Sean was still sitting and completely stunned. Had Emma just told him that she still loved him or was it all a dream? Either way he didn't think he would ever hear her say those words. It wasn't like he had ever heard them before because he himself never told her that he loved her when they were dating. But then again whenever something got good and he was ready to say it he would screw up. It was kind of depressing.

Of course Sean loved her. How could he not? They were true first loves and it wasn't just because they had gone out so many times. It was the fact that they could get back together each of those times after their break ups. It showed how strong they both were and how much they really wanted things to work. Most important it showed how much they truly cared for each other.

In Wasaga Beach Sean was thinking about Emma and not Ellie which is why he invited Emma to come up to see him. Sean wanted to make sure that all of his thoughts and dreams that lead him to Emma were telling him something and not just because of the shooting.

A few days later Sean tried talking to Emma but she kept avoiding him. She was ignoring him because after she told him that

Dear Emma,
You won't talk to me. Ever since the other day you have been ignoring me. I don't know if it's because you are embarrassed or if it's because you just plain old hate me. But if you are embarrassed please don't be. I am completely speechless though. I didn't know you felt that way about me. I know I led you on over the summer and I am sorry about that. It's just it was you and me and I was caught in the moment – and yes I was all of the times we kissed. I know it sounds mean and cruel and you are probably getting mad as you read this but please don't. You have to understand. I thought we were over. I mean we are over. We are finished. There is no us anymore and there hasn't been for a really long time. It's just over the summer I kept having dreams about you and then nightmares about the shooting. I figured that it was a sign which is why I invited you to come visit me. We had a bunch of great times I know that. I kissed you all of those times to see if I really did feel something for you. Well I did and then I didn't. I still love Ellie a lot Emma. I am not good at this stuff so go easy on me if you decide to talk. You'd figure that I am an expert at breaking hearts but I'm not. I don't know how else to say this without making you cry or feel hurt but I don't have any other choice. Emma Nelson, you will always have a place in my heart. You are a great person and a great friend. I hope we can still be friends after all of this. But the thing is… well how do I put this? Emma I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry. Ellie is who I love right now and she's what I need. Not you.

PS Emma, here are some lyrics I thought might express how I feel better than I did because I'm not good at this emotional expressing your feelings type of thing. But once again I am truly sorry. Oh and here is a picture of us. I found it last night when I was going through some old things. Keep it if you wish.

Girl I loved you and I apologize
Still I don't know the reason so I
So I can't tell you why
I hurt the one I loved, made you cry
Girl I know that I messed up
And it hurts me so deep inside

Well, oh I wish I could go back in time
So I could fix up my mistake
Make everything alright
Girl I know, just what is on your mind
Couldn't blame if you hated me, for the rest of my life

Always,
Sean

When Emma was finished reading the note she just burst into tears. He tried not breaking her heart again huh? Right. Well next time he better actually try instead of pretending too. Emma knew exactly what she was going to do. She was going to write Sean something except it wasn't going to be as "sincere" as his. Instead it was going to be mean and cruel. And it was going to have the meanest lyrics she could find written in it.

Dear Sean,
I'm sorry. Truth is I don't love you. I was caught in the moment as well when I spent the summer with you. Actually, I just told you I loved you the other day to see if you would actually believe me. I'm laughing write now as I write this because you did believe me. Poor pathetic Sean Cameron believed me. And I really truly mean it when I say poor and pathetic. You know I could go on but I'm not going to waist much more of my time. All you need to know is that you will not have a place in my heart and I do not want to be friends with you. Not ever in a million years would I be friends with an ex boyfriend who for fun steals his ex girlfriend's step dad's lap top after dumping her because she had no time. Sean we have never been friends and I would like to keep it that way. You just wanted action back up in Wasaga and you knew I'd give it to you after what I did with Jay. Too bad you weren't going to get any of that. Jay may be a jackass but he is nothing compared to you. You are Sean Cameron the 'got not nothing to say' boy. But you know what that's fine because I could give a fuck about you. Have a great life with Vampire Chick. Oops I meant Ellie Nash the Cutter of Degrassi.

PS Sean, I have some lyrics for you. Too bad they aren't as sincere as yours. Ha. That's a laugh. You probably just used a love song or something and added past tense on the word love to make it loved. Real nice Sean.

No despair anymore, your image it is diseased
I
am a knife in your back, a constant reminder of what it could be
You are doomed to repeat all the things that you do
Right decision, to be true to myself and forever hate you

Misery from the time you were born
Repeat the past as you've always before
Reap it; want no part of your lie
Keep your mistruths and remove you from sight
Guilty from the start of the game
As like before with the ending the same
Hatred has you trapped in its womb
Never will I have compassion for you

Forever and Always Hating You,
Emma Nelson aka Environmental Crusader

Emma finished writing the note to Sean and then walked over to his apartment. She thought it would be best to see his reaction when he read it. When she got to Sean's she rang the doorbell and Sean answered. Emma greeted Sean and then asked if Ellie was home. He said no and then Emma handed him the piece of paper. It took Sean about five minutes to read it because he was so shocked and was trying to read every word carefully to make sure he wasn't reading things wrong. When he finished reading it he looked at Emma and was about to say something to her but Emma rose her hand and slapped him hard across the face. After that she slammed the door to his apartment and left.