A/N: Sorry about the mistakes in that chapter but I really wanted to get it up before I left the house so I didn't have time to check it over. This one is for: Alexis, 2good4u, Kursk, FateGirl, Doves30, auggy1984, goldenflower, summerith, britney123 and Svocfanatic.
Disclaimer: The O.C is not mine
By the time Jeremy had left Lunch was on and everyone except for Ryan was gathered at the back. Marissa said that he wasn't feeling well. They laughed and talked all through lunch and had a really good time. Everyone was enjoying themselves. But when they were done Marissa retired to the kitchen, Seth and the kids went into the pool house and Summer grabbed a plate of food and went up to see Ryan.
She knocked and waited a minute but he didn't say anything so she just walked in. He was still standing by the window staring out when Summer approached
" Hey Ry, I ahh brought you some food" She said
" Thanks, not hungry though" His tone was cold and bitter
" Why are you mad at me?" She questioned
" I'm not" He replied
" I know you Ryan and I know when your mad at someone so right now I know your mad at me" She told him
" Why don't you just go and ask your precious Seth, he's got all the answers right?" He said in the same cold tone
" Whoa, where did that come from? I thought you were over the Seth thing"
" Yeah well maybe I'm not" He spat at her
" Could you look at me Ryan? Could you look at me and tell me what this is really about," She practically begged
He finally turned around and looked her straight in the eye
" Fine you wanna know what this is about? Well just remember you asked for it. I find it funny how for 8 years you've mourned Seth you've cried over him, you've yelled over him and you've even resisted moving on with anyone because of him and I seem to remember a conversation that we had a few weeks ago about you telling me you were finally getting over Seth and then he turns up and you yell at him for like one second, even though he left you, even though he was too cowardly to face up to his problems, even though he caused you so much pain and you just forget all that, the minute he flashes you a smile you fall straight into his arms again.
I don't get it Summer, I don't get what the hell your so obsessed with about Seth, I mean come on you didn't even know he existed until you were in junior year, so tell me Summer how is it that one minute its Cohen who? Then the next minutes he's all you think about and he consumes your every thought for 8 fucken years?"
A silence followed that, but not a stunned one for Summer had been expecting this ever since Ryan and Seth's fight
" You done" She asked somewhat calmly
" Yeah"
She took a deep breath, preparing to fight back
" I know that I was a bitch in High School and I know that Cohen wasn't even on my radar until you showed up, but when we got together I loved him, I loved him more then life itself and I wanted to be with him forever. You cant honestly tell me that you don't still care about Theresa because I know you do, I see it in your eyes every time you look at Bridge, well that's exactly what its like for me. Every day that I looked at Jacob I thought about Seth and how happy he's made me in the time we were together. Because as much as I tried to deny it I was miserable before Seth came along. I mean sure I played the role of the sluty girl who was always smiling but inside I was dying. For once in my life I just wanted someone that would love me for me, not just someone who wanted to get in my pants, and when Seth came along I knew straight away that he was different and so I put my wall down, the wall that I had spent 16 years building up and I let him in and I knew that my life would change forever.
You don't understand Ryan, you don't know what its like to lose the one person you love, to lose the person that can make you smile even when your feeling like crap and the person that you trusted, when you lose that person you'll always hold out hope that one day they'll come back even though you know that its probably never gonna happen"
Tears were streaming down Summer's face and Ryan looked on guiltily
" Summer I'm so…." He started
" Save it Ryan" She spat back
She ran out of the room and into the one next door, which just happened to be Seth's. He was lying on the bed when she entered but hopped up the minute she rushed in
" Summer hey…. What's wrong?"
" Cohen" She whispered before rushing into his arms. He protectively wrapped his arms around her and began stroking her hair gently
" I'm so sorry Cohen, I love you," She murmured into his shirt
" Shh Sum, its gonna be ok" He tried to comfort her
" No you don't understand, I love you Seth"
" I love you too Sum" He offered
She looked up at him and smiled through the tears, and even though Mascara was running down her face and her hair was a mess to him she had never looked more beautiful. So he leaned down and kissed her, she responded by kissing him back. But when she pulled back he took her hand and laid her on the bed, then he snuggled in next to her and together, in each other's arms, they fell asleep…
xxCassiexx
