afraid of the anger that would happen, so she hid in her room.

"What were you two thinking!" screamed Robin. "We… were…just…partying," said Beastboy, looking nauseous. "Yeah, and thanks to your actions, the titans could have a bad name sometime soon!" said Robin. "Ah, I don't need your thoughts about me!" he said walking away. Raven ran up to him and turned him around. "What is with you? Ever since Terra became a titan, you've became a party freak, and she only like's you for that! Why don't you even remotely try to like someone who likes you for yourself!" said Raven. "Yeah, like anybody would like me for the old me!" said Beastboy. "Yeah somebody does!" "Who!" ME!" screamed Raven, louder than she screamed at Beastboy. There was a moment of silence, then Beastboy replied, "Raven, do you know why I hate you?" said Beastboy. A shocked look wiped across Raven's face, then Beastboy said, "I hate… you because you… always act like… my mother…" said Raven. Raven angrily screamed, "Well at least I have one!" Now Beastboy was mad. "You know what Rae! Just stopping getting into my life!" "Good, because I wish I never met you, you retarded drunk!" Raven slapped Beastboy across the face, and then ran to her room. For a second, there was complete silence, then Robin replied, "I hope your happy Garfield, because Raven, yeah, SHE ACTUALLY DID LIKE YOU," said Robin. Robin walked past Beastboy, nudged his shoulder, and went upstairs after Raven. Cyborg carried Terra to her room, and Beastboy then replied, "What have I done? I just dissed off one of the few friends I have…"

Robin knocked on Raven's door furiously. "Raven! Open UP!" Finally, Robin kicked down the door and saw a shattered window in her room with a part of her sleeve hanging on a shard of the window. He looked down on the ground outside of Titan's tower, and saw Raven's spectral, bloody body on the bottom of the ground. When Beastboy ran into Raven's room and saw Raven's dead-looking body, he nervously replied, "Raven…"


I know it's my first TT fic, so please don't rate heavily. And BTW... BB/RAE all the way!