Hello there, this is the part where Kagome is dead; to read what comes right before this you need to go to the part that says chapter 17B.


Giving up or moving on?

Ch. 18B Moving on?

Inuyasha went straight up to his room when he got home. He got into bed and stayed there for 3 days before his brother actually thought to come in and see if he was ok. Sesshomaru made him eat some food and go take a shower before letting him get back into the bed.

"Kagome would want you to be happy little brother. This is not what she would have wished for you to be doing with your life now," Sesshomaru said before turning to leave the room.

Now Inuyasha was stuck with the guilt because he knew what his brother said was true. Kagome was a person who wanted others happy... no matter what. Inuyasha rolled out of bed after contemplating for a few minutes and went down stairs. He ate some earlier but he was still hungry so he got some more food. As he say down to eat it Sesshomaru came back into the room and looked at him.

"Are you going to be ok?" he asked him little brother after watching him for a minute. Inuyasha just shrugged and didn't say anything back to him. "Why don't you go out today, go see some people and feel the sun for a while. It will do you good." Inuyasha nodded and finished his food before standing up and going out the front door. Sesshomaru signed and cleaned up the mess that his brother made.

Inuyasha walked without thinking where he was going. He walked for a little and arrived at the library. He shrugged and went inside and was going to look for a book to read that would keep his mind off of everything. When he went back to the section with the good fantasy books he stopped dead, there were two people sitting there kissing, they were so into it that they didn't even notice that Inuyasha was there.

He tried to ignore them but that first sight had pulled at his heart and he could feel some tears coming again. He grabbed a book that he knew Kagome had liked before and checked it out quickly, trying his best to get away from the library before he started crying.

When he went outside started walking again, not thinking about where, and ended up near the cemetery. He hesitated for a second before going in and walking over to where Kagome was buried. The earth was still soft and he could tell that it was very recently finished. He sat down in front of the headstone and traced the words "KAGOME HIGURASHI" with his finger.

"Hey Kagome, I miss you down here. I really do. I don't know how I am going to be able to just move on like so many people say I should. I still love you… and I always will. I got your favorite book here, would you like to hear some of it?" Inuyasha said to the stone, knowing that Kagome was listening from where ever she was.

He turned around and put his back against the headstone and started to read out loud to Kagome. 4 chapters into the book his back was starting to hurt and it was starting to get dark, he knew he had to go soon.

Slowly he closed the book and turned around again to look at the headstone. "I have to go now Kagome, it is getting late and you know how Sesshomaru is with me being late. I will be back sometime and keep reading to you I promise." As he stood up he felt the wind blow around and he could have sworn he felt what felt like a hand gently caressing his cheek. "I love you too Kagome," he said to her.

Later that night Inuyasha was sitting in front of his computer looking at the screen. Kagome's picture was still on it and he had forgotten about that when he turned it on to go online for a while. He was holding in the tears barely but they were under control for the moment. He signed on and started talking to some of his other friends.

As he was talking he thought about something. He opened his buddy list and found Kagome's screen name before deleting it from the list. She isn't gonna be on any more… As the name disappeared so did his control and he stared sobbing again. "I cant take this, I cant do it any more." He said to himself before getting up and going to the bathroom.

He opened the cabinet and took out some pills, sleeping pills. "I need to sleep… for a long time." He said quietly to himself before twisting the top off and tipping a bunch of pills into his hand. He threw them all into his mouth and swallowed them with some water. While they were going down his throat he thought about how many he had just taken. '14 sleeping pills… that should keep me sleeping for a while I think.'

He turned to go back to his room to sleep but he passed out before he was able to take 2 steps. With a thump he hit the ground and was out cold. Sesshomaru was coming in the house just as he hit the ground and he ran upstairs to see what happened.

He froze as he saw the bottle of pills on the sink and his brother on the floor. He pulled out his cell phone and called for an ambulance, explaining that he thought his brother overdosed on sleeping pills. When he hung up the phone he went to the bottle and looked inside. There were 4 pills left in it. 'I bought this bottle 3 days ago, I had 2 and there are 4 in here… so he took…14!' Sesshomaru started to panic; he hadn't thought Inuyasha would take that many pills. He ran to the front door and let in the people who were going to take Inuyasha to the hospital and showed then where he was so they could load him into the ambulance.

4 hours and a stomach pump later Sesshomaru looked at his brother as he started to wake up from his deep sleep. "Sess… what happened?"

"That is what I would like to know," Sesshomaru answered calmly.

Inuyasha groaned and put a hand to his head, "Ouch my head…. I took a couple sleeping pills so that I could sleep for a while and not worry about dreams or anything like that. I didn't think it would hurt like this though."

"YOU IDIOT! You took FOURTEEN PILS! HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THAT WOULD HURT YOU?" Sesshomaru yelled, which caused Inuyasha to flinch and hold his head with both hands.

"I'm sorry Sess… I didn't think… it was just… all so much… I'm sorry." Inuyasha said softly.

Sesshomaru calmed down and moved out of the way so the doctor could examine Inuyasha, he had heard Sesshomaru yelling and came to investigate. "He seems fine now, that headache will be gone soon don't worry about it. If you want to you can go home after you eat something," the doctor told them.

Inuyasha ate his food and as soon as he was done him and Sesshomaru went back to the house. On the way home they passed the cemetery and Inuyasha felt sad again. 'I'm sorry Kagome,' he thought. 'It didn't work like I planned, next time it will though I promise.'


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