DISCLAMER: I could only wish that I could own the characters from the wonderful and fabulous JKR and her wonderful world of Harry Potter.

Journal entry, June 20

The parents are arguing again, about the most mundane things. When the new things for the house are going to come in or if they were ordered yet. This happens so often that you would think that I would be use to it by now but I'm not. I wish that I could go some where I can't hear them, like the protections of my boyfriends house and arms but I can't.

How would I get there and get out of this house are just a few of the problems that I can't solve right now. Even in the dark solitude of my room I can still hear them.

They don't call it arguing but it sounds like that to me.

To others I'm the "perfect child" I can do no wrong in the eyes of my parents, but that's not true and I really don't like to be portrayed at the cold bastard that I am at school. I can't take it any more. Maybe I'll just end it and do something that would prove that I'm not the perfect person that I'm portrayed as.

I want some sort of control over my life and I have no idea how to get it, that control that is as allusive as the golden snitch. I could do the drastic thing and kill myself but that would kill my boyfriend too, he would be devastated and have nothing to fight for.

I promised him that I wouldn't do anything to intentionally harm myself so I can't start cutting again either.

I've finally decided what to do for the rest of the summer that I'm locked in this house like a prisoner. Well I'm not really but what else can I do? Where else can I go? Who else can I see? There is nowhere I can go, nothing else that I can do and no one else that I can go and see.

I am going to retreat into my mind, where I can't hear the yelling, the screaming and I am going to read. Nothing else except eat and sleep. That's it. I'm done. I'll see you at the start of the school year.

Fini.

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This story was prompted by: parents arguing and all of the wonderful fanfics I've read!