At Sean's house they basically just made out the whole time until the pizza man got there. Then they ate their pizza and after they were done eating they would make out again. Things between them were getting so hot and heavy that Sean decided to reach for Emma's belt. When she noticed what Sean wanted she moved her body a little trying to hint to him that she didn't want to do what he wanted to do. Of course that didn't work. Sean just reached for her belt once more and this time he unbuttoned her pants. Emma noticed this and pushed Sean off of her.
"Emma?" Sean said confused.
"What?" She said a little pissed off.
"What was that about?" Sean asked her.
"Sean the first time you went for my belt I moved my body in such a way that should have hinted to you that I didn't want to do what you had in mind. Of course you ignored that whole aspect and tried again. I don't want to have sex with you Sean." Emma said.
Sean just stood there looking at Emma. He was confused. She loved him and he loved her. What more did she want? Maybe she didn't want him and didn't love him like she said.
"Oh… Alright. We won't have sex then. We won't do anything Emma. Just leave." Sean said.
He was taking this the wrong way which was just like him. Emma wasn't ready and Sean couldn't understand that. Every time he wanted to have sex with a girl they "were ready" or so they said to him. They only told Sean they were ready so he wouldn't get mad and because they wanted to have sex with him.
"Whatever. You don't understand me do you Sean? I'm not like those other bazillion girls you had sex with – I'm different." With that said Emma left.
Sean just stood there and after a few minutes had gone by he decided to clean up his apartment. It was a mess from a few weeks ago and then there was the mess he and Emma had made earlier. Besides it was something he could do without having to think of Emma and how stupid he was for pushing things too far.
Meanwhile, Emma went to Jay's. He was the only person who understood her. Emma took her time getting to Jay's though. She had to think of what to say to him. They only left his house about three hours ago and her showing up on his doorstep again wouldn't look too good especially for Sean. Jay hated when Sean hurt Emma because Emma was such a good person.
When Emma got to Jay's she knocked on the door a few times before he answered the door. When Jay opened the door and saw Emma standing there with a sad look on her face he knew something was wrong. Emma ran into Jay's arms and they hugged for a few minutes before pulling apart.
"Emma what's wrong? You and Sean were just here not that long ago and you were both really happy. Now you come here and you looked pissed and hurt. What'd he do to you Em?" Jay asked concerned.
"Jay…" Emma began. "I don't know what's wrong. Sean and I were fine. We were making out on his couch and then we ordered pizza. After that we made out some more and I guess things got too hot and heavy because the next thing I knew he was trying to take off my pants. I hinted to him that I didn't want to do that but he didn't take the hint. He tried to do it again and this time he got my pants undone. Then I pushed him off of me and he got really mad. I told him I didn't want to have sex with him and he took it the wrong way. He got all defensive and said that we wouldn't have sex and that we wouldn't do anything. Then he told me to just leave. Jay I don't know what to do. I love him too much to lose him again. It's just I don't want to have sex with him or with anyone…. I am just not ready." Emma said crying.
"Shh Em it's okay. It'll all be fine don't worry." Jay said hugging Emma once more.
"I hope so Jay. But what am I supposed to do? I feel bad because by the tone of his voice and what he said to me I think he thought that I didn't want to have sex with him because I didn't like him. That's completely ludicrous because we were just talking about how much we love each other when we were here." Emma said.
"I will talk to him Em. Well only if you want me too okay? But you need to talk to him too. You need to let him know why you didn't want to have sex with him otherwise he is going to keep thinking it's because you don't like him and I know that's not true." Jay said.
"Thanks for everything Jay. I don't know what I would ever do without you. You are like my older brother except not?" Emma said laughing a little.
"No problem Em. I like being here for you." Jay said.
Emma and Jay were looking into each other's eyes and then before either of them knew it they were kissing each other. It was slow and passionate and very long. Neither of them knew why this was happening but they didn't care. A couple of minutes passed by and then they pulled out of the kiss completely stunned and confused as to what just happened.
"Um wow…" Emma said shocked at what she had just done. She loves Sean and Jay knew it so why did they kiss?
"Emma I'm…I'm so sorry. That shouldn't of happened." Jay said. He felt bad because this could possibly ruin Emma's relationship with Sean if he ever found out.
"Maybe I should um go. Yeah. I will talk to you later Jay." Emma said and then left before Jay could say anything to her.
Emma went to Sean's house. She needed to talk to him. Even though less than an hour ago he told her to get out she had to talk to him. He had to understand why. When she got at his house she just walked in without knocking. She made her way into his room and found him sleeping in his bed. He looked so peaceful and cute so she didn't wake him. Emma just crawled into his bed and lied down next to him. She started to run his hair through her hands and then she started to rub his back. After about fifteen minutes or so she fell asleep next to him. When she woke up it was to him calling her name.
"Emma. Emma. Emma." Sean said repeatedly until she woke up.
"What?" She said sitting up in his bed. "Oh wow. Sean I didn't mean to fall asleep. I just wanted to talk so I decided to wait here until you woke up. I didn't mean to fall asleep." Emma said.
"No it's fine Emma. But why would you want to talk to me? I got mad at you for not wanting to have sex and then I told you to leave. What kind of a boyfriend does that to his girlfriend?" Sean asked but it wasn't really a question directed towards Emma. "I'll tell you who. An idiot like me. I'm a screw up Emma. Why do you even bother with me?" Sean said.
"Shut up Sean." Emma said in an angry tone. "You need to just shut up. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. You are a great boyfriend Sean. I'm not going to lie for you and say you don't mess up because you do but that's what this is all about. No one is perfect. I'm not and I don't beat myself up for it when I make mistakes. It's just life Sean. Get used to it." Emma said.
"But you haven't made as many mistakes as I have. You made one and that was with Jay at the ravine or something." Sean said.
"That's one mistake I made another one today." She whispered to herself. Sean heard her say it though.
"What's the other mistake you made today?" Sean questioned her.
"What? You could hear that?" She asked.
"Yes." Sean said.
"Oh well after you told me to leave I went to Jay's. Sean he's like my bother and he's been a better friend to me since you left than Manny has been in my whole life. I told him what happened and he told me to talk to you which is why I came here. Well after I told him something we kissed. It wasn't planned or anything. It just kind of happened. I'm sorry." Emma said.
"Whatever. Leave Emma. But instead of going to Jay's go home unless you want to go kiss him some more." Sean said mad.
"Sean come on. It was a mistake. Look at you." Emma said.
"Look at me what?" He asked mad at her.
"You have made a million more mistakes than I have and I fucking forgave you for each one of them. And then over the summer you got Alex fucking pregnant. You got her pregnant Sean. You were still going out with Ellie when you did that. Who the hell does that? I'll tell you who. Sean Hope Cameron that's who. You like to toy with girls emotions and lead them on. Then when you finally get what you want from them you leave them for someone else while they have to pick up the pieces to their broken heart. So if you want to just leave me again for making one stupid mistake that's fine. I can live without you Sean. I have done it oh I don't know lets see here… three times. This would only be the forth. I am used to it." Emma said extremely angry for Sean getting mad at her because of a stupid mistake.
The kiss didn't mean anything to her. Or did it? Either way she wasn't going to take this crap from him anymore. He made so many mistakes and she forgave him for each one of them but if she makes a mistake he doesn't know what to do. It's hard to be in that kind of relationship. Not knowing if what you say or are doing is good or bad.
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