She knocked at his door. Hoping he would be in, and praying he wouldnt mind her coming to see him at such a late time. But she needed to talk to someone about the situation, and she didnt know anybody else in Paris. Joshua was a good guy and hopefully he could help her figure things out.

He opened the door. 'Rach?' He asked, rubbing his eyes. He looked like he had been asleep.

'I'm sorry Josh, I needed to come and see you...'. She explained. She began to feel upset again, her eyes welled up again with tears as she tried to explain herself. He stepped outside with her, 'Come in Rach...You can tell me whats happened' He said, taking hold of her arm and leading her inside his apartment.

She walked into the sitting room, 'Sit down...can I get you a drink Rach?' he asked her. She nodded. 'Please...and make it alcohol' She asked him.

He laughed. 'Certainly...'. As he left, she sat herself down. His apartment wasnt what she expected it to be, it was a bit messy but it was an organised mess. She wiped her eyes, she just couldnt believe she had left the apartment. She had never usually lost her temper so badly to leave her own apartment. 'Here you go..' He said, coming back in with a glass of wine. 'Thank you...' She said, taking hold of the glass and knocking it back quickly. 'Hey...take it slow Rach' He laughed.

'If you had the same night Ive had...you would do the same' She told him.

'Well...tell me what happened then huh?' He asked her.

She put down the glass, 'How long have you got?' She asked.

'I..I just dont know what to do anymore, even if I told him that we wanted to work things out...I cant see it going well...we're just so...so stupid sometimes...'.

'Do you want to know what I think?'. Joshua asked her.

'Go on...'.

'I think that Ross adores you...and deep down, you do want to work things out...and you do feel the same way about him from what I have heard...'.

She laughed. 'Josh, you are right...but its just so difficult, I wish I didnt feel this way about him sometimes because usually you can forget about your ex's and move on...but I cant move on from him, and I cant move on with him either...'.

'What is it that your scared of?'.

'Scared? I'm not..-'.

'Your very scared Rach about something...can I ask you, how did you break up?'.

She looked up at him again, 'Oh you know...why most people break up really...disagreements...just sometimes it doesnt work'.

'Tell me I'm wrong...but there seems to be something more there...'.

'Like what?'.

'I dont know...you tell me'.

'Ok...'. She paused. 'He cheated on me...'.

Joshua was shocked to hear this. 'I didnt expect that...but I think thats maybe what your scared of?'.

'Oh no...It wouldnt cross my mind...its a few things, not one particular thing...but even though he did cheat, its never made me think of him any lower...hes still the Ross who I cared and loved for those years ago...he made a mistake, and through the years we put it behind us...we have more things to think about now'.

'Have you ever been in love with anybody else besides Ross?'. He asked her.

She shook her head, 'Not real love...'.

'So why arent you with him?'.

'Its not that easy...you should have heard the things he said to me just before, he called me selfish and blamed me for leaving New York...'.

Joshua got up now. 'You see Rach, I've never been in love before...and when you tell me about you and Ross, I really do think you are wasting your time sitting here with me...'.

'You do?'.

'Yes...I do'.

'Your so lovely Josh, and believe me...if I didnt feel this way about Ross, I would have took up your offer those few weeks ago...because your just great...'. She said, her words were slurring now because of the alcohol. 'How much have I drank?' She laughed.

He didnt say anything, but looked at her. 'You know what I first thought of you?'.

'No...what?'.

'I thought you were gorgeous, and I actually thought you were the one for me...in that isle in the supermarket, you were the woman for me...'.

She looked into his eyes, something about them were inviting. She just wanted to kiss him or something. 'Do you want to know what I thought?'.

'No...what?'.

'I thought you were somebody who could save me...'.

'Save you?'.

'Yes...'. She told him, 'I still am attracted to you...and it wouldnt be so bad for me to just...-'. He kissed her. He had read her mind, she had honestly wanted her to kiss her, to help her know what she really wanted. She knew deep down that Ross was the one, but Joshua was still that guy she had met in the supermarket who had helped her pick up her groceries. The kiss was soft, but nice. She knew it was wrong, but she was single, kissing a guy wasnt a crime. Ross didnt have to know.

'Josh..' She whispered, inbetween their kisses. 'This is...this is...'.

'Wrong?' He cut in.

Their lips came apart, and both of their eyes opened. 'I think so...' She said. 'I knew this was what would happen when I first saw you tonight...I still think you are sexy as hell...and I probably would just rip off your clothes right now and climb in your bed Josh...but...I think I need to go back home...to Ross'.

'Rach...if you think thats what you want, then do it...I'll let you go, it might be something I'll regret doing...because I think your just amazing...I would take you happily tonight, but you want Ross...and from what you've told me...Ross wants you'.

'He does...and I think I do too'.

He squeezed her hand. 'We can still stay...friends right?'.

She nodded. 'Course, and thank you Josh...for making me realise what I really wanted'.

'Is that a bad thing on my half? Am I that bad kisser? Making you want another man?' He laughed.

'You know what I mean...'. She said, getting up from the chair. 'Its just something that needed to be done...Ive wanted to kiss you for weeks, and now its out of my system...I feel ready to just get things straight with Ross...'.

He smiled. 'I hope I find somebody else just like you Rach...and you know if things dont work out with you and Ross, you know just where I am...'.

'I do...'. She smiled, before stroking him on his arm and leaving the room, not forgetting to check her appearance in the mirror in the hallway. She looked a bit tipsy, infact drunk. She couldnt walk home in this state, her eyes looked black like a pandas. Her lipstick was slightly smudged. And her hair was like a bees nest.

'Hey Joshua...' She called.

'Yeah?'.

'Can you ring me a cab?'.

'No I wont...' He shouted back.

'What?' She called back, why wouldnt he call her a cab?.

He came into the hallway. 'I wont call you a cab...'.

'Why-'.

He paused for a moment. 'Because I'll drive you home silly...'. He laughed.

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She scurried down the hallway, trying to find the door she lived at. She had lived there for almost 5 weeks and she still couldnt find her way in the building, and having a drink didnt help either. She walked quietly down the hall, trying not to wake anybody as it was early in the morning. Joshua had dropped her off outside the building, he had offered to take her upstairs but the thought of Ross seeing him, wasnt a good idea.

She was quite afraid of going back in the apartment, she knew what would happen. Another row. She just wanted to tell him how she felt, put everything else behind him but it was the things he had said to her earlier that stuck in her mind, she couldnt move on with him knowing he thought those things of her. She did love him now, and she had only just realised that. Why it had taken so long for her to come to terms with it, she couldnt quite understand. She just didnt know.

She knocked lightly on the door she hoped was her's, she had left her keys and everything in the apartment, so Ross would have known she wasnt going far for long. She knocked again, a little louder this time. But not to wake Emma who was hopefully still settled in her crib. She felt a bit guilty about leaving so quickly earlier, especially leaving Emma. But Ross was her father, he would have dealt with her, she knew that. Otherwise she wouldnt have left without Emma, but one thing she did know was that Ross was a responsible father.

He opened the door. 'Rach...'

She didnt say anything, she just flicked her fringe from her face and put her hand on her hip, trying to hide her anger and upset.

'Where have you been?' He questioned her, he looked worried. She noticed that he had red eyes, perhaps from crying. 'I...I just needed some time to myself Ross, otherwise we would have rowed for hours...' She told him, pushing past him into the apartment. He remained stood by the door, 'So you went out walking for 2 hours Rach? You really expect me to believe that?' He asked, slamming the door shut.

'Ross...I cant go through this again, I just want to go to bed and forget about tonight because I cant stand this rowing...'.

'We cant just forget tonight Rach, I go home tomorow and I need to straighten things out whether you want to or not..-'. He shouted.

'Wheres Emma?' She asked, avoiding the situation. 'Is she still asleep?' She asked, throwing her jacket down on the sofa before walking to Emma's bedroom. Ross walked quickly over her, blocking the door. 'Rach, will you just stop for a moment...I cant believe you are just going to forget tonight...Its something your always doing and this time..I'm not going to let it happen'.

'So what are you suggesting Ross huh? That we stand here all night and argue again? Because I dont know about you but I just dont have the energy...'.

He paused. 'Have you been drinking?' He asked her,still in the way of the door.

'Maybe...why?' She told him.

'So now you've been walking around on your own...but you also managed a drink aswell...what a load of bull---'.

'Oh cmon Ross! I dont have to explain myself to you...Your the one who made me walk out of her because of those things you said...so please just dont keep questioning me on my whereabouts ok?' She yelled.

He walked away from her. 'Well...I might aswell start packing for tomorow then, then I'll go to bed...' He said.

'Ok...fine'. She said, 'But you know something Ross...this isnt all my fault like you make it out to be...it was you who said those things before to me...they really really hurt me...and we could have just had a nice evening together but no..--'.

'Hey, Those things that I said...Yes, I know they hurt you...and Im sorry, ok?' He said.

'But you meant them though didnt you?' She asked him.

'Just let it go Rach...It was a spare of the moment thing, I was angry...you know the way you got angry yourself sometimes in the past and said things you didnt mean?' He reminded her. 'We're both guilty for that Rach...'.

'I know but..--'.

'If I thought those things of you, do you really think I would have loved you all these years huh?' He told her.

'Ok Ok...I accept your apology ok?' She told him. She put her hand on her head, 'I just dont know what we are anymore Ross...'.

He sat down now on the sofa, 'I know...but I know where I am, your just not in the same place are you?' He asked her.

There he was again, declaring his love for her again. She couldnt just let it brush past, she had to say something. 'Ross...I...I...'.

He looked up at her, she could see he was frustrated, and she knew just how he felt. 'I do...' She told him.

'You do what Rach?'

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

But I think we should take things slow

'I do...I do love you'. She told him again, staring at him now. A tear fell from her face, and her lips began to tremble. 'I'm so sorry...' She cried.

'You...You love me?' He asked her. He stood up now, keeping his distance but his eyes focused on her face as she poured out her feelings to him. They stood like that for hours, doing what they hadnt done in a long time. Being honest. Being open. They were both atlast in the right place at the same time.

We're just ordinary people

We dont know which way to go

We're just ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

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