Title goes here… lol

Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN GREYS ANATOMY… you wish I did though

About: all the characters…. Mostly der/mer, some cris/burke, and I'll throw in others

Rating: umm same as GA

Chapter 1 – oh and Katie gave some ideas!


"YOU'RE MARRIED?" Meredith screamed as Addison introduced herself. "You have got to be kidding me." Meredith closed her eyes and wished everything would return normal when she opened them… unfortunately that didn't happen. Glancing at Derek and showing him anger, she turned and stormed out the building.

Derek immediately ran after her, throwing disbelieving looks at Addison who just stood there admiring what scene she had just created.

As she was walking out, she bumped into George and Izzie and she didn't want them to see her like this.

"Meredith! Hey, we were just on our way home, care to join us?" Izzie offered brightly.

Meredith quickly wiped away the tears that were streaming out. "Oh umm hey guys, no you go ahead... I'll catch up later." She said trying to stop the shaking in her voice.

Izzie could see that Meredith needed some alone time, but didn't know why, so she grabbed George by the arm and walked out understandingly. "OK, see ya."

At this time, the discontented Derek had caught up to her. "Meredith please let me explain, it's not like that..." he said softly.

"EXPLAIN WHAT?" Meredith yelled, her face turning a burning red. "There's nothing to explain except for the fact that you're married and you just couldn't tell me! Derek, just get out of my way, it's the most you can do"

Derek obeyed. "Will you call me later?" he asked desperately.

"I don't know just yet." Answered Meredith, her eyes fogging up again as she shuffled away from Derek and headed towards her car.

Derek just stood there, motionless with a sick feeling in his stomach and a lump in his throat.

Meredith drove home in a horrible state; she couldn't help thinking about Derek and what had happened. She kept trying to get to the good side of the story and that Derek hadn't tried to hurt her, but in the end, the only conclusion she ended up to was Addison.

As she was pulling up the driveway, she decided that she didn't want to confront Izzie and George with what had just happened. Meredith put the car in reverse, backed out and headed for the local pub.

She just couldn't clear the fact that Addison had said "so you're the woman who's been screwing my husband", why had she chosen that particular word: screwing? She would have liked to think more of their Derek and hers "relationship". As Meredith entered, she was greeted with a hearty wave from Jonathan, the pub owner. She tried to force a convincing smile towards him. But that didn't work well. She had a couple beers and left. What the hell is going on? Meredith thought to herself as she was walking out of the bar. Why the fuck did this have to happen? Life was good; I was having a good time. Then BANG, some lady just parades through and crushes over my toes. Damn it hurts. Meredith gets so drunk she has trouble walking out or otherwise stumbling out. She almost falls as she opens her car door and steps in. Laying back, she closed her eyes and just shuts down.

Knock, knock. "Huh?" Meredith gasped waking up to a shadowy figure at her window. She strained her eyes to see that it was only Jonathan, the bartender.

"Hey, you've been out here for almost an hour now, I was worried something was up. So I came to check up on you." Answered Jonathan with care.

"Oh, right." Replied Meredith, shaking her head, it was still quite dizzy from all the alcohol. "Thanks, I'll see you later." She said heading home.

God, what time is it? Oh CRAP it's already 2 AM. Only 2 more hours till pre-rounds. Meredith decided she would make best of her last two hours and just mellow out and relax.

As she was pulling up the driveway, she saw a familiar figure hunched over her doorstep. She quickly shut off her engine and walked over hesitantly.

"Oh my God, Derek what are you doing here?" she exclaimed unsurprised and angry that he had choose to come see her.

"Well, isn't it kind of obvious? I came to see and apologize to you. And I was worried about where you were because you didn't return any of my calls and George and Izzie hadn't seen you since that… what happened back in the hospital…" he answered sorrowfully.

Meredith could see the sadness in his eyes. But she was determined not to give in to him, although she knew he meant well. "Look Derek, I can't do this."

"Will you just please let me explain the whole Addison deal?" he asked with a hint of impatience. He moved closer to put his arms around her. At first, he felt her tenseness, but she soon relaxed and accepted the hug. "Addison and I met back in med school, we were crazy and in love with each other. I truly don't know what happened but we somehow got married towards the end of our internship. We were both young and clueless. But soon afterwards, she started seeing this other guy, Steven to be exact, and I knew him…well, because he and I were best buddies. I just couldn't take her back after that, so I filed up a divorce, she just was…IS stubborn and wouldn't sign it. After about a year of remorse, I just packed up, loaded my trailer and just drove and drove away from the pain and Addison." He explained hurtful and mortified.

Meredith could see the pain in his eyes and his usually strong and clear voice. He finally let go of her gently.

"Meredith, I am madly sorry." He finished with a quaking voice.

"I am too." Meredith looked up to see unmistakable, glittering drops of tears rolling slowly down Derek's cheeks. "I just wish you would have told me earlier on." She said.

"I wanted to, so much. I was always trying to find a right time and place for it. It just never showed up. Until the real thing did…"

Meredith headed for her front door, showing signs that this conversation was over. But Derek had other ideas. He grabbed her arm gently and pulled her towards his chest, and gave her a passionate kiss. "Please forgive me." He whispered.

Her first intent was just to give in there and now, just break down into soberness. But truth overcame that and she pulled away forlornly. "I'm sorry Derek, but I just can't do that right now." She answered, her beautiful eyes filling up with tears, she bit her lip, turned and opened the door.

With the door still ajar, and one hand on the doorknob, she looked at him "I'm sorry Derek. Just give me some time and space. Please." She completed, her voice breaking into a thousand pieces…and with that she entered and shut to door.

Derek knew that was coming, but hell, at least she knows what really happened. So he didn't have to go home empty handed. He headed towards his car and drove home, thinking. Well at least I got to her, she knows the truth now…just give her some time, she'll pull through it, Meredith's strong.

Well… not at this moment. Meredith had just practically shut Derek out of her life…for now. She collapsed down to the floor and just sat against the door, her eyes buried in her hands and just sobbed.

Moments later, she felt a hand around her shoulders. She thought it was Derek. But soon found out it was only Izzie. She had come down, sat besides her friend and sympathized with her. Meredith felt good that she had caring friends near her. George came moments later carrying three mugs of coffee and sat by Meredith's other side, and handed a coffee to each of them.

Meredith was starting to calm down and feel better. But that sensation soon ended when she heard her alarm go off in her upstairs bedroom. She would have to face Derek once again in half an hour. She got up, gave each George and Izzie a hug to show how much she was grateful to them and started getting ready for work.

Damn it! Was all she thought.


ok the end! Let me know what you think, if its good… I'll type some more…if not….well, we'll see