Jay and Emma sat in silence for about half an hour and then finally something happened. Emma hugged Jay so tight he could barely breathe. He hugged her back. Emma was glad that he was there for her. If he wasn't then she probably would have hurt herself a while back or even worse. It was always a scary thought thinking the whole what if Jay wasn't there thing. She tried to avoid it as much as possible.
"Emma what's wrong? You always tell me what's wrong before something like this happens - you breakdown crying and pushing everyone except me away. Em you promised that you wouldn't do that again. Remember the last time it happened?" Jay said in concerned voice.
Emma did remember. After the whole ravine thing Alex and Jay broke up. She felt bad and thought it was her fault. Jay was skipping class the day he heard someone in the bathroom scream so loud they seemed like they were in pain not scared. He rushed into the bathroom not caring if it was for girls only and there he found Emma on the floor crying hysterically and in so much pain. It was the first and last time she ever cut herself. She remembers that day so clearly.
"Oh Emma what'd you cut for? What's wrong?" Jay asked as he sat down next to Emma who was on the floor. She just stared at him. Jay Hogart who was Degrassi's bad boy and acted as if he didn't care about a thing in the world actually sounded worried about Emma. It surprised her a bit.
"Nothing Jay. Nothing." Emma said.
"Nothing? Emma no one cuts for the fun of it. Just tell me please." Jay pleaded.
"No." Emma said angrily.
Emma looked at Jay. Why would he care? He wouldn't. He just wanted something to talk about with all of his friends. How he got to see the inside of the girl's bathroom because he heard screams and found Emma cutting. Something like that. She was so wrong though.
"Em please. I want to know. I want to help." Jay said. This got Emma's attention for sure.
"Em? No one calls me that except for my friends and…" She began to cry harder.
"Sean? I know. I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that. Emma please tell me what's wrong." Jay asked one last time. Emma didn't say anything. "Fine then don't talk. I will have to stay in here until you do then. And I am really hungry. I could starve to death depending on how long you wait until you tell me." Jay said with a half smile. This made Emma smile a little bit.
"Jay I'm sorry. It's all my fault." Emma said.
"What? Em I mean Emma what's all your fault?" He asked confused.
"You and Alex breaking up. It's my fault. If I hadn't gone down at you or even gotten a ride home from you that day after school then none of this would have ever happened. It's all my fault. Emma Nelson screwed up…again." She said.
"It's not your fault Emma. It was bound to happen. It needed to happen. But what do you mean by again? This is the first I think you have ever screwed up and I wouldn't really call it screwing up. More like a mistake that needed to happen." Jay said.
"It's not my first. What about my interfering in Sean's fight with Jimmy which resulted in a break up. Then me not spending enough time with him which was why he started hanging out with you Jay. And then when Rick pointed the gun at me I thought Sean would just let him kill me. That's how much I thought he hated me but I guess he didn't. Hmm and the ravine wasn't a mistake I guess but it wasn't a good thing in my life Jay. I'm sorry." Emma said crying.
"Don't be sorry." He said wiping the tears away from her eyes. "And don't worry about those mistakes or whatever you want to call them. That was the past and you just need to worry about now – your future. Em you're a great girl. Everyone makes mistakes so don't bring yourself down because you think you are the only one. Trust me you aren't." Jay said looking at Emma. She was looking at him. Then Jay leaned in and kissed her. The kissed lasted only a few seconds though.
Emma stared at him in amazement and then spoke. "Jay." Emma said while they were still looking into each others eyes. "Thanks. I'm glad someone gets me. I just wish it would be like this every time I need help." Emma said.
"It will be Em. I'm always here for you. I mean it. Always." Jay said and then got up and left the girls bathroom. Emma just stood there confused and happy about what just happened. Confused about the kiss but happy he said he was always there for her.
"I remember. Jay I overheard Sean and Alex. Well actually I kind of followed them out here and hid behind something. They were talking Jay and… well Alex is pregnant with his baby. I don't know if she is keeping it but it's Sean's baby. Something about a party in Wasaga a while ago. Well I told myself I wouldn't ask and that I would let him tell me what was going on but he didn't. When we were dancing he was avoiding keeping eye contact with me and then when I ran out of the dance crying he had no idea why. I can understand that but I mean he's my boyfriend he's supposed to be who I can run to when something is wrong not you. Don't get me wrong Jay I love you always helping me but he is my boyfriend." Emma said sobbing almost the whole way through. She put her head on Jay's shoulder and they stayed like that for most of the night.
Sean had gone home after Emma yelled at him. He wanted to think things over. What was he going to do when Alex had the baby if she decided to keep it? Would he have to dump Emma? How would she take it? All of these questions floating through his mind and they all needed an answer.
Emma woke up to find herself sleeping in Jay's bed. At first she was worried about what might have happened the night before but then she remembered that Jay told her that she should come to his place because he didn't want her to hurt herself. Jay let her have the bed which was why she was sleeping in it. Emma got out of the bed and went searching through the house to find Jay. She couldn't find him anywhere. Instead she found a note on the kitchen table.
Emma,
Don't go anywhere. I will be back really soon. I realized last night that I didn't have any food in this dump of a place so I went to go get some groceries. I know it's funny. Me – Jay Hogart food shopping. Well I will be back as soon as I can and with some breakfast for you so please stay. I think we have a little more talking to do. After that you should talk to Cameron. He does love you.
Always,
Jay
Just as Emma finished reading the note there was a knock on the door. She decided to answer it. It could be Jay asking for help opening the door because his arms are too full or someone else. Either way it must be important because it was still early in the morning.
Emma walked over to the door and when she opened it her mouth dropped. It was Sean. But not the Sean she saw the other night. This Sean was still half drunk from the night before. He had bruises all over his body and a torn up shirt. He had a dried up bloody lip and a soon to be black and blue eye. He was a mess. But what happened?
Ahaha as someone addressed I made a mistake on the last chapter. I said that Sean was pregnant with Alex's baby. Now I know you are all smart enough to know what I meant by that. It's supposed to be switched. Also, I will be adding a new chapter to my other story very soon. Let me know what you thought of this chapter.
