A/N: This chapter was hard for me to write so I really hope you guys like it, even though it's probably not what you were expecting. Ok so this one is for: Alexis, Ellynne, Rachel, Seth Ezekiel, music4mysoul, Svocfanatic, kittotterkat, PrincessSparkle09, Summer-Breeze171, goldenflower, Kursk and auggy1984.
Also to Seth Ezekiel: Yes Jacob did/does call Seth Dad because Seth is his Dad!
Disclaimer: The O.C is not mine
Ryan and Seth were in the corner; each had a glass of something in their hands. It was obvious Ryan was drunk, but Seth however, was still on his feet
" I don't think I've ever actually seen you drunk bro" Seth commented with a laugh
" Whats are you talkin bout? I aint drunks" Ryan slurred, Seth sighed and helped Ryan over to Marissa
" So listen Maris, we've gotta get Ryan home- now, he's major drunk" Seth told Marissa while still supporting Ryan
" Well you can't leave, the party is for you" Marissa responded
" Umm if you haven't noticed Marissa no one has made any effort to speak to me, it's obvious there only hear so they don't look bad, there not here for me, there not here to welcome me back with open arms" Seth told her honestly and bluntly
" Ok, lets go then" Was Marissa's response
" I'll get Jay and Bridge and meet you guys in the car" Summer joined the conversation
" Ok, hey I'm gonna say bye to the folks" Seth told her
" Ok, I'll get Ryan to the car" Marissa said, walking off
Seth walked over to the bar where Kirsten and Sandy were sitting
" So were gonna head off, Ryan's not ahh feeling too well" Seth told them
" Ok sweetie, we'll drop past tomorrow to see you all" Kirsten replied
" Ok bye Mom, Dad"
He walked off and was joined by Summer and the kids at the door. They all hopped in the car and Jacob jumped in between Seth and Summer, resting his head on Summer's lap and his legs on Seth
" So Dad did you get to see Dylan?" Jacob asked eagerly
" Nah sorry mate, I guess I'll have to meet him some other day" Seth responded
" He's coming over tomorrow so you can meet him then" Jacob countered
" Cool, Ryan you ok dude?" Seth questioned
Ryan was half asleep, he looked like he was gonna sick any second. He nodded before yelling " I think I'm gonna be sick, pull over"
Marissa obeyed and Ryan shoved the door open and hopped out. Inside the car everyone could hear Ryan being sick
" What's wrong with Daddy?" Bridget asked innocently
" Its ok sweetheart he's just feeling a bit sick, like remember last week when you had the flu and you were very sick" Summer offered
Bridget nodded " Well I hope he gets all better"
" Don't worry babe he'll be fine by tomorrow" Seth told her
At that moment Ryan re entered the car. His eyes were blood shot and he still had vomit on his mouth. He quickly wiped his face, shut the door and collapsed on the chair
" Eww" Was Jacob's reaction
Seth laughed " I can't believe my son just said eww, now that is scary"
" Oi, I take offense to that Cohen" Summer said
The rest of the journey was spent in basic silence with a few comments here and there. Seth helped Marissa drag a now asleep Ryan inside and upstairs and then helped put Bridget and Jacob in bed. He walked into the kitchen unnoticed and stood in the shadows on the stairs while Marissa and Summer talked
"…. So that's why he wanted to leave the party so early" Marissa gasped, finally understanding
" Yeah, do you think I'm stupid Coop?" Summer asked, a somewhat desperate tone in her voice
" Why would I think that?" Marissa questioned, not quite understanding where Summer was going
" I don't know, maybe Ryan was right, maybe…maybe I'm stupid for letting Seth back in, I mean can I ever really trust him again?" Summer was confused
" Whoa Sum, where's this coming from? Earlier today you were saying how much you wanted him and how maybe you were starting to forgive him," Marissa stated
" I know, I'm just so confused, I mean yeah I want him- so bad, seriously you don't even know how bad, I cant stop thinking about him, but then I think about everything I went through without him and I feel hurt and used and I don't like it, I don't know what to do Maris, I think I need to sleep on it" Summer said, genuinely tired
" But I though that…." Marissa started
" I've waited 8 years, what's another night or two gonna do, could you just give this to him when he come down?
Marissa nodded as Summer walked outside. Seth waited a minute before entering. And even though he knew that when he received what ever it was Summer was giving to him, it would break his heart he plastered on a smile and bravely walked down the rest of the stairs
" Hey Marissa, where's Summer?" He questioned, as if nothing was wrong
If he didn't already know Marissa's face said it all " Here" Was all that she could muster as she passed him what looked like a note. He smiled politely as Marissa walked past him and up the stairs. He unfolded the paper and read:
Seth,
Look I know that I promised you that we'd… you know tonight but I'm sorry I just cant…not yet anyway, you understand right? I just, I'm finding it hard to let you back in, I remember everything we went through and I don't regret any of it, the year Ryan arrived in Orange County was the best and the worst year of my life and listen I know your sorry I really do but…. I cant go back and just pretend that none of it happened, I cant pretend that you were here when I know you really weren't, I cant go to that place just yet, I need time and space to think and just to…I don't know what else, all I know is that I'm really sorry and I want you to know that this isn't the end of us, far from it, I wish I could go back, I really do but the truth is we'll never be like The Way We Were.
Sorry XxSummerxX
The tears were clearly visible on his face, even in the dim light of the kitchen, he walked back upstairs and into his room and as he grabbed the duffel bag from under his bed he knew that he wouldn't regret what he was about to do….
XxCassiexx
