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Chapter 6
It was only a short kiss but it was enough to make me think that maybe I wasn't being so evil after all. Which, of course, was utter crap because it was evil. I was just telling myself what I wanted to hear. I couldn't help it though Jesse was kissing me! My brain wasn't functioning properly and I really didn't know any better.
Anyway as I said the kiss didn't last long and when Jesse pulled away he –in typical Jesse fashion- went and apologised. And seeing as I hadn't quite recovered from the kiss and my brain was still part goo, I went, "What are you apologising for Jesse?" Which, now I think about it, isn't all that bad, I mean, if he likes me then it's too late to change any thing, right? So I would only be making things worse by pretending I'm not madly in love with him wouldn't I?
Or am I just doing that telling myself what I want to hear thing again?
Whatever. Anyway, Jesse was all, "I shouldn't have done that."
Which was complete nonsense. Or was it? Oh, I don't know any more! That's what I was thinking at the time though. That it was nonsense, I mean. So then I was like, "But I'm glad you did."
It was like that word vomit thing from Mean Girls, you know? I totally couldn't control it.
And then, just as I was thinking, oh shitsticks, when am I going to learn to control my big mouth? Jesse kissed me again and my goo-like state returned full force. Instantly everything was perfect. Well that's what it felt anyway because really everything was far from perfect. But with Jesse I could just forget about Paul and his fixation with trying to ruin my life. For now it didn't matter.
Eventually we broke apart and Jesse smiled down at me kind of sadly.
"It's late," he said, "We should get some sleep if we are going to be travelling tomorrow."
I nodded, in a sort of daze, and we stood and headed back to the house.
"I am sure we will meet again some day Susannah," Jesse said, looking down at me.
Suddenly it all came back to me. We would meet again, in one hundred and fifty years. I felt like crying. I really did. How could I have let this happen?
Jesse must have picked up on the fact that I was suddenly very depressed because he stopped and put his hands on my shoulders then said, sounding very determined, "We will see each other again."
Fighting back tears, I nodded, "I know."
We reached the house and Jesse got me a room. Right before we went into them Jesse said, "I will see you tomorrow before I leave wont I?"
I nodded glumly. It was a lie, of course, but what else was I supposed to do?
Jesse smiled, "Well," he said, "good night querida."
"Good night Jesse," I replied and with a forced smile I went into my room.
A/N: I'm sorry it's so short but this was supposed to be part of the last chapter I just couldn't think how to end it last time. Thank you to UnangelicHalo and DancinSweethart for being the only reviewers of the last chapter. Love ya! And don't worry about the changing the future thing I've got it all sorted.
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