RAE'S POV
I can't believe this is happening I'm laying here with my friend in the world, kissing,touching. I had hoped for the longest it would happen but I never thought it really would.Look at her,isn't she the most beautiful woman you've ever seen. My God , she could be with anyone she wants and she wants me. Chels and I have been close forever it seems, I can't say the first minute I realized the way I felt about her. When I knew these feelings just couldn't be platonic,when we hugged I never wanted to let go,we I heard her voice my heart flipflopped. I should have noticed her loving me. I mean as much as I love chels sometimes she is a bit slow on the uptake, but not this time, this time it was me who was too blind to see. I remember when I got my driver's liscense and Eddie couldn't go out that night because he was on punishment,she joked about it being our first date,we both reached for the radio and our hands more than brushed we both lingered a moment and what should have and could have been a telltale sign, she looked at me upon reaching her house and said,"what about my goodnight kiss," I stalled my heart lept I wanted to but my hesitation might have caused us missing our first kiss,but how could I know,finally she smiled in that way only chelsea can and hugged me before hopping out of the car. I should have maybe but like she said doesn't matter we ARE together now.
Lyrics from Heart-Nothin' at all
I would walk home every evening
through the pyramids of light
I would feed myself on the silence
wash it down with empty nights
then your innocent distractions hit me so hard
My emotional reaction caught me off guard
It was nothin' at all
like anything I had felt before
No,nothin' at all
like I thought,no it's so much more
No one else has ever made me feel this way
when I ask you how you did it you just say
it was nothin' at all
Now I walk home every evening
and my feet are quick to move
'Cause I know my destination
is a warm and waiting you
From our first communication it was clear
any thought of moderation would soon disappear
it was nothin' at all
like anything I had felt before
no nothin at all
like I thought no it's so much more
No one else has ever made me feel this way
when I ask you how you did it you just say
it was nothin' at all
then your innocent distractions hit me so hard
my emotional reaction caught me off guard
it was nothin at all
like anything I had felt before
no,nothin at all
like I thought no,it's so much more
no one else has ever made me feel this way
when I ask you how you did it you just say
it was nothin at all
nothin at all
like anything I felt before
"Rae"I feel her hand so warm against my face I turn and kiss the palm,"you have a vision or something?"
"hmm ,nah."
"what's wrong baby,"
"ABSOLUTELY nothing baby,was just think bout you,us, just loving my girl."
"aww Raven,"she pulled me tighter into a kiss.
"I don't want to rush you Chels?"
"huh?"
"I said that I want to make love to you."
"I know baby."
"let me finish sweetheart, I said that and man do I mean it but I didn't say so trying to rush you, I didn't even mean to actually say it out loud."
"Rae.."
"I mean I don't want to do anything you don't"
"RAVEN,"I'm a little taken aback for a sec.
"what baby?"
"relax," I felt her hand caress my face again,"I didn't say anything about it. I certainly didnt tell you no."
I rest my forehead against hers,'you didn't say yes either."
"Rae, don't think about it so much please baby, let's just keep loving each other and if it happens it does,if not welll ya know I love you Raven Baxter. That will not change and I love when you tell me how you feel and what you think ok. Please don't worry so much. the only thing you need to worry about right now.."
"yeh?"
"Is kissing your woman," she grinned and pulled me into such and amazing mind blowing kiss, any and every concern I had melted away so in love with one another.
