Emma couldn't stand the look of seeing Sean hooked up to machines. The worse part about it was that she thought she was the cause of it all. Of course she was but Sean couldn't tell her that and neither of them would have the nerve to admit that she was the reason. It would only cause an even more depressed Emma and a very unhappy and also depressing Sean.

Emma walked closer and closer to Sean's bedside until she was only a few inches away from the bed. She took one look at Sean and started to cry harder than she had been before. She quickly turned and started walking away when a very weak voice called out her name.

"Emma." Sean said weakly.

Emma turned back around and started walking towards Sean's bed. She wasn't sure if he was talking to her or asking for her like he had been earlier.

"Sean." Emma said.

Sean's eyes opened a little and he saw Emma looking at him with tears streaming down her face and even more building up in her eyes.

"Don't cry Emma. Don't." Sean said once again very weakly.

"Don't cry? Sean you were cutting. You of all people were cutting." Emma said and then started to cry harder than she had a few minutes before.

"I know Emma. I was mad. Upset. Hurt. Angry. I was a lot of things…" Sean trailed off. He was about to say something else but he knew he shouldn't He couldn't bear to tell Emma that she was the reason why he was in here.

"Why Sean? Why would you do such a stupid thing? You are so much smarter than this. I know you are." Emma said and then paused. She knew she was the reason he was in here and quickly wished she could take her question about why he did what he did back but she couldn't.

"I don't want to talk about it." Sean said. It was the truth. He couldn't talk about it. Even after Emma causing him to do this he still found himself loving her. It was like blind love. He saw her faults but that didn't change the fact that he loved her and vise versa.

"Okay. But Sean…" Emma said.

"Hmm?" Sean said.

"Sean why was I who you were asking for? At least that was what the doctors told Jay and me." Emma asked. It seemed weird that he would ask for her after her putting him in here. But she still wanted to know why so she asked.

"Emma I know neither of us wants to bring this up because it's going to cause so much pain and depression but I need too. You are why I am in here and you are why I cut. But I started it so I'm not letting you take all of the blame. I was the stupid one who told you that I didn't love you when the truth is that I do love you Emma. I want to marry you someday but I don't think that is going to ever happen." Sean said and then paused. He looked straight into Emma's eyes. "But I kept saying your name because I needed to see you. I thought I was going to die Emma. I wanted to die but I'm glad Ellie found me in time. If I died then we would have so many words left unspoken and that's never good. That's what happened to us before and I hated it. I'm sure you did too. Emma I wanted you to know that I love you. I still do and I always will. No one can replace you – not even Ellie or Amy replaced you. Amy was just there to pretend that I had moved on from you even though I hadn't. But with Ellie it wasn't like that. Sure I love her but I'm not in love with her. Emma I'm in love with you. I know I said some pretty cruel things to you in that note I left you in your locker but I hope you can forgive me. I know I always get second chances – well more like this being my fourth and then I screw up but this time I won't. I promise I won't. I will break up with Ellie and we can be together. We need to be together Em. I love you. Look what I did because I saw how much I screwed up. If we aren't together who knows what I will do next" Sean said.

Emma just stared at him. She was still crying. Was Sean really telling the truth? Did he really want her? And was he really going to break up with Ellie for her? It seemed too unreal but she was the reason he cut and was in this damn hospital so she had to forgive him. She needed to forgive him. In fact she wanted too.

"Sean I don't care about that. Well I do care that you screw up but I know I am the reason you are in this damn place and why you cut. I didn't mean what I said in that letter. I love you Sean. I always have. Even when I dated Chris. It was the same reason you dated Amy. When you came back and had your arm around Ellie I was hurt. You lead me on and everything. Then you told me it was you being caught in the moment or whatever. I was mad. But Sean I need you. I love you." Emma said still crying.

"I love you too." Sean said and then took Emma's hand in his. They gazed into each other's eyes and then Emma bent down to give him a kiss. It was a sweet tender kiss. They both enjoyed it too.

For next few hours they sat there talking about things. It was mostly about their past and how they promised to never make mistakes like before again. The only thing they had left to worry about was how Ellie would take Sean wanting to break up with her. Of course it was going to be heartbreaking for her to hear those words but Sean had to do it. He had to do it for himself and for Emma. He loved Ellie and all but he wasn't in love with her. He was in love with Emma and always had been. It just took some time to realize it.

After they were done talking they said their goodbyes and then Emma left Sean's hospital room. She went over to Ellie and told her that Sean wanted to see her. Ellie knew it wasn't good because Emma had been in his room for over two hours and she also overheard Jay telling Alex that Sean was saying Emma's name instead of hers. It was heartbreaking just to hear that but what she was going to hear in a few moments would be even more heartbreaking.

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