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Chapter fife
Finally you said it
Heiji walked inside her room. The room he had seen so many times before and yet it seemed somehow different to him today. The faint light that creeped inside the moment he opened the door to step through was not quite enough to light the room. He slowly and quietly closed the door behind him again and stepped a step into the dark room.
The window that was on the opposite wall was the only source of light. On the right side, against the wall, was Kazuhas bed, with the head of it placed directly against the wall. He could make her out because her contures were illuminated by the moonlight. She was sitting on her bed, the legs on the ground and her head down, sobbing quietly, facing the window.
It hurt him deeply to see her like this. Even more kowing he was the reason for her pain. In the second that followed, he decided everything, his whole life. In one second. Only one second.
'How could I be so stupid? Stupid! Thinking he might… oh I am so stupid!' Kazuha thought angrily as she sobbed some more. She wished Heiji had gone already so that he had not to listen to her pathetic sobbing. She really did not know what demon had possessed her. She was so naïve! So stupid! Damn, it hurts so much!
"Oh Heiji!" her sobbing increased, thinking she had lost forever any chance with him.
She jumped slightly as she felt two arms come around her shoulders, making it impossible for her to move her upper body. She turned her head and was surprised all over again to find Heiji kneeling on the bed behind her, hugging her from behind.
"Heiji, what..?"
"Please dont cry anymore!" he whispered into her ear, moving one hand briefly up to brush her tears away.
Kazuha was now more than confused. What was going on? But his body close to hers felt way too nice for her to struggle much. She soon leaned back against him. Then she felt Heiji fall backwards on his behind, spreading his legs on each side of her. Then he pulled her back, seating her between his legs and hugged her as closely as he could to himself.
"I know what you wanted to tell me, and I am glad you did not!"
She turned her head surprised to look at him with hurt and questioning eyes, thinking he did detest her feelings for him or the idea of them together.
"Why?" she found her voice surprisingly steady enough to form these words while tears appeared in her beautiful eyes.
"Because I am supposed to be the one who should say it first."
Suddenly she really wondered if they were still talking about the same thing. What in all heavens did he think she wanted to tell him?
"Heiji, what?" she was so confused, he could hear it in her voice. But Heiji only tightened his embrace around her, enveloping her protectively in his strong arms, rubbing her arms gently. He pressed her tightly to himself from behind and felt her jaw drop open at his following words.
"I love you, Kazuha- chan!"
Her heart failed working for a few seconds. Kazuha turned around in his arms as quickly as she could, looking into his face with shocked features and open mouth.
"YOU WHAT?"
"I love you." He repeated himself, looking deeply into her eyes this time. She hit both her hands in front of her mouth, looking shocked at him. Then her vision was blurred a little as tears started puring from her eyes. Fresh tears, old tears and yet different ones. Those were not tears of despair and sorrow like before, but tears of pure happiness.
She shook her head while looking at him the best she could, not able to believe he had just said the words that she had longed for her whole life to hear.
"It is true.. I am sorry I pushed you away before, but it felt wrong that you should tell them first.. its just.. sorry… there were so many times I wanted to tell you but never had the courage to do so. Like the time when we both got kidnapped. It was even worse because I really thought I was going to lose you and then I kind of promised you that once we were safe I would tell you what I wanted but then I lied because I was so afraid. Stupid of me, I know, always having such a big mouth and being afraid of your reaction. And then you before, taking all your courage to finally say it…" he took a deep breath, having said all this in one breath.
She was only looking at him with wide eyes, absolutely struggling with herself to not lose consciousness as she shook her head.
"You have always been there for me, always standing by my side. Always took care that nothing evil might harm me, and even if it had been only a good luck charm in my pocket that you had prepared for me because you yourself could not be near me in my exploration. By the way, I am convinced that they saved my live more than once. Just like you did, in so much more ways than just physically. I dont even want to imagine how my life would have looked like without you. Alone the imagination is trist and sad and so unpleasant I dont even want to think about it for another second. And as I saw you this sad this week, and with the whole thing with Kudo and Neechan I realized that I have taken you for granted. That I was telling myself every day: Well, you can tell her tomorrow. Always tomorrow. But then you were standing in this doorway just an hour ago, looking all hot and beautiful in this dress and the next thing I know is you on my lap, kissing me, and my self protection melting and I.. oh Kazuha!"
He was looking down in shame of his weakness, not able to stand this feeling of being completely vulnerable and bare. She could only stare at him, still in pure shock. Her head- shaking got harder and suddenly she threw herself into his arms, knocking him backwards and off the bed with her on top. They landed with a loud 'thud' but neither cared as she showerd his face with kisses.
"Oh Heiji, Heiji, Heiji, finally! I cant believe it! Finally you said it! Oh Heiji! Thats so unbelieveable and oh Heiji!" She kissed everything she could reach, tightening her death grip on him. He did not seem to mind for he only held her body closer to his and stroked her hair and back lovingly. Suddenly she stopped and looked into his eyes, deep and thoroughly. Then she moved and took his face between her hands.
"I love you, too, Heiji! I love you so much!" she bend down and catched his lips in a sweet and passionate kiss and this time he did not push her away. He only tightened his own grip on her and responded to her kiss the best he could. For Kazuha everything was spinning. The whole world seemed like it had stopped existing, like everything except them was so irrelevant.
She did not even notice right away that Heiji had stood up with her in his arms and had gently lay her down on her soft bed, his lips never parting from hers as they continued kissing like as if their lives depended on it. Like as if they had waited for their whole lives for this one moment. Which, in some way, they really had done.
After the need to breath had rose to an unbearable point, they broke apart slowly, Heiji pulling back a little but never too far. He never wanted to be seperated from her ever again. Their combined breathing was playing across their faces as they once more got lost in each others eyes. Never had her eyes held this passion, never had her face been shining like it did right now. Never had he looked so wild and yet loving to her.
Heiji pulled a hand slowly to her face and started stroking her cheek with the back of it, enjoying the soft skin underneath his fingers.
"Oh Kazuha… my Kazuha- chan!" he whispered while studying every inch of her face exactly, amazed by her beauty once again.
She smiled oh so sweetly at him and pulled with her arms his head down to hers again, not being able to get enough of him, and started kissing him with rising passion. He smiled against her lips but needed no second invitation to respond to the kiss, only moving his hand up to gently stroke her hair. He giggled as he heard her moan of disapproval after he had pulled away from her lips. He was still kneeling on top of her and slowly started removing each pearl that was in her hair. Done, he pulled her hair open, letting it fall all around her head, making it look like a halo. With his long fingers he combed her soft hair gently, his mild gaze smiling down at her in wonder and admiration.
Suddenly she turned him over so that he fell backwards on the bed, and pinned his arms down. He grinned up at her and she replied with a wicked grin.
"What are you going to do with me now?" he asked in mock fear.
"Oh I dont know, I could torture you for so long or tickle to till you explode or…" she suddenly stopped her teasing as she looked into his eyes. She let go of his wrists and lay down on top of him, already sick of everything that might prevent her for too long to be near him, making herself comfortable on top of him, reminding on a cat curling on a fluffy pillow. She laced one leg between his, her head on his chest, arms holding on to his sides.
Heiji just smiled and quickly had her in his arms, stroking her hair, her neck and back, then hugging her again closer to himself. He had his eyes closed in bliss but opened them as he heard her murmur something into his chest.
"Ran was right!" she paused and he looked down at her in wonder.
"About what?"
She buried herself as deep in him as she could and only tightened her grip on him.
"It really IS absolute bliss."
Heiji smiled warmly as he bend down and kissed her on top of her head with all the love he had for this beautiful creature that was lying on top of him before taking her once more in his protective embrace.
Although this position was wery comfortable, and both would have liked to just fall asleep in each others arms, they did not. Could not, for their heart beats were still beating in record time. It was almost like as if a deep, burning, unstoppable fire that had lay hidden within them for what seemed like forever had suddenly broken through. It was so strong it could not be sufficated that easely, not even by tiredness.
Heijis caresses on her back became longer, more sensual, as if they were trying to relax, soothe and massage her all in one. Kazuha was enjoying his attention immensely and had at some point closed her eyes in pleasure. She was bitting her lip to prevent herself from moaning out.
Her hands came up to his chest, her fists holding on to his shirt now, her cheek rubbing against it. She slowly moved her leg against Heijis in desperate need to achieve some reliefment of this deep need that arose within her higher and higher every moment.
"Oh Heiji!" she breathed out his name, not being able to hold it back anymore. She crawled up to his eye level, grinned down at him and started kissing his cheek. Then her lips moved down his jawline to his chin, then again up to the corner of his lips, licking it gently. Heiji in the meanwhile was squirming underneath her, trying up push his head up to catch her lips but she was pulling way, teasing him. He let himself fall back, giving up for now.
Kazuha giggled at her defeated detctive. He was looking so cute, in her mercy and everything and pouting a little. She then leaned down and gave him a sweet kiss as reward, right on his lips. Our surpried Heiji recovered immediately and his arms moved around to hug her once again.
She let herself being pulled down on him again, taking his head in her hands as they kissed, first sweet then with more and more passion. Satisfied she pulled away after a long while and looked with a content little smile down at her love. Opening his eyes slowly, he looked back at her shining eyes.
Everything came crushing down on Kazuha. She could not believe that yesterday she had been questioning herself what to do with him and if he liked her as well and now here she was. In the arms of her one true love, being held closely by him and being kissed by him like his woman and not his friend… it was so amazing… he was so amazing. And he was hers now. And she would never give him away again. Never ever.
Slowly and with all her love for him, she bend down and kissed him again, not passionate but just as loving and sweet and breathtaking as before. She pulled away again and smiled at him. Heiji smiled back and buried one hand in her hair, caressing her scalp gently. She bend down and rubbed her nose affectionly against his. He returned the eskimo kiss with a grin and Kazuha pulled away again, leaning her head forward and resting her cheek gently against his after rubbing it a few times back and forth.
She had this feeling that she has to hold on him tightly because he might slip away and disappear any moment, or she may wake up of this dream and be alone in her bed. She hugged his head close to her and Heiji felt somehow what was bothering her. He hugged her even closer with his one arm and stoked over her head and hair gently with his other. A lonely tear escaped her eye as she smiled to herself. Turning her head the slighelst bit, she whispered her gratefulness into his ear with emotional voice.
"I love you."
"I love you." He whispered back at her.
She chocked a little on her smile as she pulled back and kissed him once again, not being able to get enough of his kisses.
While kissing deeply, he gathered her in his arms and turned them around once more. From his kneeling position above her, he trailed his kisses slowly down her chin, over her throat to her collarbone, making her shiver all over, not being able to get enough of her. It was like a drug he could never get enough of. Heiji peppered her neck with sweet, butterfly kisses, up and down, over and over again. Kazuha opened her mouth silently and moved her head to the side, making it easier for him. After some time he moved his head down her shoulders, sliding the right straps of her bra and dress over them so he had better access.
Kazuha moved one hand to his head, holding him close as he kissed her shoulder, going slowly down. She breathed out louder than usual and suddenly heard somebody call her name.
"Kazuha?" she opened her eyes and looked at Heiji, thinking it may had been him who had just called but judging from his shocked look, it had been not him. Not at all.
"Kazuha?" a voice called louder.
Both sat up immediately and looked at each other in pure shock. Kazuha jumped off the bed and ran to her door while adjusting her straps and decoltée. Just as she had closed it behind her an approaching voice talked to her.
"Oh, here you are!"
"D- daddy!"
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