JOURNAL ENTRY 3: INTENTION
And he was carrying me into his arms…
His comrades and also him, were jumping on and off on the trees as we making our way out of the woods. My eyes were still swollen from crying as I held strongly around his broad shoulders. I was staring at nowhere. My eyes were uncomprehendingly gazing at the view we were passing by. Seems everything so useless being alive now…
"Hey! Itachi, ever ask her name already?"
"I know her name, Kisame."
"Then, talk to her. She's too beautiful to be quiet."
Enough of being beautiful! The words I heard made my grip tighter around his shoulder. He felt it. He looked at me with an impassive glint in his eyes.
"You're hurting me."
"Am I? I thought ninjas like you don't feel anything."
I looked up at him coldly. I was already numb, and my mind was full of fraudulences and artifices. I didn't believe anymore that I exist for a reason, and I didn't believe that hope is something for an afflicted sleeping soul…
For a person like me… there's no such thing as happy endings.
He looked at me with his deceitful gaze. He gritted as my grasp went tighter that it might give him a scratch when he removes his shirt. I bit my lower lip. I made him annoyed, but then he sighed.
"Is that your way of saying you'll be avenging, Subaru?"
Did he just say my name? It made my jaws dropped. I was astounded that he knows my name. I felt a sudden throb in my chest. Is that my heart? Why am I nervous? He just mentioned my name right? No big deal! But, how the heck did he know my name?
"You know my name?"
"Of course, Subaru. Subaru, Ichikawa."
"How did you…?"
He gave me a slight smile. As he looked back at the trees, I saw a glint of anxiety in his eyes. I asked him.
"Something wrong?"
The ninja named Kisame came closer to us. He gave him a tap.
"Did you hear that? Someone's following us. What shall we do, Itachi?"
He looked at Kisame. He raised his eyebrows as a signal of something. Then, his comrades disappeared. We were now alone. But before Kisame vanished, he spoke to me.
"Subaru, right? You got a breathtaking voice. I almost thought you're mute."
Then he disappeared in a puff of silver smoke.
I was surprised that Itachi (the red-eyed guy) put me down in the branch of a tree, and sat beside me. He gave me a piece of cloth and a mirror.
"My name is Uchiha Itachi. Here, you can clean your face with that."
I let go a little yell when I saw my face in the mirror. It was covered with ashes. I blushed. It was so embarrassing that a man saw my face covered with black ashes. I looked like a beggar. Even I was a slave girl; I always make sure I look well dressed even in maid attire.
I slowly wiped my face with that blue piece of cloth. It was a little damp, so it cleaned my face, at least. I was surprised to notice that his hand was brushing against my arms. It stopped in the spot of a huge black-blue bruise.
"Your master did this to you, right?"
I lost my tongue. How did he know? He was been surprising me since we runaway from the mansion. I suddenly asked him.
"How the hell did you know my name and…"
"I spied."
"You spied. What! Why?"
"It is a job."
His answers were short. But he was still brushing his left hand to my right arm. It was warm. I felt a bit humiliated, and shy. I moved away my arm and arrogantly stared at him. But, his eyes were empty. Not really empty, but they were half-full. There's still a bit of bloodthirsty murderer sparkles in his eyes. His soul was mystifying. I was so flabbergasted.
"Why did you move away your arm?"
"You're making me blush."
"Hmm…"
I turned away at him. I suddenly remembered that we were being followed. I decided to ask him about it.
"I… overheard your conversation with your sidekick. Who are following us?"
"ANBU."
"Why?"
"We kidnapped you. Akatsuki… kidnapped you."
"I was abducted?"
"Yes. Why are you so stupid to understand?"
"For I already close my mind to the world…"
He was astonished. He was trying to reach me, my mind. There's a tinge of his persuasive disposition to his words. I know he was trying to get in touch with me, from my solitary confinement. And, he suddenly kept quiet without any trace of second demotion.
I was left hanging in the silence. I suddenly felt the lesions of my soul, my ever tormented and savaged soul. I left my soul in the stygian escape rope of the reality. I closed its eyes from the world to avoid getting hurt again. The string of glittering hope shining above it disappeared, and it will never be seen again. I was blankly staring at the trees with a pokerfaced expression. I didn't notice him looking the same way as me. I felt emptiness in the silence so I broke it.
"Why did you abduct me?"
He gazed up in the sky. Then he let go of a grunt. He looked at me impassively.
"Are you so foolish that you don't know anything?"
"I was enclosed in that mansion for several years. How will I know? I don't even know how the Hokage looked like! Or even the events happening outside that walls! You can't blame me for that!"
"Captive in the helpless mansion…"
"Can't you just answer my question, assassin?"
"I won't. You know the answer."
"Damn it! I'm not going to ask if I know the answer, stupid!"
"It's your bloodline. That's our intention."
I looked at him in shock. I suddenly bowed down my head and let my hair covered my whole face. He knew something about my family's bloodline. Everyone kept it as a secret, even the Third Hokage, and the present Hokage. No body in Konoha knew about it. It was kept secretly, secure. They made my family…
…Extinct…
Itachi suddenly spoke up. It grabbed my attention.
"It's not that I'm interfering on your own privacy, but the Konoha ninjas are also looking for you. They wanted you to be secured."
"Secured from what?" I smirked.
"From us…"
"From you? From Akatsuki? Foolishness!"
"You're dumb, aren't you?"
"If I weren't imprisoned at that manor, did you think I'd be staying with you? If the Konoha ninjas were looking for me, it means I'd be in great danger. But newsflash, Itachi… I don't know… ANYTHING!"
I stood up, but I lost my balance. I almost forgot that I was sitting in the branch of a tree, not on a chair. He suddenly wrapped his arms around my waist for equilibrium. I moaned when I felt a stinging pain in my leg.
"If my right leg wasn't badly broken, I'd just let myself fall and die. I don't want to die crippled." I sneered.
"You should tell me earlier. I should've just killed you."
"Badly, you can't."
"I know."
I suddenly saw shadows coming close to us. Itachi stood straight. It was his comrades. There were only seven left and almost all of them were wounded and bloodstain.
"We are incomparable to them. They got the Hokage to fight, and so as Jiraiya. We got to go before they reach us here…"
Itachi's sidekick stopped when we heard hustles from the trees. There's somebody out in the trees. I clenched my fist as I whispered.
"I detest ninjas deep in my heart."
Itachi looked towards me. He suddenly smirked and said.
"The ninja beside you can kill and protect at the same time."
Then he winked.
There's suddenly an inner smile that appeared in my mind. I felt so secured and so safe in those words. I never heard those kinds of words for a very long time. It pulled my heartstrings and made me feel so protected. I was in the safe hands, I think. He was still an assassin, a killer, a murderer, and a criminal. But he suddenly turned as an angel in disguise when he told me that. An image inside of me in my head was jumping in joy. Just like a child, just like before…
"Hey! Itachi! Surrender the girl. She's too innocent to be in Akatsuki!"
A woman with large breasts and blonde hair appeared in our front. She had ninjas wearing masks, which I recognized as ANBUs. There were also teenagers with them. Teenagers? Ninjas? They were too young for violence! Violence?
I was exposed in violence at the age of 2. Why not them?
Itachi suddenly grabbed me by my waist and pointed a kunai at my side. I quivered, and screamed.
"Darn! Could you just kill me if you want to? I'm tried of being this way, you know. I rather rest in peace than be busted in pieces!"
"Come closer, or her body will suffer…"
Itachi licked my cheeks. It maybe me shivered. This was so sadistic! Vindictiveness now enveloped his aura. I was frozen in phobia of seeing another homicide. I was afraid to see bloodstains again. But I was in another mind illusion again. I was already afraid of any weapons or anything related to ninjas. Seeing the kunai made me shivered. The shurikens in their hands and holsters made my knees trembled. I was really frightened. I saw katanas being slashed in the air and shining in the noon sunshine. I was starting to see delusions again. I was starting to see rain…
…Rain with blood…
I suddenly realized I was about to faint. I heard a lousy voice of a boy, and high-pitched tone of a girl. They were screaming in anxiety. Itachi caught me into his arms. I looked around, and all I saw was red rain. I was hearing screams of dying people. A massacre, my mind was creating. I looked where the voice came from. A blonde, blue-eyed boy, I saw screaming at his top of voice. He came running to my way.
"Hey! Don't die yet! I'll save you!"
His voice faded away, and so as Itachi's face. I fainted as the words of that blonde boy kept on repeating on my head. I lost my consciousness…
"…I'll save you…"
No one could do that… no body is meant to save me… There's no salvation left for me…
A/N: So, chapter 3 is finished! Whoa! That was long! I wrote this chapter during my break in my Biochemistry class, and here… I have updated this story faster! So, let your reviews fall down! Please? It'll make me happy! Hehe! Thanks and have a nice day!
