Disclaimer: It all belongs to Meg Cabot. Well obviously not the whole story because Meg would have done a much better job of it but all the characters and stuff is hers.

For Your Love

Chapter 5

We carried on talking for hours. Jesse told me all about his sisters which was cool seeing as he'd never spoken about them to me before. I told him a bit about myself but didn't say anything that would sound too weird.

It was great to just have a normal conversation with Jesse with no mention of Paul or the latest ghosts that were giving me grief. And the best bit was that there was no awkwardness between us. That had been a rare thing ever since our first kiss. Sure, things had gotten better after we officially got together but I know now that Jesse had never actually been comfortable with our relationship. The way he left me was enough proof of that.

But for now we didn't have to worry about any of that and it was wonderful. I really didn't want it to end but eventually Jesse went, "We should probably go in."

"Just a bit longer," I said, staring at the ocean as it glistened in the moonlight, "I like it here and we have to leave tomorrow."

I knew Jesse was right as it was getting cold out and I hadn't thought to bring a jacket or anything with me but I was enjoying myself and I knew that when I had done what I came here to do I'd have to face Paul. What if he had already realised that his book was gone? I'd been planning to slip it into his bag at school and just hope he wouldn't figure out what I'd done. But if he found out about it then he would totally get in the way.

"I know," Jesse said softly, "fine, just a little bit longer then."

He paused for a minute then said, "It's a shame that we might not see each other after tomorrow."

I looked at him and said, "You never know, we might."

For once I could actually read Jesse's expression, he was sad. Sad that I had to leave. Me, Susannah Simon, who he had known for a matter of hours. I was thrilled he actually cared. Only then I realised that this really wasn't something to be thrilled about. When I left it was going to be one hundred and fifty years before Jesse saw me again. And when he did see me I wouldn't even recognise him. How horrible would that be? Trust me to end up doing something like this. No wonder Jesse dumped me. Paul should just leave me alone before it's too late and I end up seriously hurting him too. Not that that would be such a bad thing but whatever, either way works for me.

Jesse was about to say something when I heard someone cough behind us. I turned around and to my horror Paul was standing there. Which was way creepy since I had just been thinking about him. I thought it was only Jesse who came (or used to anyway) when I thought about him. But that was only because Jesse was a ghost and Paul was looking pretty much alive at that point. But anyway there he was, standing behind us, looking totally out of place in all his modern clothing. It was actually kind of funny to think that Jesse, in his cowboy/pirate outfit, was the fashionable one out of us for once- oh my God what am I talking about? Paul follows me into 1850 and all I can think about is how stupid we must look.

Yes, my priorities are seriously messed up; it's no secret.

Now, back to a slightly more important issue...

"Paul," I squeaked, "what are you doing here?"

"Just checking up on you," he said with a smirk.

"Really?" I said wishing there was some way I could get rid of him, because I know for a fact that you don't travel one hundred and fifty years back in time to 'just check up' on someone. Paul was up to something. "Well, I'm fine," I continued, "So you can go now."

Paul seemed amused. "And leave you here?" He asked, "I don't think so. Who knows what trouble you could get into."

I could see that by now Jesse was looking seriously confused. "Susannah, who is this?" He asked, "I thought you said you were here alone."

"I did," I replied, "Paul must have followed me that's all." I turned to Paul; "I'm not leaving with you so you can just forget about that. Now tell me what you want then get lost."

Paul grinned at me and said, "I just thought you should know that what you are doing is pointless."

"What?" I asked sharply.

"I know what you took my book for, Suze, and I'm telling you now that it's not going to work."

No, I couldn't believe this. I had really thought that Jesse and I could finally be together and now Paul was telling me that it wasn't true. "And why is that?" I asked hesitantly.

"Because I'm not going to let it work."

That totally did not make me feel any better. Sure, it meant that there was nothing wrong with the spell and there was still a chance that it would work but let's face it, despite the fact that I was starting to get over the events in the shadowland when Jesse and I were stuck there, Paul still scared me sometimes. And this was one of those times. I mean, there he was telling me to my face that he was going to sabotage my only chance at ever being with Jesse. Why does my life have to suck so much?

"Well I'd better be going now," Why, more lives to go ruin eh Paul? I thought bitterly. "You coming Suze?"

I didn't move so Paul went, "Fine by me," then walked off.

Why do all these bad things have to happen to me? As if my life isn't already screwed up enough.

"Susannah?" I turned to Jesse and he asked, "What was he talking about? Are you all right?"

"It doesn't matter," I told him, "you wouldn't understand."

Jesse looked at me for a minute while I just wondered if my life could possibly get any worse then he reached out and wiped a tear of my face. Yes, I admit it I was crying, only a little though. Who can blame me anyway after everything that's happened to me recently?

Jesse said, "Don't cry Susannah. I'm sure everything will be alright."

Which only made me feel worse because everything wasn't going to be all right, for either of us. Jesse looked at me sadly. Ugh! This was terrible why couldn't I have just jumped onto the porch roof and got out that way when I heard him coming? The fact that he saw me was going to change the future and what if something bad happened because of it? See, I am such a loser! I can't even go back in time with out messing things up. Father Dom was always going on about how I'm always getting myself into trouble and -

Only then I kind of forgot about the stuff Father Dom has said because Jesse leaned in and kissed me.

A/N: And that's where my inspiration just runs out. Well for this chapter anyway because I think I've got the basic plot for the story. The thing is I'd already written this chapter and when I read over it I just didn't like it that much so I changed it and stuck Paul in there for a bit of fun. Only then I couldn't think of what was going to happen next so I'm just leaving it for now seeing as I've already taken quite a while on this chapter and I'll have a think then hopefully update soon as it's half term right now (Yay!). Anyway, as usual, thanks for the reviews. More please?