She tried not to get too mad, it was partly her own fault anyway, not Monica's. She just couldnt believe Monica felt the need to tell Ross anyway, she must have known that it would make things worse, but Monica had told her that it wasnt her intention, she just thought Ross had the right to know incase he was planning on making another move. Rachel's plan had been ruined, she would have to face Ross knowing that he knew about her dates with Joshua and she knew there wasnt a chance in him believing her if she told him she wasnt seeing him anymore, especially seeing as Joshua was giving them a lift to the airport.
Things were making more sense now about the conversations she had shared with Ross in the past week, he had sounded somewhat curious about something, obviously about Joshua, she knew that seeing him now would probably be a nightmare as they were both being untruthful to one another. She hadnt told him about Joshua, and he hadnt told her that he already knew about Joshua. It was just typical of them both.
She felt somewhat angry with herself for being so stupid, she had made some stupid mistakes over the past few weeks and the reality of it all was slowly kicking in, she didnt deserve someone like Ross as she was always giving him a hard time, rejecting him those 3 weeks ago had started to replay in her head over the past nights and she was quickly regretting ever getting on the plane. She loved being in Paris, it was a fresh and healthy start for her but the only thing making her feel unsure was the man she had loved all those years, Ross. Yet she couldnt just be an adult about it and tell him this, and it wasnt as though she could tell him now as he was probably thinking she was in a relationship with Joshua.
'Joshua, Its Rachel...'.
'Oh Hi...I'll be at your's as soon as I can get there Rachel, Ok?'
She cleared her throat. 'Actually, errm...I...I dont need a lift now Joshua, thanks anyway but me and Emma are just gonna go and get a cab...'.
'But Rachel, cabs cost a lot...I'll take you both up there and bring you straight back with Ross...'.
'Thats why I dont want you there Joshua, its too complicated and I dont think Ross will appreciate seeing you there with me...'.
'But we're not even...'.
'Josh, dont make this harder on me...I just dont want you to give me a lift, Im not saying we cant still keep in touch but just keep your distance over the next few days please...for me'.
'Oh, Ok then...well I'll speak to you soon then'.
'Your a great guy Joshua, but I cant be in a relationship with you now...I still have feelings for Ross and if everything goes to plan, I hope to get back together this weekend...'.
'I thought you didnt love him anymore...'.
'I said that, but I was lying Joshua, and I'm sorry for leading you to think that we could become an item...because we cant'.
'Fine. I wish you the best with Ross and Emma...I hope we can still see eachother as friends...'.
'Sure. Thanks for understanding Josh...Bye...'. She put the phone firmly down, feeling a little guilty for the way she had spoken to him. For a moment she actually felt sad for him, he was the perfect guy and he didnt deserve to just be dismissed as soon as she made up her mind about her relationship, but she knew that he wasnt the guy for her, Ross was. She just hoped he would take her back now. 'Cmon Emma, lets go and meet your daddy...'. She said before putting Emma carefully in her pushchair and ringing a cab to go to the airport.
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Ross stood by the entrance of the airport, keeping his eye out for Rachel and Emma who should be arriving soon, his flight had gone reasonably well but his stomach had been churning the whole way at the thought of seeing Rachel. He couldnt wait to see Emma but seeing Rachel would just hit him like a flash of lightning, he knew that he wanted her for the rest of his life but he wasnt prepared to reveal his feelings again to her.
There she was stepping outside of the cab, Ross began to walk closer to her. As he did, he stared over at her, the beauty shined from her body as he looked at her, golden hair and that body that played with his mind. He noticed she was wearing the same skirt as she had worn the day she had left, it just proved that he did pay a lot of attention to her appearance, whether he admitted it or not. Looks did matter. She was gorgeous.
He got her attention as she walked towards him, her head was focused on the ground as she walked, she had Emma in her arm and she was pushing the pram infront of her. He began to walk faster to give her a hand, she looked like she needed it.
She looked up to see that Ross was just a metre away from her, he looked surprisingly excited, she almost expected him to be looking at her with disapointment. 'Rach...'. He said as he approached her. She stopped and smiled. He looked at her with those brown eyes, 'Hey...you'. She said. She didnt know what that meant by calling him that, she had always done that when they had been going out. Emma began to reach out for Ross who was now looking at his daughter, 'Here, you take hold of her...' Rachel said. Ross smiled. 'Come here sweetie...'. He said, taking hold of Emma who seemed to remember him well as she was beaming with happiness. As he took hold of her, Rachel couldnt help but look at him, he was wearing low slung jeans and a baggy tshirt, he looked casual yet charmingly sexy. She couldnt help but notice that he looked a little thinner, he had lost a bit of weight. 'How have you been?' She asked him, as they began to walk away from the airport, back to the line of cabs waiting. 'Oh you know...a little lonely'. He told her, 'Have you been ok?' He asked her.
She smiled at him, 'Ive been ok, but like you said...its lonely'. He looked quickly at her and smiled,. 'And how have you been little angel?' he asked Emma who had her arms wrapped around his neck. Rachel laughed. 'I told you she wouldnt forget you...'. Ross looked back at her, 'It seemed that would be the way though when I was that far away from her...'.
She sighed. 'We're together now though huh...we can spend this weekend just as us'.
He looked at her again. Why couldnt she just tell him about Joshua?. 'Are we going straight to your apartment?' he asked her.
She nodded as they stepped into the taxi, Ross letting her go in first before he passed Emma to her, 'I'll push this on...'. He offered as he grabbed hold of the pram to put it inside the cab. 'Thanks...' She smiled. Emma sat on her lap and stared at her father as he closed the cab door and sat down beside them.
He couldnt help but feel like the atmosphere felt nothing but natural. He looked at Emma who was sat on Rachel's lap, she looked happy to see him and that was the thing he was dreading most, his own daughter forgetting him. Rachel smiled over at him, 'So, have you seen any of the guys lately?' She asked him.
He shook his head. 'Surprisingly, no...I have been on the phone to Monica and Chandler though and Phoebe left me a message telling me that she and Mike are expecting a baby...' he told her.
'Really?...' Rachel asked, stunned.
He nodded. 'She called me yesterday, so she probably hasnt found the time to tell everybody yet...'.
She smiled. 'I'll have to call her up, I am so happy for her...'.
'Uh huh, seems like everybody has settled down now and got what they wanted all along huh...' He said. He turned away to look outside of the window, if only that was the same for him he thought.
She nodded. 'I guess so...'. She looked at Emma who was still smiling up at Ross, 'Funny how things turn out...'. She looked out of the window, looking at the sights that she still hadnt been able to appreciate. There was a small silence which was something she knew would happen, they both had different things inside their minds that needed to be cleared up, but now wasnt the time. She would wait till they had time to themselves.
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